THE HUNGRY STONES
AND OTHER STORIES
By Rabindranath Tagore
THE HUNGRY STONES
ONCE THERE WAS A KING
MY LORD, THE BABY
THE KINGDOM OF CARDS
THE BABUS OF NAYANJORE
LIVING OR DEAD?
"WE CROWN THEE KING"
The stories contained in this volume were translated by several hands. The
version of The Victory is the author's own work. The seven stories which
follow were translated by Mr. C. F. Andrews, with the help of the author's
help. Assistance has also been given by the Rev. E. J. Thompson, Panna Lal
Basu, Prabhat Kumar Mukerjii, and the Sister Nivedita.
THE HUNGRY STONES
My kinsman and myself were returning to Calcutta from our Puja trip when
we met the man in a train. From his dress and bearing we took him at first
for an up-country Mahomedan, but we were puzzled as we heard him talk. He
discoursed upon all subjects so confidently that you might think the
Disposer of All Things consulted him at all times in all that He did.
Hitherto we had been perfectly happy, as we did not know that secret and
unheard-of forces were at work, that the Russians had advanced close to
us, that the English had deep and secret policies, that confusion among
the native chiefs had come to a head. But our newly-acquired friend said
with a sly smile: "There happen more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
than are reported in your newspapers." As we had never stirred out of our
homes before, the demeanour of the man struck us dumb with wonder. Be the
topic ever so trivial, he would quote science, or comment on the Vedas, or
repeat quatrains from some Persian poet; and as we had no pretence to a
knowledge of science or the Vedas or Persian, our admiration for him went
on increasing, and my kinsman, a theosophist, was firmly convinced that
our fellow-passenger must have been supernaturally inspired by some
strange "magnetism" or "occult power," by an "astral body" or something of
that kind. He listened to the tritest saying that fell from the lips of
our extraordinary companion with devotional rapture, and secretly took
down notes of his conversation. I fancy that the extraordinary man saw
this, and was a little pleased with it.
When the train reached the junction, we assembled in the waiting room for
the connection. It was then 10 P.M., and as the train, we heard, was
likely to be very late, owing to something wrong in the lines, I spread my
bed on the table and was about to lie down for a comfortable doze, when
the extraordinary person deliberately set about spinning the following
yarn. Of course, I could get no sleep that night.
When, owing to a disagreement about some questions of administrative
policy, I threw up my post at Junagarh, and entered the service of the
Nizam of Hydria, they appointed me at once, as a strong young man,
collector of cotton duties at Barich.
Barich is a lovely place. The Susta "chatters over stony ways and babbles
on the pebbles," tripping, like a skilful dancing girl, in through the
woods below the lonely hills. A flight of 150 steps rises from the river,
and above that flight, on the river's brim and at the foot of the hills,
there stands a solitary marble palace. Around it there is no habitation of
man—the village and the cotton mart of Barich being far off.
About 250 years ago the Emperor Mahmud Shah II. had built this lonely
palace for his pleasure and luxury. In his days jets of rose-water spurted
from its fountains, and on the cold marble floors of its spray-cooled
rooms young Persian damsels would sit, their hair dishevelled before
bathing, and, splashing their soft naked feet in the clear water of the
reservoirs, would sing, to the tune of the guitar, the ghazals of their
The fountains play no longer; the songs have ceased; no longer do
snow-white feet step gracefully on the snowy marble. It is but the vast
and solitary quarters of cess-collectors like us, men oppressed with
solitude and deprived of the society of women. Now, Karim Khan, the old
clerk of my office, warned me repeatedly not to take up my abode there.
"Pass the day there, if you like," said he, "but never stay the night." I
passed it off with a light laugh. The servants said that they would work
till dark and go away at night. I gave my ready assent. The house had such
a bad name that even thieves would not venture near it after dark.
At first the solitude of the deserted palace weighed upon me like a
nightmare. I would stay out, and work hard as long as possible, then
return home at night jaded and tired, go to bed and fall asleep.
Before a week had passed, the place began to exert a weird fascination
upon me. It is difficult to describe or to induce people to believe; but I
felt as if the whole house was like a living organism slowly and
imperceptibly digesting me by the action of some stupefying gastric juice.
Perhaps the process had begun as soon as I set my foot in the house, but I
distinctly remember the day on which I first was conscious of it.
It was the beginning of summer, and the market being dull I had no work to
do. A little before sunset I was sitting in an arm-chair near the water's
edge below the steps. The Susta had shrunk and sunk low; a broad patch of
sand on the other side glowed with the hues of evening; on this side the
pebbles at the bottom of the clear shallow waters were glistening. There
was not a breath of wind anywhere, and the still air was laden with an
oppressive scent from the spicy shrubs growing on the hills close by.
As the sun sank behind the hill-tops a long dark curtain fell upon the
stage of day, and the intervening hills cut short the time in which light
and shade mingle at sunset. I thought of going out for a ride, and was
about to get up when I heard a footfall on the steps behind. I looked
back, but there was no one.
As I sat down again, thinking it to be an illusion, I heard many
footfalls, as if a large number of persons were rushing down the steps. A
strange thrill of delight, slightly tinged with fear, passed through my
frame, and though there was not a figure before my eyes, methought I saw a
bevy of joyous maidens coming down the steps to bathe in the Susta in that
summer evening. Not a sound was in the valley, in the river, or in the
palace, to break the silence, but I distinctly heard the maidens' gay and
mirthful laugh, like the gurgle of a spring gushing forth in a hundred
cascades, as they ran past me, in quick playful pursuit of each other,
towards the river, without noticing me at all. As they were invisible to
me, so I was, as it were, invisible to them. The river was perfectly calm,
but I felt that its still, shallow, and clear waters were stirred suddenly
by the splash of many an arm jingling with bracelets, that the girls
laughed and dashed and spattered water at one another, that the feet of
the fair swimmers tossed the tiny waves up in showers of pearl.
I felt a thrill at my heart—I cannot say whether the excitement was
due to fear or delight or curiosity. I had a strong desire to see them
more clearly, but naught was visible before me; I thought I could catch
all that they said if I only strained my ears; but however hard I strained
them, I heard nothing but the chirping of the cicadas in the woods. It
seemed as if a dark curtain of 250 years was hanging before me, and I
would fain lift a corner of it tremblingly and peer through, though the
assembly on the other side was completely enveloped in darkness.
The oppressive closeness of the evening was broken by a sudden gust of
wind, and the still surface of the Suista rippled and curled like the hair
of a nymph, and from the woods wrapt in the evening gloom there came forth
a simultaneous murmur, as though they were awakening from a black dream.
Call it reality or dream, the momentary glimpse of that invisible mirage
reflected from a far-off world, 250 years old, vanished in a flash. The
mystic forms that brushed past me with their quick unbodied steps, and
loud, voiceless laughter, and threw themselves into the river, did not go
back wringing their dripping robes as they went. Like fragrance wafted
away by the wind they were dispersed by a single breath of the spring.
Then I was filled with a lively fear that it was the Muse that had taken
advantage of my solitude and possessed me—the witch had evidently
come to ruin a poor devil like myself making a living by collecting cotton
duties. I decided to have a good dinner—it is the empty stomach that
all sorts of incurable diseases find an easy prey. I sent for my cook and
gave orders for a rich, sumptuous moghlai dinner, redolent of spices and
Next morning the whole affair appeared a queer fantasy. With a light heart
I put on a sola hat like the sahebs, and drove out to my work. I was to
have written my quarterly report that day, and expected to return late;
but before it was dark I was strangely drawn to my house—by what I
could not say—I felt they were all waiting, and that I should delay
no longer. Leaving my report unfinished I rose, put on my sola hat, and
startling the dark, shady, desolate path with the rattle of my carriage, I
reached the vast silent palace standing on the gloomy skirts of the hills.
On the first floor the stairs led to a very spacious hall, its roof
stretching wide over ornamental arches resting on three rows of massive
pillars, and groaning day and night under the weight of its own intense
solitude. The day had just closed, and the lamps had not yet been lighted.
As I pushed the door open a great bustle seemed to follow within, as if a
throng of people had broken up in confusion, and rushed out through the
doors and windows and corridors and verandas and rooms, to make its
As I saw no one I stood bewildered, my hair on end in a kind of ecstatic
delight, and a faint scent of attar and unguents almost effected by age
lingered in my nostrils. Standing in the darkness of that vast desolate
hall between the rows of those ancient pillars, I could hear the gurgle of
fountains plashing on the marble floor, a strange tune on the guitar, the
jingle of ornaments and the tinkle of anklets, the clang of bells tolling
the hours, the distant note of nahabat, the din of the crystal pendants of
chandeliers shaken by the breeze, the song of bulbuls from the cages in
the corridors, the cackle of storks in the gardens, all creating round me
a strange unearthly music.
Then I came under such a spell that this intangible, inaccessible,
unearthly vision appeared to be the only reality in the world—and
all else a mere dream. That I, that is to say, Srijut So-and-so, the
eldest son of So-and-so of blessed memory, should be drawing a monthly
salary of Rs. 450 by the discharge of my duties as collector of cotton
duties, and driving in my dog-cart to my office every day in a short coat
and soia hat, appeared to me to be such an astonishingly ludicrous
illusion that I burst into a horse-laugh, as I stood in the gloom of that
vast silent hall.
At that moment my servant entered with a lighted kerosene lamp in his
hand. I do not know whether he thought me mad, but it came back to me at
once that I was in very deed Srijut So-and-so, son of So-and-so of blessed
memory, and that, while our poets, great and small, alone could say
whether inside of or outside the earth there was a region where unseen
fountains perpetually played and fairy guitars, struck by invisible
fingers, sent forth an eternal harmony, this at any rate was certain, that
I collected duties at the cotton market at Banch, and earned thereby Rs.
450 per mensem as my salary. I laughed in great glee at my curious
illusion, as I sat over the newspaper at my camp-table, lighted by the
After I had finished my paper and eaten my moghlai dinner, I put out the
lamp, and lay down on my bed in a small side-room. Through the open window
a radiant star, high above the Avalli hills skirted by the darkness of
their woods, was gazing intently from millions and millions of miles away
in the sky at Mr. Collector lying on a humble camp-bedstead. I wondered
and felt amused at the idea, and do not knew when I fell asleep or how
long I slept; but I suddenly awoke with a start, though I heard no sound
and saw no intruder—only the steady bright star on the hilltop had
set, and the dim light of the new moon was stealthily entering the room
through the open window, as if ashamed of its intrusion.
I saw nobody, but felt as if some one was gently pushing me. As I awoke
she said not a word, but beckoned me with her five fingers bedecked with
rings to follow her cautiously. I got up noiselessly, and, though not a
soul save myself was there in the countless apartments of that deserted
palace with its slumbering sounds and waiting echoes, I feared at every
step lest any one should wake up. Most of the rooms of the palace were
always kept closed, and I had never entered them.
I followed breathless and with silent steps my invisible guide—I
cannot now say where. What endless dark and narrow passages, what long
corridors, what silent and solemn audience-chambers and close secret cells
Though I could not see my fair guide, her form was not invisible to my
mind's eye,—an Arab girl, her arms, hard and smooth as marble,
visible through her loose sleeves, a thin veil falling on her face from
the fringe of her cap, and a curved dagger at her waist! Methought that
one of the thousand and one Arabian Nights had been wafted to me from the
world of romance, and that at the dead of night I was wending my way
through the dark narrow alleys of slumbering Bagdad to a trysting-place
fraught with peril.
At last my fair guide stopped abruptly before a deep blue screen, and
seemed to point to something below. There was nothing there, but a sudden
dread froze the blood in my heart-methought I saw there on the floor at
the foot of the screen a terrible negro eunuch dressed in rich brocade,
sitting and dozing with outstretched legs, with a naked sword on his lap.
My fair guide lightly tripped over his legs and held up a fringe of the
screen. I could catch a glimpse of a part of the room spread with a
Persian carpet—some one was sitting inside on a bed—I could
not see her, but only caught a glimpse of two exquisite feet in
gold-embroidered slippers, hanging out from loose saffron-coloured
paijamas and placed idly on the orange-coloured velvet carpet. On one side
there was a bluish crystal tray on which a few apples, pears, oranges, and
bunches of grapes in plenty, two small cups and a gold-tinted decanter
were evidently waiting the guest. A fragrant intoxicating vapour, issuing
from a strange sort of incense that burned within, almost overpowered my
As with trembling heart I made an attempt to step across the outstretched
legs of the eunuch, he woke up suddenly with a start, and the sword fell
from his lap with a sharp clang on the marble floor. A terrific scream
made me jump, and I saw I was sitting on that camp-bedstead of mine
sweating heavily; and the crescent moon looked pale in the morning light
like a weary sleepless patient at dawn; and our crazy Meher Ali was crying
out, as is his daily custom, "Stand back! Stand back!!" while he went
along the lonely road.
Such was the abrupt close of one of my Arabian Nights; but there were yet
a thousand nights left.
Then followed a great discord between my days and nights. During the day I
would go to my work worn and tired, cursing the bewitching night and her
empty dreams, but as night came my daily life with its bonds and shackles
of work would appear a petty, false, ludicrous vanity.
After nightfall I was caught and overwhelmed in the snare of a strange
intoxication, I would then be transformed into some unknown personage of a
bygone age, playing my part in unwritten history; and my short English
coat and tight breeches did not suit me in the least. With a red velvet
cap on my head, loose paijamas, an embroidered vest, a long flowing silk
gown, and coloured handkerchiefs scented with attar, I would complete my
elaborate toilet, sit on a high-cushioned chair, and replace my cigarette
with a many-coiled narghileh filled with rose-water, as if in eager
expectation of a strange meeting with the beloved one.
I have no power to describe the marvellous incidents that unfolded
themselves, as the gloom of the night deepened. I felt as if in the
curious apartments of that vast edifice the fragments of a beautiful
story, which I could follow for some distance, but of which I could never
see the end, flew about in a sudden gust of the vernal breeze. And all the
same I would wander from room to room in pursuit of them the whole night
Amid the eddy of these dream-fragments, amid the smell of henna and the
twanging of the guitar, amid the waves of air charged with fragrant spray,
I would catch like a flash of lightning the momentary glimpse of a fair
damsel. She it was who had saffron-coloured paijamas, white ruddy soft
feet in gold-embroidered slippers with curved toes, a close-fitting bodice
wrought with gold, a red cap, from which a golden frill fell on her snowy
brow and cheeks.
She had maddened me. In pursuit of her I wandered from room to room, from
path to path among the bewildering maze of alleys in the enchanted
dreamland of the nether world of sleep.
Sometimes in the evening, while arraying myself carefully as a prince of
the blood-royal before a large mirror, with a candle burning on either
side, I would see a sudden reflection of the Persian beauty by the side of
my own. A swift turn of her neck, a quick eager glance of intense passion
and pain glowing in her large dark eyes, just a suspicion of speech on her
dainty red lips, her figure, fair and slim crowned with youth like a
blossoming creeper, quickly uplifted in her graceful tilting gait, a
dazzling flash of pain and craving and ecstasy, a smile and a glance and a
blaze of jewels and silk, and she melted away. A wild glist of wind, laden
with all the fragrance of hills and woods, would put out my light, and I
would fling aside my dress and lie down on my bed, my eyes closed and my
body thrilling with delight, and there around me in the breeze, amid all
the perfume of the woods and hills, floated through the silent gloom many
a caress and many a kiss and many a tender touch of hands, and gentle
murmurs in my ears, and fragrant breaths on my brow; or a sweetly-perfumed
kerchief was wafted again and again on my cheeks. Then slowly a mysterious
serpent would twist her stupefying coils about me; and heaving a heavy
sigh, I would lapse into insensibility, and then into a profound slumber.
One evening I decided to go out on my horse—I do not know who
implored me to stay-but I would listen to no entreaties that day. My
English hat and coat were resting on a rack, and I was about to take them
down when a sudden whirlwind, crested with the sands of the Susta and the
dead leaves of the Avalli hills, caught them up, and whirled them round
and round, while a loud peal of merry laughter rose higher and higher,
striking all the chords of mirth till it died away in the land of sunset.
I could not go out for my ride, and the next day I gave up my queer
English coat and hat for good.
That day again at dead of night I heard the stifled heart-breaking sobs of
some one—as if below the bed, below the floor, below the stony
foundation of that gigantic palace, from the depths of a dark damp grave,
a voice piteously cried and implored me: "Oh, rescue me! Break through
these doors of hard illusion, deathlike slumber and fruitless dreams,
place by your side on the saddle, press me to your heart, and, riding
through hills and woods and across the river, take me to the warm radiance
of your sunny rooms above!"
Who am I? Oh, how can I rescue thee? What drowning beauty, what incarnate
passion shall I drag to the shore from this wild eddy of dreams? O lovely
ethereal apparition! Where didst thou flourish and when? By what cool
spring, under the shade of what date-groves, wast thou born—in the
lap of what homeless wanderer in the desert? What Bedouin snatched thee
from thy mother's arms, an opening bud plucked from a wild creeper, placed
thee on a horse swift as lightning, crossed the burning sands, and took
thee to the slave-market of what royal city? And there, what officer of
the Badshah, seeing the glory of thy bashful blossoming youth, paid for
thee in gold, placed thee in a golden palanquin, and offered thee as a
present for the seraglio of his master? And O, the history of that place!
The music of the sareng, the jingle of anklets, the occasional flash of
daggers and the glowing wine of Shiraz poison, and the piercing flashing
glance! What infinite grandeur, what endless servitude!
The slave-girls to thy right and left waved the chamar as diamonds flashed
from their bracelets; the Badshah, the king of kings, fell on his knees at
thy snowy feet in bejewelled shoes, and outside the terrible Abyssinian
eunuch, looking like a messenger of death, but clothed like an angel,
stood with a naked sword in his hand! Then, O, thou flower of the desert,
swept away by the blood-stained dazzling ocean of grandeur, with its foam
of jealousy, its rocks and shoals of intrigue, on what shore of cruel
death wast thou cast, or in what other land more splendid and more cruel?
Suddenly at this moment that crazy Meher Ali screamed out: "Stand back!
Stand back!! All is false! All is false!!" I opened my eyes and saw that
it was already light. My chaprasi came and handed me my letters, and the
cook waited with a salam for my orders.
I said; "No, I can stay here no longer." That very day I packed up, and
moved to my office. Old Karim Khan smiled a little as he saw me. I felt
nettled, but said nothing, and fell to my work.
As evening approached I grew absent-minded; I felt as if I had an
appointment to keep; and the work of examining the cotton accounts seemed
wholly useless; even the Nizamat of the Nizam did not appear to be of much
worth. Whatever belonged to the present, whatever was moving and acting
and working for bread seemed trivial, meaningless, and contemptible.
I threw my pen down, closed my ledgers, got into my dog-cart, and drove
away. I noticed that it stopped of itself at the gate of the marble palace
just at the hour of twilight. With quick steps I climbed the stairs, and
entered the room.
A heavy silence was reigning within. The dark rooms were looking sullen as
if they had taken offence. My heart was full of contrition, but there was
no one to whom I could lay it bare, or of whom I could ask forgiveness. I
wandered about the dark rooms with a vacant mind. I wished I had a guitar
to which I could sing to the unknown: "O fire, the poor moth that made a
vain effort to fly away has come back to thee! Forgive it but this once,
burn its wings and consume it in thy flame!"
Suddenly two tear-drops fell from overhead on my brow. Dark masses of
clouds overcast the top of the Avalli hills that day. The gloomy woods and
the sooty waters of the Susta were waiting in terrible suspense and in an
ominous calm. Suddenly land, water, and sky shivered, and a wild
tempest-blast rushed howling through the distant pathless woods, showing
its lightning-teeth like a raving maniac who had broken his chains. The
desolate halls of the palace banged their doors, and moaned in the
bitterness of anguish.
The servants were all in the office, and there was no one to light the
lamps. The night was cloudy and moonless. In the dense gloom within I
could distinctly feel that a woman was lying on her face on the carpet
below the bed—clasping and tearing her long dishevelled hair with
desperate fingers. Blood was tricking down her fair brow, and she was now
laughing a hard, harsh, mirthless laugh, now bursting into violent
wringing sobs, now rending her bodice and striking at her bare bosom, as
the wind roared in through the open window, and the rain poured in
torrents and soaked her through and through.
All night there was no cessation of the storm or of the passionate cry. I
wandered from room to room in the dark, with unavailing sorrow. Whom could
I console when no one was by? Whose was this intense agony of sorrow?
Whence arose this inconsolable grief?
And the mad man cried out: "Stand back! Stand back!! All is false! All is
I saw that the day had dawned, and Meher Ali was going round and round the
palace with his usual cry in that dreadful weather. Suddenly it came to me
that perhaps he also had once lived in that house, and that, though he had
gone mad, he came there every day, and went round and round, fascinated by
the weird spell cast by the marble demon.
Despite the storm and rain I ran to him and asked: "Ho, Meher Ali, what is
The man answered nothing, but pushing me aside went round and round with
his frantic cry, like a bird flying fascinated about the jaws of a snake,
and made a desperate effort to warn himself by repeating: "Stand back!
Stand back!! All is false! All is false!!"
I ran like a mad man through the pelting rain to my office, and asked
Karim Khan: "Tell me the meaning of all this!"
What I gathered from that old man was this: That at one time countless
unrequited passions and unsatisfied longings and lurid flames of wild
blazing pleasure raged within that palace, and that the curse of all the
heart-aches and blasted hopes had made its every stone thirsty and hungry,
eager to swallow up like a famished ogress any living man who might chance
to approach. Not one of those who lived there for three consecutive nights
could escape these cruel jaws, save Meher Ali, who had escaped at the cost
of his reason.
I asked: "Is there no means whatever of my release?" The old man said:
"There is only one means, and that is very difficult. I will tell you what
it is, but first you must hear the history of a young Persian girl who
once lived in that pleasure-dome. A stranger or a more bitterly
heart-rending tragedy was never enacted on this earth."
Just at this moment the coolies announced that the train was coming. So
soon? We hurriedly packed up our luggage, as the tram steamed in. An
English gentleman, apparently just aroused from slumber, was looking out
of a first-class carriage endeavouring to read the name of the station. As
soon as he caught sight of our fellow-passenger, he cried, "Hallo," and
took him into his own compartment. As we got into a second-class carriage,
we had no chance of finding out who the man was nor what was the end of
I said; "The man evidently took us for fools and imposed upon us out of
fun. The story is pure fabrication from start to finish." The discussion
that followed ended in a lifelong rupture between my theosophist kinsman
She was the Princess Ajita. And the court poet of King Narayan had never
seen her. On the day he recited a new poem to the king he would raise his
voice just to that pitch which could be heard by unseen hearers in the
screened balcony high above the hall. He sent up his song towards the
star-land out of his reach, where, circled with light, the planet who
ruled his destiny shone unknown and out of ken.
He would espy some shadow moving behind the veil. A tinkling sound would
come to his car from afar, and would set him dreaming of the ankles whose
tiny golden bells sang at each step. Ah, the rosy red tender feet that
walked the dust of the earth like God's mercy on the fallen! The poet had
placed them on the altar of his heart, where he wove his songs to the tune
of those golden bells. Doubt never arose in his mind as to whose shadow it
was that moved behind the screen, and whose anklets they were that sang to
the time of his beating heart.
Manjari, the maid of the princess, passed by the poet's house on her way
to the river, and she never missed a day to have a few words with him on
the sly. When she found the road deserted, and the shadow of dusk on the
land, she would boldly enter his room, and sit at the corner of his
carpet. There was a suspicion of an added care in the choice of the colour
of her veil, in the setting of the flower in her hair.
People smiled and whispered at this, and they were not to blame. For
Shekhar the poet never took the trouble to hide the fact that these
meetings were a pure joy to him.
The meaning of her name was the spray of flowers. One must confess that
for an ordinary mortal it was sufficient in its sweetness. But Shekhar
made his own addition to this name, and called her the Spray of Spring
Flowers. And ordinary mortals shook their heads and said, Ah, me!
In the spring songs that the poet sang the praise of the spray of spring
flowers was conspicuously reiterated; and the king winked and smiled at
him when he heard it, and the poet smiled in answer.
The king would put him the question; "Is it the business of the bee merely
to hum in the court of the spring?"
The poet would answer; "No, but also to sip the honey of the spray of
And they all laughed in the king's hall. And it was rumoured that the
Princess Akita also laughed at her maid's accepting the poet's name for
her, and Manjari felt glad in her heart.
Thus truth and falsehood mingle in life—and to what God builds man
adds his own decoration.
Only those were pure truths which were sung by the poet. The theme was
Krishna, the lover god, and Radha, the beloved, the Eternal Man and the
Eternal Woman, the sorrow that comes from the beginning of time, and the
joy without end. The truth of these songs was tested in his inmost heart
by everybody from the beggar to the king himself. The poet's songs were on
the lips of all. At the merest glimmer of the moon and the faintest
whisper of the summer breeze his songs would break forth in the land from
windows and courtyards, from sailing-boats, from shadows of the wayside
trees, in numberless voices.
Thus passed the days happily. The poet recited, the king listened, the
hearers applauded, Manjari passed and repassed by the poet's room on her
way to the river—the shadow flitted behind the screened balcony, and
the tiny golden bells tinkled from afar.
Just then set forth from his home in the south a poet on his path of
conquest. He came to King Narayan, in the kingdom of Amarapur. He stood
before the throne, and uttered a verse in praise of the king. He had
challenged all the court poets on his way, and his career of victory had
The king received him with honour, and said: "Poet, I offer you welcome."
Pundarik, the poet, proudly replied: "Sire, I ask for war."
Shekhar, the court poet of the king did not know how the battle of the
muse was to be waged. He had no sleep at night. The mighty figure of the
famous Pundarik, his sharp nose curved like a scimitar, and his proud head
tilted on one side, haunted the poet's vision in the dark.
With a trembling heart Shekhar entered the arena in the morning. The
theatre was filled with the crowd.
The poet greeted his rival with a smile and a bow. Pundarik returned it
with a slight toss of his head, and turned his face towards his circle of
adoring followers with a meaning smile. Shekhar cast his glance towards
the screened balcony high above, and saluted his lady in his mind, saying!
"If I am the winner at the combat to-day, my lady, thy victorious name
shall be glorified."
The trumpet sounded. The great crowd stood up, shouting victory to the
king. The king, dressed in an ample robe of white, slowly came into the
hall like a floating cloud of autumn, and sat on his throne.
Pundarik stood up, and the vast hall became still. With his head raised
high and chest expanded, he began in his thundering voice to recite the
praise of King Narayan. His words burst upon the walls of the hall like
breakers of the sea, and seemed to rattle against the ribs of the
listening crowd. The skill with which he gave varied meanings to the name
Narayan, and wove each letter of it through the web of his verses in all
mariner of combinations, took away the breath of his amazed hearers.
For some minutes after he took his seat his voice continued to vibrate
among the numberless pillars of the king's court and in thousands of
speechless hearts. The learned professors who had come from distant lands
raised their right hands, and cried, Bravo!
The king threw a glance on Shekhar's face, and Shekhar in answer raised
for a moment his eyes full of pain towards his master, and then stood up
like a stricken deer at bay. His face was pale, his bashfulness was almost
that of a woman, his slight youthful figure, delicate in its outline,
seemed like a tensely strung vina ready to break out in music at the least
His head was bent, his voice was low, when he began. The first few verses
were almost inaudible. Then he slowly raised his head, and his clear sweet
voice rose into the sky like a quivering flame of fire. He began with the
ancient legend of the kingly line lost in the haze of the past, and
brought it down through its long course of heroism and matchless
generosity to the present age. He fixed his gaze on the king's face, and
all the vast and unexpressed love of the people for the royal house rose
like incense in his song, and enwreathed the throne on all sides. These
were his last words when, trembling, he took his seat: "My master, I may
be beaten in play of words, but not in my love for thee."
Tears filled the eyes of the hearers, and the stone walls shook with cries
Mocking this popular outburst of feeling, with an august shake of his head
and a contemptuous sneer, Pundarik stood up, and flung this question to
the assembly; "What is there superior to words?" In a moment the hall
lapsed into silence again.
Then with a marvellous display of learning, he proved that the Word was in
the beginning, that the Word was God. He piled up quotations from
scriptures, and built a high altar for the Word to be seated above all
that there is in heaven and in earth. He repeated that question in his
mighty voice: "What is there superior to words?"
Proudly he looked around him. None dared to accept his challenge, and he
slowly took his seat like a lion who had just made a full meal of its
victim. The pandits shouted, Bravo! The king remained silent with wonder,
and the poet Shekhar felt himself of no account by the side of this
stupendous learning. The assembly broke up for that day.
Next day Shekhar began his song. It was of that day when the pipings of
love's flute startled for the first time the hushed air of the Vrinda
forest. The shepherd women did not know who was the player or whence came
the music. Sometimes it seemed to come from the heart of the south wind,
and sometimes from the straying clouds of the hilltops. It came with a
message of tryst from the land of the sunrise, and it floated from the
verge of sunset with its sigh of sorrow. The stars seemed to be the stops
of the instrument that flooded the dreams of the night with melody. The
music seemed to burst all at once from all sides, from fields and groves,
from the shady lanes and lonely roads, from the melting blue of the sky,
from the shimmering green of the grass. They neither knew its meaning nor
could they find words to give utterance to the desire of their hearts.
Tears filled their eyes, and their life seemed to long for a death that
would be its consummation.
Shekhar forgot his audience, forgot the trial of his strength with a
rival. He stood alone amid his thoughts that rustled and quivered round
him like leaves in a summer breeze, and sang the Song of the Flute. He had
in his mind the vision of an image that had taken its shape from a shadow,
and the echo of a faint tinkling sound of a distant footstep.
He took his seat. His hearers trembled with the sadness of an indefinable
delight, immense and vague, and they forgot to applaud him. As this
feeling died away Pundarik stood up before the throne and challenged his
rival to define who was this Lover and who was the Beloved. He arrogantly
looked around him, he smiled at his followers and then put the question
again: "Who is Krishna, the lover, and who is Radha, the beloved?"
Then he began to analyse the roots of those names,—and various
interpretations of their meanings. He brought before the bewildered
audience all the intricacies of the different schools of metaphysics with
consummate skill. Each letter of those names he divided from its fellow,
and then pursued them with a relentless logic till they fell to the dust
in confusion, to be caught up again and restored to a meaning never before
imagined by the subtlest of word-mongers.
The pandits were in ecstasy; they applauded vociferously; and the crowd
followed them, deluded into the certainty that they had witnessed, that
day, the last shred of the curtains of Truth torn to pieces before their
eyes by a prodigy of intellect. The performance of his tremendous feat so
delighted them that they forgot to ask themselves if there was any truth
behind it after all.
The king's mind was overwhelmed with wonder. The atmosphere was completely
cleared of all illusion of music, and the vision of the world around
seemed to be changed from its freshness of tender green to the solidity of
a high road levelled and made hard with crushed stones.
To the people assembled their own poet appeared a mere boy in comparison
with this giant, who walked with such case, knocking down difficulties at
each step in the world of words and thoughts. It became evident to them
for the first time that the poems Shekhar wrote were absurdly simple, and
it must be a mere accident that they did not write them themselves. They
were neither new, nor difficult, nor instructive, nor necessary.
The king tried to goad his poet with keen glances, silently inciting him
to make a final effort. But Shekhar took no notice, and remained fixed to
The king in anger came down from his throne—took off his pearl chain
and put it on Pundarik's head. Everybody in the hall cheered. From the
upper balcony came a slight sound of the movements of rustling robes and
waist-chains hung with golden bells. Shekhar rose from his seat and left
It was a dark night of waning moon. The poet Shekhar took down his MSS.
from his shelves and heaped them on the floor. Some of them contained his
earliest writings, which he had almost forgotten. He turned over the
pages, reading passages here and there. They all seemed to him poor and
trivial—mere words and childish rhymes!
One by one he tore his books to fragments, and threw them into a vessel
containing fire, and said: "To thee, to thee, O my beauty, my fire! Thou
hast been burning in my heart all these futile years. If my life were a
piece of gold it would come out of its trial brighter, but it is a trodden
turf of grass, and nothing remains of it but this handful of ashes."
The night wore on. Shekhar opened wide his windows. He spread upon his bed
the white flowers that he loved, the jasmines, tuberoses and
chrysanthemums, and brought into his bedroom all the lamps he had in his
house and lighted them. Then mixing with honey the juice of some poisonous
root he drank it and lay down on his bed.
Golden anklets tinkled in the passage outside the door, and a subtle
perfume came into the room with the breeze.
The poet, with his eyes shut, said; "My lady, have you taken pity upon
your servant at last and come to see him?"
The answer came in a sweet voice "My poet, I have come."
Shekhar opened his eyes—and saw before his bed the figure of a
His sight was dim and blurred. And it seemed to him that the image made of
a shadow that he had ever kept throned in the secret shrine of his heart
had come into the outer world in his last moment to gaze upon his face.
The woman said; "I am the Princess Ajita."
The poet with a great effort sat up on his bed.
The princess whispered into his car: "The king has not done you justice.
It was you who won at the combat, my poet, and I have come to crown you
with the crown of victory."
She took the garland of flowers from her own neck, and put it on his hair,
and the poet fell down upon his bed stricken by death.
ONCE THERE WAS A KING
"Once upon a time there was a king."
When we were children there was no need to know who the king in the fairy
story was. It didn't matter whether he was called Shiladitya or Shaliban,
whether he lived at Kashi or Kanauj. The thing that made a seven-year-old
boy's heart go thump, thump with delight was this one sovereign truth;
this reality of all realities: "Once there was a king."
But the readers of this modern age are far more exact and exacting. When
they hear such an opening to a story, they are at once critical and
suspicious. They apply the searchlight of science to its legendary haze
and ask: "Which king?"
The story-tellers have become more precise in their turn. They are no
longer content with the old indefinite, "There was a king," but assume
instead a look of profound learning, and begin: "Once there was a king
The modern reader's curiosity, however, is not so easily satisfied. He
blinks at the author through his scientific spectacles, and asks again:
"Every schoolboy knows," the author proceeds, "that there were three
Ajatasatrus. The first was born in the twentieth century B.C., and died at
the tender age of two years and eight months, I deeply regret that it is
impossible to find, from any trustworthy source, a detailed account of his
reign. The second Ajatasatru is better known to historians. If you refer
to the new Encyclopedia of History...."
By this time the modern reader's suspicions are dissolved. He feels he may
safely trust his author. He says to himself: "Now we shall have a story
that is both improving and instructive."
Ah! how we all love to be deluded! We have a secret dread of being thought
ignorant. And we end by being ignorant after all, only we have done it in
a long and roundabout way.
There is an English proverb; "Ask me no questions, and I will tell you no
lies." The boy of seven who is listening to a fairy story understands that
perfectly well; he withholds his questions, while the story is being told.
So the pure and beautiful falsehood of it all remains naked and innocent
as a babe; transparent as truth itself; limpid as afresh bubbling spring.
But the ponderous and learned lie of our moderns has to keep its true
character draped and veiled. And if there is discovered anywhere the least
little peep-hole of deception, the reader turns away with a prudish
disgust, and the author is discredited.
When we were young, we understood all sweet things; and we could detect
the sweets of a fairy story by an unerring science of our own. We never
cared for such useless things as knowledge. We only cared for truth. And
our unsophisticated little hearts knew well where the Crystal Palace of
Truth lay and how to reach it. But to-day we are expected to write pages
of facts, while the truth is simply this:
"There was a king."
I remember vividly that evening in Calcutta when the fairy story began.
The rain and the storm had been incessant. The whole of the city was
flooded. The water was knee-deep in our lane. I had a straining hope,
which was almost a certainty, that my tutor would be prevented from coming
that evening. I sat on the stool in the far corner of the veranda looking
down the lane, with a heart beating faster and faster. Every minute I kept
my eye on the rain, and when it began to grow less I prayed with all my
might; "Please, God, send some more rain till half-past seven is over."
For I was quite ready to believe that there was no other need for rain
except to protect one helpless boy one evening in one corner of Calcutta
from the deadly clutches of his tutor.
If not in answer to my prayer, at any rate according to some grosser law
of physical nature, the rain did not give up.
But, alas! nor did my teacher.
Exactly to the minute, in the bend of the lane, I saw his approaching
umbrella. The great bubble of hope burst in my breast, and my heart
collapsed. Truly, if there is a punishment to fit the crime after death,
then my tutor will be born again as me, and I shall be born as my tutor.
As soon as I saw his umbrella I ran as hard as I could to my mother's
room. My mother and my grandmother were sitting opposite one another
playing cards by the light of a lamp. I ran into the room, and flung
myself on the bed beside my mother, and said:
"Mother dear, the tutor has come, and I have such a bad headache; couldn't
I have no lessons today?"
I hope no child of immature age will be allowed to read this story, and I
sincerely trust it will not be used in text-books or primers for schools.
For what I did was dreadfully bad, and I received no punishment whatever.
On the contrary, my wickedness was crowned with success.
My mother said to me: "All right," and turning to the servant added: "Tell
the tutor that he can go back home."
It was perfectly plain that she didn't think my illness very serious, as
she went on with her game as before, and took no further notice. And I
also, burying my head in the pillow, laughed to my heart's content. We
perfectly understood one another, my mother and I.
But every one must know how hard it is for a boy of seven years old to
keep up the illusion of illness for a long time. After about a minute I
got hold of Grandmother, and said: "Grannie, do tell me a story."
I had to ask this many times. Grannie and Mother went on playing cards,
and took no notice. At last Mother said to me: "Child, don't bother. Wait
till we've finished our game." But I persisted: "Grannie, do tell me a
story." I told Mother she could finish her game to-morrow, but she must
let Grannie tell me a story there and then.
At last Mother threw down the cards and said: "You had better do what he
wants. I can't manage him." Perhaps she had it in her mind that she would
have no tiresome tutor on the morrow, while I should be obliged to be back
to those stupid lessons.
As soon as ever Mother had given way, I rushed at Grannie. I got hold of
her hand, and, dancing with delight, dragged her inside my mosquito
curtain on to the bed. I clutched hold of the bolster with both hands in
my excitement, and jumped up and down with joy, and when I had got a
little quieter, said: "Now, Grannie, let' s have the story!"
Grannie went on: "And the king had a queen." That was good to begin with.
He had only one.
It is usual for kings in fairy stories to be extravagant in queens. And
whenever we hear that there are two queens, our hearts begin to sink. One
is sure to be unhappy. But in Grannie's story that danger was past. He had
only one queen.
We next hear that the king had not got any son. At the age of seven I
didn't think there was any need to bother if a man had had no son. He
might only have been in the way. Nor are we greatly excited when we hear
that the king has gone away into the forest to practise austerities in
order to get a son. There was only one thing that would have made me go
into the forest, and that was to get away from my tutor!
But the king left behind with his queen a small girl, who grew up into a
Twelve years pass away, and the king goes on practising austerities, and
never thinks all this while of his beautiful daughter. The princess has
reached the full bloom of her youth. The age of marriage has passed, but
the king does not return. And the queen pines away with grief and cries:
"Is my golden daughter destined to die unmarried? Ah me! What a fate is
Then the queen sent men to the king to entreat him earnestly to come back
for a single night and take one meal in the palace. And the king
The queen cooked with her own hand, and with the greatest care, sixty-four
dishes, and made a seat for him of sandal-wood, and arranged the food in
plates of gold and cups of silver. The princess stood behind with the
peacock-tail fan in her hand. The king, after twelve years' absence, came
into the house, and the princess waved the fan, lighting up all the room
with her beauty. The king looked in his daughter's face, and forgot to
take his food.
At last he asked his queen: "Pray, who is this girl whose beauty shines as
the gold image of the goddess? Whose daughter is she?"
The queen beat her forehead, and cried: "Ah, how evil is my fate! Do you
not know your own daughter?"
The king was struck with amazement. He said at last; "My tiny daughter has
grown to be a woman."
"What else?" the queen said with a sigh. "Do you not know that twelve
years have passed by?"
"But why did you not give her in marriage?" asked the king.
"You were away," the queen said. "And how could I find her a suitable
The king became vehement with excitement. "The first man I see to-morrow,"
he said, "when I come out of the palace shall marry her."
The princess went on waving her fan of peacock feathers, and the king
finished his meal.
The next morning, as the king came out of his palace, he saw the son of a
Brahman gathering sticks in the forest outside the palace gates. His age
was about seven or eight.
The king said: "I will marry my daughter to him."
Who can interfere with a king's command? At once the boy was called, and
the marriage garlands were exchanged between him and the princess.
At this point I came up close to my wise Grannie and asked her eagerly:
In the bottom of my heart there was a devout wish to substitute myself for
that fortunate wood-gatherer of seven years old. The night was resonant
with the patter of rain. The earthen lamp by my bedside was burning low.
My grandmother's voice droned on as she told the story. And all these
things served to create in a corner of my credulous heart the belief that
I had been gathering sticks in the dawn of some indefinite time in the
kingdom of some unknown king, and in a moment garlands had been exchanged
between me and the princess, beautiful as the Goddess of Grace. She had a
gold band on her hair and gold earrings in her ears. She bad a necklace
and bracelets of gold, and a golden waist-chain round her waist, and a
pair of golden anklets tinkled above her feet.
If my grandmother were an author how many explanations she would have to
offer for this little story! First of all, every one would ask why the
king remained twelve years in the forest? Secondly, why should the king's
daughter remain unmarried all that while? This would be regarded as
Even if she could have got so far without a quarrel, still there would
have been a great hue and cry about the marriage itself. First, it never
happened. Secondly, how could there be a marriage between a princess of
the Warrior Caste and a boy of the priestly Brahman Caste? Her readers
would have imagined at once that the writer was preaching against our
social customs in an underhand way. And they would write letters to the
So I pray with all my heart that my grandmother may be born a grandmother
again, and not through some cursed fate take birth as her luckless
So with a throb of joy and delight, I asked Grannie: "What then?"
Grannie went on: Then the princess took her little husband away in great
distress, and built a large palace with seven wings, and began to cherish
her husband with great care.
I jumped up and down in my bed and clutched at the bolster more tightly
than ever and said: "What then?"
Grannie continued: The little boy went to school and learnt many lessons
from his teachers, and as he grew up his class-fellows began to ask him:
"Who is that beautiful lady who lives with you in the palace with the
seven wings?" The Brahman's son was eager to know who she was. He could
only remember how one day he had been gathering sticks, and a great
disturbance arose. But all that was so long ago, that he had no clear
Four or five years passed in this way. His companions always asked him:
"Who is that beautiful lady in the palace with the seven wings?" And the
Brahman's son would come back from school and sadly tell the princess: "My
school companions always ask me who is that beautiful lady in the palace
with the seven wings, and I can give them no reply. Tell me, oh, tell me,
who you are!"
The princess said: "Let it pass to-day. I will tell you some other day."
And every day the Brahman's son would ask; "Who are you?" and the princess
would reply: "Let it pass to-day. I will tell you some other day." In this
manner four or five more years passed away.
At last the Brahman's son became very impatient, and said: "If you do not
tell me to-day who you are, O beautiful lady, I will leave this palace
with the seven wings." Then the princess said: "I will certainly tell you
Next day the Brahman's son, as soon as he came home from school, said:
"Now, tell me who you are." The princess said: "To-night I will tell you
after supper, when you are in bed."
The Brahman's son said: "Very well "; and he began to count the hours in
expectation of the night. And the princess, on her side, spread white
flowers over the golden bed, and lighted a gold lamp with fragrant oil,
and adorned her hair, and dressed herself in a beautiful robe of blue, and
began to count the hours in expectation of the night.
That evening when her husband, the Brahman's son, had finished his meal,
too excited almost to eat, and had gone to the golden bed in the
bed-chamber strewn with flowers, he said to himself: "To-night I shall
surely know who this beautiful lady is in the palace with the seven
The princess took for her the food that was left over by her husband, and
slowly entered the bed-chamber. She had to answer that night the question,
which was the beautiful lady who lived in the palace with the seven wings.
And as she went up to the bed to tell him she found a serpent had crept
out of the flowers and had bitten the Brahman's son. Her boy-husband was
lying on the bed of flowers, with face pale in death.
My heart suddenly ceased to throb, and I asked with choking voice: "What
Grannie said; "Then..."
But what is the use of going on any further with the story? It would only
lead on to what was more and more impossible. The boy of seven did not
know that, if there were some "What then?" after death, no grandmother of
a grandmother could tell us all about it.
But the child's faith never admits defeat, and it would snatch at the
mantle of death itself to turn him back. It would be outrageous for him to
think that such a story of one teacherless evening could so suddenly come
to a stop. Therefore the grandmother had to call back her story from the
ever-shut chamber of the great End, but she does it so simply: it is
merely by floating the dead body on a banana stem on the river, and having
some incantations read by a magician. But in that rainy night and in the
dim light of a lamp death loses all its horror in the mind of the boy, and
seems nothing more than a deep slumber of a single night. When the story
ends the tired eyelids are weighed down with sleep. Thus it is that we
send the little body of the child floating on the back of sleep over the
still water of time, and then in the morning read a few verses of
incantation to restore him to the world of life and light.
Phatik Chakravorti was ringleader among the boys of the village. A new
mischief got into his head. There was a heavy log lying on the mud-flat of
the river waiting to be shaped into a mast for a boat. He decided that
they should all work together to shift the log by main force from its
place and roll it away. The owner of the log would be angry and surprised,
and they would all enjoy the fun. Every one seconded the proposal, and it
was carried unanimously.
But just as the fun was about to begin, Makhan, Phatik's younger brother,
sauntered up, and sat down on the log in front of them all without a word.
The boys were puzzled for a moment. He was pushed, rather timidly, by one
of the boys and told to get up but he remained quite unconcerned. He
appeared like a young philosopher meditating on the futility of games.
Phatik was furious. "Makhan," he cried, "if you don't get down this minute
I'll thrash you!"
Makhan only moved to a more comfortable position.
Now, if Phatik was to keep his regal dignity before the public, it was
clear he ought to carry out his threat. But his courage failed him at the
crisis. His fertile brain, however, rapidly seized upon a new manoeuvre
which would discomfit his brother and afford his followers an added
amusement. He gave the word of command to roll the log and Makhan over
together. Makhan heard the order, and made it a point of honour to stick
on. But he overlooked the fact, like those who attempt earthly fame in
other matters, that there was peril in it.
The boys began to heave at the log with all their might, calling out,
"One, two, three, go," At the word "go" the log went; and with it went
Makhan's philosophy, glory and all.
All the other boys shouted themselves hoarse with delight. But Phatik was
a little frightened. He knew what was coming. And, sure enough, Makhan
rose from Mother Earth blind as Fate and screaming like the Furies. He
rushed at Phatik and scratched his face and beat him and kicked him, and
then went crying home. The first act of the drama was over.
Phatik wiped his face, and sat down on the edge of a sunken barge on the
river bank, and began to chew a piece of grass. A boat came up to the
landing, and a middle-aged man, with grey hair and dark moustache, stepped
on shore. He saw the boy sitting there doing nothing, and asked him where
the Chakravortis lived. Phatik went on chewing the grass, and said: "Over
there," but it was quite impossible to tell where he pointed. The stranger
asked him again. He swung his legs to and fro on the side of the barge,
and said; "Go and find out," and continued to chew the grass as before.
But now a servant came down from the house, and told Phatik his mother
wanted him. Phatik refused to move. But the servant was the master on this
occasion. He took Phatik up roughly, and carried him, kicking and
struggling in impotent rage.
When Phatik came into the house, his mother saw him. She called out
angrily: "So you have been hitting Makhan again?"
Phatik answered indignantly: "No, I haven't; who told you that?"
His mother shouted: "Don't tell lies! You have."
Phatik said suddenly: "I tell you, I haven't. You ask Makhan!" But Makhan
thought it best to stick to his previous statement. He said: "Yes, mother.
Phatik did hit me."
Phatik's patience was already exhausted. He could not hear this injustice.
He rushed at Makban, and hammered him with blows: "Take that" he cried,
"and that, and that, for telling lies."
His mother took Makhan's side in a moment, and pulled Phatik away, beating
him with her hands. When Phatik pushed her aside, she shouted out: "What I
you little villain! would you hit your own mother?"
It was just at this critical juncture that the grey-haired stranger
arrived. He asked what was the matter. Phatik looked sheepish and ashamed.
But when his mother stepped back and looked at the stranger, her anger was
changed to surprise. For she recognised her brother, and cried: "Why,
Dada! Where have you come from?" As she said these words, she bowed to the
ground and touched his feet. Her brother had gone away soon after she had
married, and he had started business in Bombay. His sister had lost her
husband while he was In Bombay. Bishamber had now come back to Calcutta,
and had at once made enquiries about his sister. He had then hastened to
see her as soon as he found out where she was.
The next few days were full of rejoicing. The brother asked after the
education of the two boys. He was told by his sister that Phatik was a
perpetual nuisance. He was lazy, disobedient, and wild. But Makhan was as
good as gold, as quiet as a lamb, and very fond of reading, Bishamber
kindly offered to take Phatik off his sister's hands, and educate him with
his own children in Calcutta. The widowed mother readily agreed. When his
uncle asked Phatik If he would like to go to Calcutta with him, his joy
knew no bounds, and he said; "Oh, yes, uncle!" In a way that made it quite
clear that he meant it.
It was an immense relief to the mother to get rid of Phatik. She had a
prejudice against the boy, and no love was lost between the two brothers.
She was in daily fear that he would either drown Makhan some day in the
river, or break his head in a fight, or run him into some danger or other.
At the same time she was somewhat distressed to see Phatik's extreme
eagerness to get away.
Phatik, as soon as all was settled, kept asking his uncle every minute
when they were to start. He was on pins and needles all day long with
excitement, and lay awake most of the night. He bequeathed to Makhan, in
perpetuity, his fishing-rod, his big kite and his marbles. Indeed, at this
time of departure his generosity towards Makhan was unbounded.
When they reached Calcutta, Phatik made the acquaintance of his aunt for
the first time. She was by no means pleased with this unnecessary addition
to her family. She found her own three boys quite enough to manage without
taking any one else. And to bring a village lad of fourteen into their
midst was terribly upsetting. Bishamber should really have thought twice
before committing such an indiscretion.
In this world of human affairs there is no worse nuisance than a boy at
the age of fourteen. He is neither ornamental, nor useful. It is
impossible to shower affection on him as on a little boy; and he is always
getting in the way. If he talks with a childish lisp he is called a baby,
and if he answers in a grown-up way he is called impertinent. In fact any
talk at all from him is resented. Then he is at the unattractive, growing
age. He grows out of his clothes with indecent haste; his voice grows
hoarse and breaks and quavers; his face grows suddenly angular and
unsightly. It is easy to excuse the shortcomings of early childhood, but
it is hard to tolerate even unavoidable lapses in a boy of fourteen. The
lad himself becomes painfully self-conscious. When he talks with elderly
people he is either unduly forward, or else so unduly shy that he appears
ashamed of his very existence.
Yet it is at this very age when in his heart of hearts a young lad most
craves for recognition and love; and he becomes the devoted slave of any
one who shows him consideration. But none dare openly love him, for that
would be regarded as undue indulgence, and therefore bad for the boy. So,
what with scolding and chiding, he becomes very much like a stray dog that
has lost his master.
For a boy of fourteen his own home is the only Paradise. To live in a
strange house with strange people is little short of torture, while the
height of bliss is to receive the kind looks of women, and never to be
slighted by them.
It was anguish to Phatik to be the unwelcome guest in his aunt's house,
despised by this elderly woman, and slighted, on every occasion. If she
ever asked him to do anything for her, he would be so overjoyed that he
would overdo it; and then she would tell him not to be so stupid, but to
get on with his lessons.
The cramped atmosphere of neglect in his aunt's house oppressed Phatik so
much that he felt that he could hardly breathe. He wanted to go out into
the open country and fill his lungs and breathe freely. But there was no
open country to go to. Surrounded on all sides by Calcutta houses and
walls, he would dream night after night of his village home, and long to
be back there. He remembered the glorious meadow where he used to fly his
kite all day long; the broad river-banks where he would wander about the
livelong day singing and shouting for joy; the narrow brook where he could
go and dive and swim at any time he liked. He thought of his band of boy
companions over whom he was despot; and, above all, the memory of that
tyrant mother of his, who had such a prejudice against him, occupied him
day and night. A kind of physical love like that of animals; a longing to
be in the presence of the one who is loved; an inexpressible wistfulness
during absence; a silent cry of the inmost heart for the mother, like the
lowing of a calf in the twilight;-this love, which was almost an animal
instinct, agitated the shy, nervous, lean, uncouth and ugly boy. No one
could understand it, but it preyed upon his mind continually.
There was no more backward boy in the whole school than Phatik. He gaped
and remained silent when the teacher asked him a question, and like an
overladen ass patiently suffered all the blows that came down on his back.
When other boys were out at play, he stood wistfully by the window and
gazed at the roofs of the distant houses. And if by chance he espied
children playing on the open terrace of any roof, his heart would ache
One day he summoned up all his courage, and asked his uncle: "Uncle, when
can I go home?"
His uncle answered; "Wait till the holidays come." But the holidays would
not come till November, and there was a long time still to wait.
One day Phatik lost his lesson-book. Even with the help of books he had
found it very difficult indeed to prepare his lesson. Now it was
impossible. Day after day the teacher would cane him unmercifully. His
condition became so abjectly miserable that even his cousins were ashamed
to own him. They began to jeer and insult him more than the other boys. He
went to his aunt at last, and told her that he had lost his book.
His aunt pursed her lips in contempt, and said: "You great clumsy, country
lout. How can I afford, with all my family, to buy you new books five
times a month?"
That night, on his way back from school, Phatik had a bad headache with a
fit of shivering. He felt he was going to have an attack of malarial
fever. His one great fear was that he would be a nuisance to his aunt.
The next morning Phatik was nowhere to be seen. All searches in the
neighbourhood proved futile. The rain had been pouring in torrents all
night, and those who went out in search of the boy got drenched through to
the skin. At last Bisbamber asked help from the police.
At the end of the day a police van stopped at the door before the house.
It was still raining and the streets were all flooded. Two constables
brought out Phatik in their arms and placed him before Bishamber. He was
wet through from head to foot, muddy all over, his face and eyes flushed
red with fever, and his limbs all trembling. Bishamber carried him in his
arms, and took him into the inner apartments. When his wife saw him, she
exclaimed; "What a heap of trouble this boy has given us. Hadn't you
better send him home?"
Phatik heard her words, and sobbed out loud: "Uncle, I was just going
home; but they dragged me back again."
The fever rose very high, and all that night the boy was delirious.
Bishamber brought in a doctor. Phatik opened his eyes flushed with fever,
and looked up to the ceiling, and said vacantly: "Uncle, have the holidays
come yet? May I go home?"
Bishamber wiped the tears from his own eyes, and took Phatik's lean and
burning hands in his own, and sat by him through the night. The boy began
again to mutter. At last his voice became excited: "Mother," he cried,
"don't beat me like that! Mother! I am telling the truth!"
The next day Phatik became conscious for a short time. He turned his eyes
about the room, as if expecting some one to come. At last, with an air of
disappointment, his head sank back on the pillow. He turned his face to
the wall with a deep sigh.
Bishamber knew his thoughts, and, bending down his head, whispered:
"Phatik, I have sent for your mother." The day went by. The doctor said in
a troubled voice that the boy's condition was very critical.
Phatik began to cry out; "By the mark!—three fathoms. By the mark—four
fathoms. By the mark-." He had heard the sailor on the river-steamer
calling out the mark on the plumb-line. Now he was himself plumbing an
Later in the day Phatik's mother burst into the room like a whirlwind, and
began to toss from side to side and moan and cry in a loud voice.
Bishamber tried to calm her agitation, but she flung herself on the bed,
and cried: "Phatik, my darling, my darling."
Phatik stopped his restless movements for a moment. His hands ceased
beating up and down. He said: "Eh?"
The mother cried again: "Phatik, my darling, my darling."
Phatik very slowly turned his head and, without seeing anybody, said:
"Mother, the holidays have come."
MY LORD, THE BABY
Raicharan was twelve years old when he came as a servant to his master's
house. He belonged to the same caste as his master, and was given his
master's little son to nurse. As time went on the boy left Raicharan's
arms to go to school. From school he went on to college, and after college
he entered the judicial service. Always, until he married, Raicharan was
his sole attendant.
But, when a mistress came into the house, Raicharan found two masters
instead of one. All his former influence passed to the new mistress. This
was compensated for by a fresh arrival. Anukul had a son born to him, and
Raicharan by his unsparing attentions soon got a complete hold over the
child. He used to toss him up in his arms, call to him in absurd baby
language, put his face close to the baby's and draw it away again with a
Presently the child was able to crawl and cross the doorway. When
Raicharan went to catch him, he would scream with mischievous laughter and
make for safety. Raicharan was amazed at the profound skill and exact
judgment the baby showed when pursued. He would say to his mistress with a
look of awe and mystery: "Your son will be a judge some day."
New wonders came in their turn. When the baby began to toddle, that was to
Raicharan an epoch in human history. When he called his father Ba-ba and
his mother Ma-ma and Raicharan Chan-na, then Raicharan's ecstasy knew no
bounds. He went out to tell the news to all the world.
After a while Raicharan was asked to show his ingenuity in other ways. He
had, for instance, to play the part of a horse, holding the reins between
his teeth and prancing with his feet. He had also to wrestle with his
little charge, and if he could not, by a wrestler's trick, fall on his
back defeated at the end, a great outcry was certain.
About this time Anukul was transferred to a district on the banks of the
Padma. On his way through Calcutta he bought his son a little go-cart. He
bought him also a yellow satin waistcoat, a gold-laced cap, and some gold
bracelets and anklets. Raicharan was wont to take these out, and put them
on his little charge with ceremonial pride, whenever they went for a walk.
Then came the rainy season, and day after day the rain poured down in
torrents. The hungry river, like an enormous serpent, swallowed down
terraces, villages, cornfields, and covered with its flood the tall
grasses and wild casuarinas on the sand-banks. From time to time there was
a deep thud, as the river-banks crumbled. The unceasing roar of the rain
current could be beard from far away. Masses of foam, carried swiftly
past, proved to the eye the swiftness of the stream.
One afternoon the rain cleared. It was cloudy, but cool and bright.
Raicharan's little despot did not want to stay in on such a fine
afternoon. His lordship climbed into the go-cart. Raicharan, between the
shafts, dragged him slowly along till he reached the rice-fields on the
banks of the river. There was no one in the fields, and no boat on the
stream. Across the water, on the farther side, the clouds were rifted in
the west. The silent ceremonial of the setting sun was revealed in all its
glowing splendour. In the midst of that stillness the child, all of a
sudden, pointed with his finger in front of him and cried: "Chan-nal Pitty
Close by on a mud-flat stood a large Kadamba tree in full flower. My lord,
the baby, looked at it with greedy eyes, and Raicharan knew his meaning.
Only a short time before he had made, out of these very flower balls, a
small go-cart; and the child had been so entirely happy dragging it about
with a string, that for the whole day Raicharan was not made to put on the
reins at all. He was promoted from a horse into a groom.
But Raicharan had no wish that evening to go splashing knee-deep through
the mud to reach the flowers. So he quickly pointed his finger in the
opposite direction, calling out: "Oh, look, baby, look! Look at the bird."
And with all sorts of curious noises he pushed the go-cart rapidly away
from the tree.
But a child, destined to be a judge, cannot be put off so easily. And
besides, there was at the time nothing to attract his eyes. And you cannot
keep up for ever the pretence of an imaginary bird.
The little Master's mind was made up, and Raicharan was at his wits' end.
"Very well, baby," he said at last, "you sit still in the cart, and I'll
go and get you the pretty flower. Only mind you don't go near the water."
As he said this, he made his legs bare to the knee, and waded through the
oozing mud towards the tree.
The moment Raicharan had gone, his little Master went off at racing speed
to the forbidden water. The baby saw the river rushing by, splashing and
gurgling as it went. It seemed as though the disobedient wavelets
themselves were running away from some greater Raicharan with the laughter
of a thousand children. At the sight of their mischief, the heart of the
human child grew excited and restless. He got down stealthily from the
go-cart and toddled off towards the river. On his way he picked up a small
stick, and leant over the bank of the stream pretending to fish. The
mischievous fairies of the river with their mysterious voices seemed
inviting him into their play-house.
Raicharan had plucked a handful of flowers from the tree, and was carrying
them back in the end of his cloth, with his face wreathed in smiles. But
when he reached the go-cart, there was no one there. He looked on all
sides and there was no one there. He looked back at the cart and there was
no one there.
In that first terrible moment his blood froze within him. Before his eyes
the whole universe swam round like a dark mist. From the depth of his
broken heart he gave one piercing cry; "Master, Master, little Master."
But no voice answered "Chan-na." No child laughed mischievously back; no
scream of baby delight welcomed his return. Only the river ran on, with
its splashing, gurgling noise as before,—as though it knew nothing
at all, and had no time to attend to such a tiny human event as the death
of a child.
As the evening passed by Raicharan's mistress became very anxious. She
sent men out on all sides to search. They went with lanterns in their
hands, and reached at last the banks of the Padma. There they found
Raicharan rushing up and down the fields, like a stormy wind, shouting the
cry of despair: "Master, Master, little Master!"
When they got Raicharan home at last, he fell prostrate at his mistress's
feet. They shook him, and questioned him, and asked him repeatedly where
he had left the child; but all he could say was, that he knew nothing.
Though every one held the opinion that the Padma had swallowed the child,
there was a lurking doubt left in the mind. For a band of gipsies had been
noticed outside the village that afternoon, and some suspicion rested on
them. The mother went so far in her wild grief as to think it possible
that Raicharan himself had stolen the child. She called him aside with
piteous entreaty and said: "Raicharan, give me back my baby. Oh! give me
back my child. Take from me any money you ask, but give me back my child!"
Raicharan only beat his forehead in reply. His mistress ordered him out of
Artukul tried to reason his wife out of this wholly unjust suspicion: "Why
on earth," he said, "should he commit such a crime as that?"
The mother only replied: "The baby had gold ornaments on his body. Who
It was impossible to reason with her after that.
Raicharan went back to his own village. Up to this time he had had no son,
and there was no hope that any child would now be born to him. But it came
about before the end of a year that his wife gave birth to a son and died.
All overwhelming resentment at first grew up in Raicharan's heart at the
sight of this new baby. At the back of his mind was resentful suspicion
that it had come as a usurper in place of the little Master. He also
thought it would be a grave offence to be happy with a son of his own
after what had happened to his master's little child. Indeed, if it had
not been for a widowed sister, who mothered the new baby, it would not
have lived long.
But a change gradually came over Raicharan's mind. A wonderful thing
happened. This new baby in turn began to crawl about, and cross the
doorway with mischief in its face. It also showed an amusing cleverness in
making its escape to safety. Its voice, its sounds of laughter and tears,
its gestures, were those of the little Master. On some days, when
Raicharan listened to its crying, his heart suddenly began thumping wildly
against his ribs, and it seemed to him that his former little Master was
crying somewhere in the unknown land of death because he had lost his
Phailna (for that was the name Raicharan's sister gave to the new baby)
soon began to talk. It learnt to say Ba-ba and Ma-ma with a baby accent.
When Raicharan heard those familiar sounds the mystery suddenly became
clear. The little Master could not cast off the spell of his Chan-na, and
therefore he had been reborn in his own house.
The arguments in favour of this were, to Raicharan, altogether beyond
(i.) The new baby was born soon after his little master's death.
(ii.) His wife could never have accumulated such merit as to give birth to
a son in middle age.
(iii.) The new baby walked with a toddle and called out Ba-ba and Ma-ma.
There was no sign lacking which marked out the future judge.
Then suddenly Raicharan remembered that terrible accusation of the mother.
"Ah," he said to himself with amazement, "the mother's heart was right.
She knew I had stolen her child." When once he had come to this
conclusion, he was filled with remorse for his past neglect. He now gave
himself over, body and soul, to the new baby, and became its devoted
attendant. He began to bring it up, as if it were the son of a rich man.
He bought a go-cart, a yellow satin waistcoat, and a gold-embroidered cap.
He melted down the ornaments of his dead wife, and made gold bangles and
anklets. He refused to let the little child play with any one of the
neighbourhood, and became himself its sole companion day and night. As the
baby grew up to boyhood, he was so petted and spoilt and clad in such
finery that the village children would call him "Your Lordship," and jeer
at him; and older people regarded Raicharan as unaccountably crazy about
At last the time came for the boy to go to school. Raicharan sold his
small piece of land, and went to Calcutta. There he got employment with
great difficulty as a servant, and sent Phailna to school. He spared no
pains to give him the best education, the best clothes, the best food.
Meanwhile he lived himself on a mere handful of rice, and would say in
secret: "Ah! my little Master, my dear little Master, you loved me so much
that you came back to my house. You shall never suffer from any neglect of
Twelve years passed away in this manner. The boy was able to read and
write well. He was bright and healthy and good-looking. He paid a great
deal of attention to his personal appearance, and was specially careful in
parting his hair. He was inclined to extravagance and finery, and spent
money freely. He could never quite look on Raicharan as a father, because,
though fatherly in affection, he had the manner of a servant. A further
fault was this, that Raicharan kept secret from every one that himself was
the father of the child.
The students of the hostel, where Phailna was a boarder, were greatly
amused by Raicharan's country manners, and I have to confess that behind
his father's back Phailna joined in their fun. But, in the bottom of their
hearts, all the students loved the innocent and tender-hearted old man,
and Phailna was very fond of him also. But, as I have said before, he
loved him with a kind of condescension.
Raicharan grew older and older, and his employer was continually finding
fault with him for his incompetent work. He had been starving himself for
the boy's sake. So he had grown physically weak, and no longer up to his
work. He would forget things, and his mind became dull and stupid. But his
employer expected a full servant's work out of him, and would not brook
excuses. The money that Raicharan had brought with him from the sale of
his land was exhausted. The boy was continually grumbling about his
clothes, and asking for more money.
Raicharan made up his mind. He gave up the situation where he was working
as a servant, and left some money with Phailna and said: "I have some
business to do at home in my village, and shall be back soon."
He went off at once to Baraset where Anukul was magistrate. Anukul's wife
was still broken down with grief. She had had no other child.
One day Anukul was resting after a long and weary day in court. His wife
was buying, at an exorbitant price, a herb from a mendicant quack, which
was said to ensure the birth of a child. A voice of greeting was heard in
the courtyard. Anukul went out to see who was there. It was Raicharan.
Anukul's heart was softened when he saw his old servant. He asked him many
questions, and offered to take him back into service.
Raicharan smiled faintly, and said in reply; "I want to make obeisance to
Anukul went with Raicharan into the house, where the mistress did not
receive him as warmly as his old master. Raicharan took no notice of this,
but folded his hands, and said: "It was not the Padma that stole your
baby. It was I."
Anukul exclaimed: "Great God! Eh! What! Where is he?" Raicharan replied:
"He is with me, I will bring him the day after to-morrow."
It was Sunday. There was no magistrate's court sitting. Both husband and
wife were looking expectantly along the road, waiting from early morning
for Raicharan's appearance. At ten o'clock he came, leading Phailna by the
Anukul's wife, without a question, took the boy into her lap, and was wild
with excitement, sometimes laughing, sometimes weeping, touching him,
kissing his hair and his forehead, and gazing into his face with hungry,
eager eyes. The boy was very good-looking and dressed like a gentleman's
son. The heart of Anukul brimmed over with a sudden rush of affection.
Nevertheless the magistrate in him asked: "Have you any proofs?" Raicharan
said: "How could there be any proof of such a deed? God alone knows that I
stole your boy, and no one else in the world."
When Anukul saw how eagerly his wife was clinging to the boy, he realised
the futility of asking for proofs. It would be wiser to believe. And then—where
could an old man like Raicharan get such a boy from? And why should his
faithful servant deceive him for nothing?
"But," he added severely, "Raicharan, you must not stay here."
"Where shall I go, Master?" said Raicharan, in a choking voice, folding
his hands; "I am old. Who will take in an old man as a servant?"
The mistress said: "Let him stay. My child will be pleased. I forgive
But Anukul's magisterial conscience would not allow him. "No," he said,
"he cannot be forgiven for what he has done."
Raicharan bowed to the ground, and clasped Anukul's feet. "Master," he
cried, "let me stay. It was not I who did it. It was God."
Anukul's conscience was worse stricken than ever, when Raicharan tried to
put the blame on God's shoulders.
"No," he said, "I could not allow it. I cannot trust you any more. You
have done an act of treachery."
Raicharan rose to his feet and said: "It was not I who did it."
"Who was it then?" asked Anukul.
Raicharan replied: "It was my fate."
But no educated man could take this for an excuse. Anukul remained
When Phailna saw that he was the wealthy magistrate's son, and not
Raicharan's, he was angry at first, thinking that he had been cheated all
this time of his birthright. But seeing Raicharan in distress, he
generously said to his father: "Father, forgive him. Even if you don't let
him live with us, let him have a small monthly pension."
After hearing this, Raicharan did not utter another word. He looked for
the last time on the face of his son; he made obeisance to his old master
and mistress. Then he went out, and was mingled with the numberless people
of the world.
At the end of the month Anukul sent him some money to his village. But the
money came back. There was no one there of the name of Raicharan.
THE KINGDOM OF CARDS
Once upon a time there was a lonely island in a distant sea where lived
the Kings and Queens, the Aces and the Knaves, in the Kingdom of Cards.
The Tens and Nines, with the Twos and Threes, and all the other members,
had long ago settled there also. But these were not twice-born people,
like the famous Court Cards.
The Ace, the King, and the Knave were the three highest castes. The fourth
Caste was made up of a mixture of the lower Cards. The Twos and Threes
were lowest of all. These inferior Cards were never allowed to sit in the
same row with the great Court Cards.
Wonderful indeed were the regulations and rules of that island kingdom.
The particular rank of each individual had been settled from time
immemorial. Every one had his own appointed work, and never did anything
else. An unseen hand appeared to be directing them wherever they went,—according
to the Rules.
No one in the Kingdom of Cards had any occasion to think: no one had any
need to come to any decision: no one was ever required to debate any new
subject. The citizens all moved along in a listless groove without speech.
When they fell, they made no noise. They lay down on their backs, and
gazed upward at the sky with each prim feature firmly fixed for ever.
There was a remarkable stillness in the Kingdom of Cards. Satisfaction and
contentment were complete in all their rounded wholeness. There was never
any uproar or violence. There was never any excitement or enthusiasm.
The great ocean, crooning its lullaby with one unceasing melody, lapped
the island to sleep with a thousand soft touches of its wave's white
hands. The vast sky, like the outspread azure wings of the brooding
mother-bird, nestled the island round with its downy plume. For on the
distant horizon a deep blue line betokened another shore. But no sound of
quarrel or strife could reach the Island of Cards, to break its calm
In that far-off foreign land across the sea, there lived a young Prince
whose mother was a sorrowing queen. This queen had fallen from favour, and
was living with her only son on the seashore. The Prince passed his
childhood alone and forlorn, sitting by his forlorn mother, weaving the
net of his big desires. He longed to go in search of the Flying Horse, the
Jewel in the Cobra's hood, the Rose of Heaven, the Magic Roads, or to find
where the Princess Beauty was sleeping in the Ogre's castle over the
thirteen rivers and across the seven seas.
From the Son of the Merchant at school the young Prince learnt the stories
of foreign kingdoms. From the Son of the Kotwal he learnt the adventures
of the Two Genii of the Lamp. And when the rain came beating down, and the
clouds covered the sky, he would sit on the threshold facing the sea, and
say to his sorrowing mother: "Tell me, mother, a story of some very
And his mother would tell him an endless tale she had heard in her
childhood of a wonderful country beyond the sea where dwelt the Princess
Beauty. And the heart of the young Prince would become sick with longing,
as he sat on the threshold, looking out on the ocean, listening to his
mother's wonderful story, while the rain outside came beating down and the
grey clouds covered the sky.
One day the Son of the Merchant came to the Prince, and said boldly:
"Comrade, my studies are over. I am now setting out on my travels to seek
my fortunes on the sea. I have come to bid you good-bye."
The Prince said; "I will go with you."
And the Son of Kotwal said also: "Comrades, trusty and true, you will not
leave me behind. I also will be your companion."
Then the young Prince said to his sorrowing mother; "Mother, I am now
setting out on my travels to seek my fortune. When I come back once more,
I shall surely have found some way to remove all your sorrow."
So the Three Companions set out on their travels together. In the harbour
were anchored the twelve ships of the merchant, and the Three Companions
got on board. The south wind was blowing, and the twelve ships sailed
away, as fast as the desires which rose in the Prince's breast.
At the Conch Shell Island they filled one ship with conchs. At the Sandal
Wood Island they filled a second ship with sandal-wood, and at the Coral
Island they filled a third ship with coral.
Four years passed away, and they filled four more ships, one with ivory,
one with musk, one with cloves, and one with nutmegs.
But when these ships were all loaded a terrible tempest arose. The ships
were all of them sunk, with their cloves and nutmeg, and musk and ivory,
and coral and sandal-wood and conchs. But the ship with the Three
Companions struck on an island reef, buried them safe ashore, and itself
broke in pieces.
This was the famous Island of Cards, where lived the Ace and King and
Queen and Knave, with the Nines and Tens and all the other Members—according
to the Rules.
Up till now there had been nothing to disturb that island stillness. No
new thing had ever happened. No discussion had ever been held.
And then, of a sudden, the Three Companions appeared, thrown up by the
sea,—and the Great Debate began. There were three main points of
First, to what caste should these unclassed strangers belong? Should they
rank with the Court Cards? Or were they merely lower-caste people, to be
ranked with the Nines and Tens? No precedent could be quoted to decide
this weighty question.
Secondly, what was their clan? Had they the fairer hue and bright
complexion of the Hearts, or was theirs the darker complexion of the
Clubs? Over this question there were interminable disputes. The whole
marriage system of the island, with its intricate regulations, would
depend on its nice adjustment.
Thirdly, what food should they take? With whom should they live and sleep?
And should their heads be placed south-west, north-west, or only
north-east? In all the Kingdom of Cards a series of problems so vital and
critical had never been debated before.
But the Three Companions grew desperately hungry. They had to get food in
some way or other. So while this debate went on, with its interminable
silence and pauses, and while the Aces called their own meeting, and
formed themselves into a Committee, to find some obsolete dealing with the
question, the Three Companions themselves were eating all they could find,
and drinking out of every vessel, and breaking all regulations.
Even the Twos and Threes were shocked at this outrageous behaviour. The
Threes said; "Brother Twos, these people are openly shameless!" And the
Twos said: "Brother Threes, they are evidently of lower caste than
ourselves!" After their meal was over, the Three Companions went for a
stroll in the city.
When they saw the ponderous people moving in their dismal processions with
prim and solemn faces, then the Prince turned to the Son of the Merchant
and the Son of the Kotwal, and threw back his head, and gave one
Down Royal Street and across Ace Square and along the Knave Embankment ran
the quiver of this strange, unheard-of laughter, the laughter that, amazed
at itself, expired in the vast vacuum of silence.
The Son of the Kotwal and the Son of the Merchant were chilled through to
the bone by the ghost-like stillness around them. They turned to the
Prince, and said: "Comrade, let us away. Let us not stop for a moment in
this awful land of ghosts."
But the Prince said: "Comrades, these people resemble men, so I am going
to find out, by shaking them upside down and outside in, whether they have
a single drop of warm living blood left in their veins."
The days passed one by one, and the placid existence of the Island went on
almost without a ripple. The Three Companions obeyed no rules nor
regulations. They never did anything correctly either in sitting or
standing or turning themselves round or lying on their back. On the
contrary, wherever they saw these things going on precisely and exactly
according to the Rules, they gave way to inordinate laughter. They
remained unimpressed altogether by the eternal gravity of those eternal
One day the great Court Cards came to the Son of the Kotwal and the Son of
the Merchant and the Prince.
"Why," they asked slowly, "are you not moving according to the Rules?"
The Three Companions answered: "Because that is our Ichcha (wish)."
The great Court Cards with hollow, cavernous voices, as if slowly
awakening from an age-long dream, said together: "Ich-cha! And pray who is
They could not understand who Ichcha was then, but the whole island was to
understand it by-and-by. The first glimmer of light passed the threshold
of their minds when they found out, through watching the actions of the
Prince, that they might move in a straight line in an opposite direction
from the one in which they had always gone before. Then they made another
startling discovery, that there was another side to the Cards which they
had never yet noticed with attention. This was the beginning of the
Now that the change had begun, the Three Companions were able to initiate
them more and more deeply into the mysteries of Ichcha. The Cards
gradually became aware that life was not bound by regulations. They began
to feel a secret satisfaction in the kingly power of choosing for
But with this first impact of Ichcha the whole pack of cards began to
totter slowly, and then tumble down to the ground. The scene was like that
of some huge python awaking from a long sleep, as it slowly unfolds its
numberless coils with a quiver that runs through its whole frame.
Hitherto the Queens of Spades and Clubs and Diamonds and Hearts had
remained behind curtains with eyes that gazed vacantly into space, or else
remained fixed upon the ground.
And now, all of a sudden, on an afternoon in spring the Queen of Hearts
from the balcony raised her dark eyebrows for a moment, and cast a single
glance upon the Prince from the corner of her eye.
"Great God," cried the Prince, "I thought they were all painted images.
But I am wrong. They are women after all."
Then the young Prince called to his side his two Companions, and said in a
meditative voice; "My comrades! There is a charm about these ladies that I
never noticed before. When I saw that glance of the Queen's dark, luminous
eyes, brightening with new emotion, it seemed to me like the first faint
streak of dawn in a newly created world."
The two Companions smiled a knowing smile, and said: "Is that really so,
And the poor Queen of Hearts from that day went from bad to worse. She
began to forget all rules in a truly scandalous manner. If, for instance,
her place in the row was beside the Knave, she suddenly found herself
quite accidentally standing beside the Prince instead. At this, the Knave,
with motionless face and solemn voice, would say: "Queen, you have made a
And the poor Queen of Hearts' red cheeks would get redder than ever. But
the Prince would come gallantly to her rescue and say: "No! There is no
mistake. From to-day I am going to be Knave!"
Now it came to pass that, while every one was trying to correct the
improprieties of the guilty Queen of Hearts, they began to make mistakes
themselves. The Aces found themselves elbowed out by the Kings. The Kings
got muddled up with the Knaves. The Nines and Tens assumed airs as though
they belonged to the Great Court Cards. The Twos and Threes were found
secretly taking the places specially resented for the Fours and Fives.
Confusion had never been so confounded before.
Many spring seasons had come and gone in that Island of Cards. The Kokil,
the bird of Spring, had sung its song year after year. But it had never
stirred the blood as it stirred it now. In days gone by the sea had sung
its tireless melody. But, then, it had proclaimed only the inflexible
monotony of the Rule. And suddenly its waves were telling, through all
their flashing light and luminous shade and myriad voices, the deepest
yearnings of the heart of love!
Where are vanished now their prim, round, regular, complacent features?
Here is a face full of love-sick longing. Here is a heart heating wild
with regrets. Here is a mind racked sore with doubts. Music and sighing,
and smiles and tears, are filling the air. Life is throbbing; hearts are
breaking; passions are kindling.
Every one is now thinking of his own appearance, and comparing himself
with others. The Ace of Clubs is musing to himself, that the King of
Spades may be just passably good-looking. "But," says he, "when I walk
down the street you have only to see how people's eyes turn towards me."
The King of Spades is saying; "Why on earth is that Ace of Clubs always
straining his neck and strutting about like a peacock? He imagines all the
Queens are dying of love for him, while the real fact is—" Here he
pauses, and examines his face in the glass.
But the Queens were the worst of all. They began to spend all their time
in dressing themselves up to the Nines. And the Nines would become their
hopeless and abject slaves. But their cutting remarks about one another
were more shocking still.
So the young men would sit listless on the leaves under the trees, lolling
with outstretched limbs in the forest shade. And the young maidens,
dressed in pale-blue robes, would come walking accidentally to the same
shade of the same forest by the same trees, and turn their eyes as though
they saw no one there, and look as though they came out to see nothing at
all. And then one young man more forward than the rest in a fit of madness
would dare to go near to a maiden in blue. But, as he drew near, speech
would forsake him. He would stand there tongue-tied and foolish, and the
favourable moment would pass.
The Kokil birds were singing in the boughs overhead. The mischievous South
wind was blowing; it disarrayed the hair, it whispered in the ear, and
stirred the music in the blood. The leaves of the trees were murmuring
with rustling delight. And the ceaseless sound of the ocean made all the
mute longings of the heart of man and maid surge backwards and forwards on
the full springtide of love.
The Three Companions had brought into the dried-up channels of the Kingdom
of Cards the full flood-tide of a new life.
And, though the tide was full, there-was a pause as though the rising
waters would not break into foam but remain suspended for ever. There were
no outspoken words, only a cautious going forward one step and receding
two. All seemed busy heaping up their unfulfilled desires like castles in
the air, or fortresses of sand. They were pale and speechless, their eyes
were burning, their lips trembling with unspoken secrets.
The Prince saw what was wrong. He summoned every one on the Island and
said: "Bring hither the flutes and the cymbals, the pipes and drums. Let
all be played together, and raise loud shouts of rejoicing. For the Queen
of Hearts this very night is going to choose her Mate!"
So the Tens and Nines began to blow on their flutes and pipes; the Eights
and Sevens played on their sackbuts and viols; and even the Twos and
Threes began to beat madly on their drums.
When this tumultous gust of music came, it swept away at one blast all
those sighings and mopings. And then what a torrent of laughter and words
poured forth! There were daring proposals and locking refusals, and gossip
and chatter, and jests and merriment. It was like the swaying and shaking,
and rustling and soughing, in a summer gale, of a million leaves and
branches in the depth of the primeval forest.
But the Queen of Hearts, in a rose-red robe, sat silent in the shadow of
her secret bower, and listened to the great uproarious sound of music and
mirth, that came floating towards her. She shut her eyes, and dreamt her
dream of lore. And when she opened them she found the Prince seated on the
ground before her gazing up at her face. And she covered her eyes with
both hands, and shrank back quivering with an inward tumult of joy.
And the Prince passed the whole day alone, walking by the side of the
surging sea. He carried in his mind that startled look, that shrinking
gesture of the Queen, and his heart beat high with hope.
That night the serried, gaily-dressed ranks of young men and maidens
waited with smiling faces at the Palace Gates. The Palace Hall was lighted
with fairy lamps and festooned with the flowers of spring. Slowly the
Queen of Hearts entered, and the whole assembly rose to greet her. With a
jasmine garland in her hand, she stood before the Prince with downcast
eyes. In her lowly bashfulness she could hardly raise the garland to the
neck of the Mate she had chosen. But the Prince bowed his head, and the
garland slipped to its place. The assembly of youths and maidens had
waited her choice with eager, expectant hush. And when the choice was
made, the whole vast concourse rocked and swayed with a tumult of wild
delight. And the sound of their shouts was heard in every part of the
island, and by ships far out at sea. Never had such a shout been raised in
the Kingdom of Cards before.
And they carried the Prince and his Bride, and seated them on the throne,
and crowned them then and there in the Ancient Island of Cards.
And the sorrowing Mother Queen, on the 'far-off island shore on the other
side of the sea, came sailing to her son's new kingdom in a ship adorned
And the citizens are no longer regulated according to the Rules, but are
good or bad, or both, according to their Ichcha.
At a time, when my unpopularity with a part of my readers had reached the
nadir of its glory, and my name had become the central orb of the
journals, to be attended through space with a perpetual rotation of
revilement, I felt the necessity to retire to some quiet place and
endeavour to forget my own existence.
I have a house in the country some miles away from Calcutta, where I can
remain unknown and unmolested. The villagers there have not, as yet, come
to any conclusion about me. They know I am no mere holiday-maker or
pleasure-seeker; for I never outrage the silence of the village nights
with the riotous noises of the city. Nor do they regard me as ascetic,
because the little acquaintance they have of me carries the savour of
comfort about it. I am not, to them, a traveller; for, though I am a
vagabond by nature, my wandering through the village fields is aimless.
They are hardly even quite certain whether I am married or single; for
they have never seen me with my children. So, not being able to classify
me in any animal or vegetable kingdom that they know, they have long since
given me up and left me stolidly alone.
But quite lately I have come to know that there is one person in the
village who is deeply interested in me. Our acquaintance began on a sultry
afternoon in July. There had been rain all the morning, and the air was
still wet and heavy with mist, like eyelids when weeping is over.
I sat lazily watching a dappled cow grazing on the high bank of the river.
The afternoon sun was playing on her glossy hide. The simple beauty of
this dress of light made me wonder idly at man's deliberate waste of money
in setting up tailors' shops to deprive his own skin of its natural
While I was thus watching and lazily musing, a woman of middle age came
and prostrated herself before me, touching the ground with her forehead.
She carried in her robe some bunches of flowers, one of which she offered
to me with folded hands. She said to me, as she offered it: "This is an
offering to my God."
She went away. I was so taken aback as she uttered these words, that I
could hardly catch a glimpse of her before she was gone. The whole
incident was entirely simple, but it left a deep impression on my mind;
and as I turned back once more to look at the cattle in the field, the
zest of life in the cow, who was munching the lush grass with deep
breaths, while she whisked off the flies, appeared to me fraught with
mystery. My readers may laugh at my foolishness, but my heart was full of
adoration. I offered my worship to the pure joy of living, which is God's
own life. Then, plucking a tender shoot from the mango tree, I fed the cow
with it from my own hand, and as I did this I had the satisfaction of
having pleased my God.
The next year when I returned to the village it was February. The cold
season still lingered on. The morning sun came into my room, and I was
grateful for its warmth. I was writing, when the servant came to tell me
that a devotee, of the Vishnu cult, wanted to see me. I told him, in an
absent way, to bring her upstairs, and went on with my writing. The
Devotee came in, and bowed to me, touching my feet. I found that she was
the same woman whom I had met, for a brief moment, a year ago.
I was able now to examine her more closely. She was past that age when one
asks the question whether a woman is beautiful or not. Her stature was
above the ordinary height, and she was strongly built; but her body was
slightly bent owing to her constant attitude of veneration. Her manner had
nothing shrinking about it. The most remarkable of her features were her
two eyes. They seemed to have a penetrating power which could make
With those two large eyes of hers, she seemed to push me as she entered.
"What is this?" she asked. "Why have you brought me here before your
throne, my God? I used to see you among the trees; and that was much
better. That was the true place to meet you."
She must have seen me walking in the garden without my seeing her. For the
last few clays, however, I had suffered from a cold, and had been
prevented from going out. I had, perforce, to stay indoors and pay my
homage to the evening sky from my terrace. After a silent pause the
Devotee said to me: "O my God, give me some words of good."
I was quite unprepared for this abrupt request, and answered her on the
spur of the moment: "Good words I neither give nor receive. I simply open
my eyes and keep silence, and then I can at once both hear and see, even
when no sound is uttered. Now, while I am looking at you, it is as good as
listening to your voice."
The Devotee became quite excited as I spoke, and exclaimed: "God speaks to
me, not only with His mouth, but with His whole body."
I said to her: "When I am silent I can listen with my whole body. I have
come away from Calcutta here to listen to that sound."
The Devotee said: "Yes, I know that, and therefore I have come here to sit
Before taking her leave, she again bowed to me, and touched my feet. I
could see that she was distressed, because my feet were covered. She
wished them to be bare.
Early next morning I came out, and sat on my terrace on the roof. Beyond
the line of trees southward I could see the open country chill and
desolate. I could watch the sun rising over the sugar-cane in the East,
beyond the clump of trees at the side of the village. Out of the deep
shadow of those dark trees the village road suddenly appeared. It
stretched forward, winding its way to some distant villages on the
horizon, till it was lost in the grey of the mist.
That morning it was difficult to say whether the sun had risen or not. A
white fog was still clinging to the tops of the trees. I saw the Devotee
walking through the blurred dawn, like a mist-wraith of the morning
twilight. She was singing her chant to God, and sounding her cymbals.
The thick haze lifted at last; and the sun, like the kindly grandsire of
the village, took his seat amid all the work that was going on in home and
When I had just settled down at my writing-table, to appease the hungry
appetite of my editor in Calcutta, there came a sound of footsteps on the
stair, and the Devotee, humming a tune to herself, entered, and bowed
before me. I lifted my head from my papers.
She said to me: "My God, yesterday I took as sacred food what was left
over from your meal."
I was startled, and asked her how she could do that.
"Oh," she said, "I waited at your door in the evening, while you were at
dinner, and took some food from your plate when it was carried out."
This was a surprise to me, for every one in the village knew that I had
been to Europe, and had eaten with Europeans. I was a vegetarian, no
doubt, but the sanctity of my cook would not bear investigation, and the
orthodox regarded my food as polluted.
The Devotee, noticing my sign of surprise, said: "My God, why should I
come to you at all, if I could not take your food?"
I asked her what her own caste people would say. She told me she had
already spread the news far and wide all over the village. The caste
people had shaken their heads, but agreed that she must go her own way.
I found out that the Devotee came from a good family in the country, and
that her mother was well to-do, and desired to keep her daughter. But she
preferred to be a mendicant. I asked her how she made her living. She told
me that her followers had given her a piece of land, and that she begged
her food from door to door. She said to me: "The food which I get by
begging is divine."
After I had thought over what she said, I understood her meaning. When we
get our food precariously as alms, we remember God the giver. But when we
receive our food regularly at home, as a matter of course, we are apt to
regard it as ours by right.
I had a great desire to ask her about her husband. But as she never
mentioned him even indirectly, I did not question her.
I found out very soon that the Devotee had no respect at all for that part
of the village where the people of the higher castes lived.
"They never give," she said, "a single farthing to God's service; and yet
they have the largest share of God's glebe. But the poor worship and
I asked her why she did not go and live among these godless people, and
help them towards a better life. "That," I said with some unction, "would
be the highest form of divine worship."
I had heard sermons of this kind from time to time, and I am rather fond
of copying them myself for the public benefit, when the chance comes.
But the Devotee was not at all impressed. She raised her big round eyes,
and looked straight into mine, and said:
"You mean to say that because God is with the sinners, therefore when you
do them any service you do it to God? Is that so?"
"Yes," I replied, "that is my meaning."
"Of course," she answered almost impatiently, "of course, God is with
them: otherwise, how could they go on living at all? But what is that to
me? My God is not there. My God cannot be worshipped among them; because I
do not find Him there. I seek Him where I can find Him."
As she spoke, she made obeisance to me. What she meant to say was really
this. A mere doctrine of God's omnipresence does not help us. That God is
all-pervading,—this truth may be a mere intangible abstraction, and
therefore unreal to ourselves. Where I can see Him, there is His reality
in my soul.
I need not explain that all the while she showered her devotion on me she
did it to me not as an individual. I was simply a vehicle of her divine
worship. It was not for me either to receive it or to refuse it: for it
was not mine, but God's.
When the Devotee came again, she found me once more engaged with my books
"What have you been doing," she said, with evident vexation, "that my God
should make you undertake such drudgery? Whenever I come, I find you
reading and writing."
"God keeps his useless people busy," I answered; "otherwise they would be
bound to get into mischief. They have to do all the least necessary things
in life. It keeps them out of trouble."
The Devotee told me that she could not bear the encumbrances, with which,
day by day, I was surrounded. If she wanted to see me, she was not allowed
by the servants to come straight upstairs. If she wanted to touch my feet
in worship, there were my socks always in the way. And when she wanted to
have a simple talk with me, she found my mind lost in a wilderness of
This time, before she left me, she folded her hands, and said: "My God! I
felt your feet in my breast this morning. Oh, how cool! And they were
bare, not covered. I held them upon my head for a long time in worship.
That filled my very being. Then, after that, pray what was the use of my
coming to you yourself? Why did I come? My Lord, tell me truly,—wasn't
it a mere infatuation?"
There were some flowers in my vase on the table. While she was there, the
gardener brought some new flowers to put in their place. The Devotee saw
him changing them.
"Is that all?" she exclaimed. "Have you done with the flowers? Then give
them to me."
She held the flowers tenderly in the cup of her hands, and began to gaze
at them with bent head. After a few moments' silence she raised her head
again, and said to me: "You never look at these flowers; therefore they
become stale to you. If you would only look into them, then your reading
and writing would go to the winds."
She tied the flowers together in the end of her robe, and placed them, in
an attitude of worship, on the top of her head, saying reverently: "Let me
carry my God with me."
While she did this, I felt that flowers in our rooms do not receive their
due meed of loving care at our hands. When we stick them in vases, they
are more like a row of naughty schoolboys standing on a form to be
The Devotee came again the same evening, and sat by my feet on the terrace
of the roof.
"I gave away those flowers," she said, "as I went from house to house this
morning, singing God's name. Beni, the head man of our village, laughed at
me for my devotion, and said: 'Why do you waste all this devotion on Him?
Don't you know He is reviled up and down the countryside?' Is that true,
my God? Is it true that they are hard upon you?"
For a moment I shrank into myself. It was a shock to find that the stains
of printers' ink could reach so far.
The Devotee went on: "Beni imagined that he could blow out the flame of my
devotion at one breath! But this is no mere tiny flame: it is a burning
fire. Why do they abuse you, my God?"
I said: "Because I deserved it. I suppose in my greed I was loitering
about to steal people's hearts in secret."
The Devotee said: "Now you see for yourself how little their hearts are
worth. They are full of poison, and this will cure you of your greed."
"When a man," I answered, "has greed in his heart, he is always on the
verge of being beaten. The greed itself supplies his enemies with poison."
"Our merciful God," she replied, "beats us with His own hand, and drives
away all the poison. He who endures God's beating to the end is saved."
That evening the Devotee told me the story of her life. The stars of
evening rose and set behind the trees, as she went on to the end of her
"My husband is very simple. Some people think that he is a simpleton; but
I know that those who understand simply, understand truly. In business and
household management he was able to hold his own. Because his needs were
small, and his wants few, he could manage carefully on what we had. He
would never meddle in other matters, nor try to understand them.
"Both my husband's parents died before we had been married long, and we
were left alone. But my husband always needed some one to be over him. I
am ashamed to confess that he had a sort of reverence for me, and looked
upon me as his superior. But I am sure that he could understand things
better than I, though I had greater powers of talking.
"Of all the people in the world he held his Guru Thakur (spiritual master)
in the highest veneration. Indeed it was not veneration merely but love;
and such love as his is rare.
"Guru Thakur was younger than my husband. Oh! how beautiful he was!
"My husband had played games with him when he was a boy; and from that
time forward he had dedicated his heart and soul to this friend of his
early days. Thakur knew how simple my husband was, and used to tease him
"He and his comrades would play jokes upon him for their own amusement;
but he would bear them all with longsuffering.
"When I married into this family, Guru Thakur was studying at Benares. My
husband used to pay all his expenses. I was eighteen years old when he
returned home to our village.
"At the age of fifteen I had my child. I was so young I did not know how
to take care of him. I was fond of gossip, and liked to be with my village
friends for hours together. I used to get quite cross with my boy when I
was compelled to stay at home and nurse him. Alas! my child-God came into
my life, but His playthings were not ready for Him. He came to the
mother's heart, but the mother's heart lagged behind. He left me in anger;
and ever since I have been searching for Him up and down the world.
"The boy was the joy of his father's life. My careless neglect used to
pain my husband. But his was a mute soul. He has never been able to give
expression to his pain.
"The wonderful thing was this, that in spite of my neglect the child used
to love me more than any one else. He seemed to have the dread that I
would one day go away and leave him. So even when I was with him, he would
watch me with a restless look in his eyes. He had me very little to
himself, and therefore his desire to be with me was always painfully
eager. When I went each day to the river, he used to fret and stretch out
his little arms to be taken with me. But the bathing ghal was my place for
meeting my friends, and I did not care to burden myself with the child.
"It was an early morning in August. Fold after fold of grey clouds had
wrapped the mid-day round with a wet clinging robe. I asked the maid to
take care of the boy, while I went down to the river. The child cried
after me as I went away.
"There was no one there at the bathing ghat when I arrived. As a swimmer,
I was the best among all the village women. The river was quite full with
the rains. I swam out into the middle of the stream some distance from the
"Then I heard a cry from the bank, 'Mother!' I turned my head and saw my
boy coming down the steps, calling me as he came. I shouted to him to
stop, but he went on, laughing and calling. My feet and hands became
cramped with fear. I shut my eyes, afraid to see. When I opened them,
there, at the slippery stairs, my boy's ripple of laughter had disappeared
"I got back to the shore. I raised him from the water. I took him in my
arms, my boy, my darling, who had begged so often in vain for me to take
him. I took him now, but he no more looked in my eyes and called 'Mother.'
"My child-God had come. I had ever neglected Him. I had ever made Him cry.
And now all that neglect began to beat against my own heart, blow upon
blow, blow upon blow. When my boy was with me, I had left him alone. I had
refused to take him with me. And now, when he is dead, his memory clings
to me and never leaves me.
"God alone knows all that my husband suffered. If he had only punished me
for my sin, it would have been better for us both. But he knew only how to
endure in silence, not how to speak.
"When I was almost mad with grief, Guru Thakur came back. In earlier days,
the relation between him and my husband had been that of boyish
friendship. Now, my husband's reverence for his sanctity and learning was
unbounded. He could hardly speak in his presence, his awe of him was so
"My husband asked his Guru to try to give me some consolation. Guru Thakur
began to read and explain to me the scriptures. But I do not think they
had much effect on my mind. All their value for me lay in the voice that
uttered them. God makes the draught of divine life deepest in the heart
for man to drink, through the human voice. He has no better vessel in His
hand than that; and He Himself drinks His divine draught out of the same
"My husband's love and veneration for his Guru filled our house, as
incense fills a temple shrine. I showed that veneration, and had peace. I
saw my God in the form of that Guru. He used to come to take his meal at
our house every morning. The first thought that would come to my mind on
waking from sleep was that of his food as a sacred gift from God. When I
prepared the things for his meal, my fingers would sing for joy.
"When my husband saw my devotion to his Guru, his respect for me greatly
increased. He noticed his Guru's eager desire to explain the scriptures to
me. He used to think that he could never expect to earn any regard from
his Guru himself, on account of his stupidity; but his wife had made up
"Thus another five years went by happily, and my whole life would have
passed like that; but beneath the surface some stealing was going on
somewhere in secret. I could not detect it; but it was detected by the God
of my heart. Then came a day when, in a moment our whole life was turned
"It was a morning in midsummer. I was returning home from bathing, my
clothes all wet, down a shady lane. At the bend of the road, under the
mango tree, I met my Guru Thakur. He had his towel on his shoulder and was
repeating some Sanskrit verses as he was going to take his bath. With my
wet clothes clinging all about me I was ashamed to meet him. I tried to
pass by quickly, and avoid being seen. He called me by my name.
"I stopped, lowering my eyes, shrinking into myself. He fixed his gaze
upon me, and said: 'How beautiful is your body!'
"All the universe of birds seemed to break into song in the branches
overhead. All the bushes in the lane seemed ablaze with flowers. It was as
though the earth and sky and everything had become a riot of intoxicating
"I cannot tell how I got home. I only remember that I rushed into the room
where we worship God. But the room seemed empty. Only before my eyes those
same gold spangles of light were dancing which had quivered in front of me
in that shady lane on my way back from the river.
"Guru Thakur came to take his food that day, and asked my husband where I
had gone. He searched for me, but could not find me anywhere.
"Ah! I have not the same earth now any longer. The same sunlight is not
mine. I called on my God in my dismay, and He kept His face turned away
"The day passed, I know not how. That night I had to meet my husband. But
the night is dark and silent. It is the time when my husband's mind comes
out shining, like stars at twilight. I had heard him speak things in the
dark, and I had been surprised to find how deeply he understood.
"Sometimes I am late in the evening in going to rest on account of
household work. My husband waits for me, seated on the floor, without
going to bed. Our talk at such times had often begun with something about
"That night, when it was past midnight, I came to my room, and found my
husband sleeping on the floor. Without disturbing him I lay down on the
ground at his feet, my head towards him. Once he stretched his feet, while
sleeping, and struck me on the breast. That was his last bequest.
"Next morning, when my husband woke up from his sleep, I was already
sitting by him. Outside the window, over the thick foliage of the
jack-fruit tree, appeared the first pale red of the dawn at the fringe of
the night. It was so early that the crows had not yet begun to call.
"I bowed, and touched my husband's feet with my forehead. He sat up,
starting as if waking from a dream, and looked at my face in amazement. I
"'I have made up my mind. I must leave the world. I cannot belong to you
any longer. I must leave your home.'
"Perhaps my husband thought that he was still dreaming. He said not a
"'Ah! do hear me!' I pleaded with infinite pain. 'Do hear me and
understand! You must marry another wife. I must take my leave.'
"My husband said: 'What is all this wild, mad talk? Who advises you to
leave the world?'
"I said: 'My Guru Thakur.'
"My husband looked bewildered. 'Guru Thakur!' he cried. 'When did he give
you this advice?'
"'In the morning,' I answered, 'yesterday, when I met him on my way back
from the river.'
"His voice trembled a little. He turned, and looked in my face, and asked
me: 'Why did he give you such a behest?'
"'I do not know,' I answered. 'Ask him! He will tell you himself, if he
"My husband said: 'It is possible to leave the world, even when continuing
to live in it. You need not leave my home. I will speak to my Guru about
"'Your Guru,' I said, 'may accept your petition; but my heart will never
give its consent. I must leave your home. From henceforth, the world is no
more to me.'
"My husband remained silent, and we sat there on the floor in the dark.
When it was light, he said to me: 'Let us both come to him.'
"I folded my hands and said: 'I shall never meet him again.'
"He looked into my face. I lowered my eyes. He said no more. I knew that,
somehow, he had seen into my mind, and understood what was there. In this
world of mine, there were only two who loved me best—my boy and my
husband. That love was my God, and therefore it could brook no falsehood.
One of these two left me, and I left the other. Now I must have truth, and
She touched the ground at my feet, rose and bowed to me, and departed.
When I was a very young wife, I gave birth to a dead child, and came near
to death myself. I recovered strength very slowly, and my eyesight became
weaker and weaker.
My husband at this time was studying medicine. He was not altogether sorry
to have a chance of testing his medical knowledge on me. So he began to
treat my eyes himself.
My elder brother was reading for his law examination. One day he came to
see me, and was alarmed at my condition.
"What are you doing?" he said to my husband. "You are ruining Kumo's eyes.
You ought to consult a good doctor at once."
My husband said irritably: "Why! what can a good doctor do more than I am
doing? The case is quite a simple one, and the remedies are all well
Dada answered with scorn: "I suppose you think there is no difference
between you and a Professor in your own Medical College."
My husband replied angrily: "If you ever get married, and there is a
dispute about your wife's property, you won't take my advice about Law.
Why, then, do you now come advising me about Medicine?"
While they were quarrelling, I was saying to myself that it was always the
poor grass that suffered most when two kings went to war. Here was a
dispute going on between these two, and I had to bear the brunt of it.
It also seemed to me very unfair that, when my family had given me in
marriage, they should interfere afterwards. After all, my pleasure and
pain are my husband's concern, not theirs.
From that day forward, merely over this trifling matter of my eyes, the
bond between my husband and Dada was strained.
To my surprise one afternoon, while my husband was away, Dada brought a
doctor in to see me. He examined my eyes very carefully, and looked grave.
He said that further neglect would be dangerous. He wrote out a
prescription, and Dada for the medicine at once. When the strange doctor
had gone, I implored my Dada not to interfere. I was sure that only evil
would come from the stealthy visits of a doctor.
I was surprised at myself for plucking up courage speak to my brother like
that. I had always hitherto been afraid of him. I am sure also that Dada
was surprised at my boldness. He kept silence for a while, and then said
to me: "Very well, Kumo. I won't call in the doctor any more. But when the
medicine comes you must take it."
Dada then went away. The medicine came from chemist. I took it—bottles,
powders, prescriptions and all—and threw it down the well!
My husband had been irritated by Dada's interference, and he began to
treat my eyes with greater diligence than ever. He tried all sorts of
remedies. I bandaged my eyes as he told me, I wore his coloured glasses, I
put in his drops, I took all his powders. I even drank the cod-liver oil
he gave me, though my gorge rose against it.
Each time he came back from the hospital, he would ask me anxiously how I
felt; and I would answer: "Oh! much better." Indeed I became an expert in
self-delusion. When I found that the water in my eyes was still
increasing, I would console myself with the thought that it was a good
thing to get rid of so much bad fluid; and, when the flow of water in my
eyes decreased, I was elated at my husband's skill.
But after a while the agony became unbearable. My eyesight faded away, and
I had continual headaches day and night. I saw how much alarmed my husband
was getting. I gathered from his manner that he was casting about for a
pretext to call in a doctor. So I hinted that it might be as well to call
That he was greatly relieved, I could see. He called in an English doctor
that very day. I do not know what talk they had together, but I gathered
that the Sahib had spoken very sharply to my husband.
He remained silent for some time after the doctor had gone. I took his
hands in mine, and said: "What an ill-mannered brute that was! Why didn't
you call in an Indian doctor? That would have been much better. Do you
think that man knows better than you do about my eyes?"
My husband was very silent for a moment, and then said with a broken
voice: "Kumo, your eyes must be operated on."
I pretended to be vexed with him for concealing the fact from me so long.
"Here you have known this all the time," said I, "and yet you have said
nothing about it! Do you think I am such a baby as to be afraid of an
At that he regained his good spirits: "There are very few men," said he,
"who are heroic enough to look forward to an operation without shrinking."
I laughed at him: "Yes, that is so. Men are heroic only before their
He looked at me gravely, and said: "You are perfectly right. We men are
I laughed away his seriousness: "Are you sure you can beat us women even
When Dada came, I took him aside: "Dada, that treatment your doctor
recommended would have done me a world of good; only unfortunately. I
mistook the mixture for the lotion. And since the day I made the mistake,
my eyes have grown steadily worse; and now an operation is needed."
Dada said to me: "You were under your husband's treatment, and that is why
I gave up coming to visit you."
"No," I answered. "In reality, I was secretly treating myself in
accordance with your doctor's directions."
Oh! what lies we women have to tell! When we are mothers, we tell lies to
pacify our children; and when we are wives, we tell lies to pacify the
fathers of our children. We are never free from this necessity.
My deception had the effect of bringing about a better feeling between my
husband and Dada. Dada blamed himself for asking me to keep a secret from
my husband: and my husband regretted that he had not taken my brother's
advice at the first.
At last, with the consent of both, an English doctor came, and operated on
my left eye. That eye, however, was too weak to bear the strain; and the
last flickering glimmer of light went out. Then the other eye gradually
lost itself in darkness.
One day my husband came to my bedside. "I cannot brazen it out before you
any longer," said he, "Kumo, it is I who have ruined your eyes."
I felt that his voice was choking with tears, and so I took up his right
hand in both of mine and said: "Why! you did exactly what was right. You
have dealt only with that which was your very own. Just imagine, if some
strange doctor had come and taken away my eyesight. What consolation
should I have had then? But now I can feel that all has happened for the
best; and my great comfort is to know that it is at your hands I have lost
my eyes. When Ramchandra found one lotus too few with which to worship
God, he offered both his eyes in place of the lotus. And I hate dedicated
my eyes to my God. From now, whenever you see something that is a joy to
you, then you must describe it to me; and I will feed upon your words as a
sacred gift left over from your vision."
I do not mean, of course, that I said all this there and then, for it is
impossible to speak these things an the spur of the moment. But I used to
think over words like these for days and days together. And when I was
very depressed, or if at any time the light of my devotion became dim, and
I pitied my evil fate, then I made my mind utter these sentences, one by
one, as a child repeats a story that is told. And so I could breathe once
more the serener air of peace and love.
At the very time of our talk together, I said enough to show my husband
what was in my heart.
"Kumo," he said to me, "the mischief I have done by my folly can never be
made good. But I can do one thing. I can ever remain by your side, and try
to make up for your want of vision as much as is in my power."
"No," said I. "That will never do. I shall not ask you to turn your house
into an hospital for the blind. There is only one thing to be done, you
must marry again."
As I tried to explain to him that this was necessary, my voice broke a
little. I coughed, and tried to hide my emotion, but he burst out saying:
"Kumo, I know I am a fool, and a braggart, and all that, but I am not a
villain! If ever I marry again, I swear to you—I swear to you the
most solemn oath by my family god, Gopinath—may that most hated of
all sins, the sin of parricide, fall on my head!"
Ah! I should never, never have allowed him to swear that dreadful oath.
But tears were choking my voice, and I could not say a word for
insufferable joy. I hid my blind face in my pillows, and sobbed, and
sobbed again. At last, when the first flood of my tears was over, I drew
his head down to my breast.
"Ah!" said I, "why did you take such a terrible oath? Do you think I asked
you to marry again for your own sordid pleasure? No! I was thinking of
myself, for she could perform those services which were mine to give you
when I had my sight."
"Services!" said he, "services! Those can be done by servants. Do you
think I am mad enough to bring a slave into my house, and bid her share
the throne with this my Goddess?"
As he said the word "Goddess," he held up my face in his hands, and placed
a kiss between my brows. At that moment the third eye of divine wisdom was
opened, where he kissed me, and verily I had a consecration.
I said in my own mind: "It is well. I am no longer able to serve him in
the lower world of household cares. But I shall rise to a higher region. I
shall bring down blessings from above. No more lies! No more deceptions
for me! All the littlenesses and hypocrisies of my former life shall be
banished for ever!"
That day, the whole day through, I felt a conflict going on within me. The
joy of the thought, that after this solemn oath it was impossible for my
husband to marry again, fixed its roots deep in my heart, and I could not
tear them out. But the new Goddess, who had taken her new throne in me,
said: "The time might come when it would be good for your husband to break
his oath and marry again." But the woman, who was within me, said: "That
may be; but all the same an oath is an oath, and there is no way out." The
Goddess, who was within me, answered: "That is no reason why you should
exult over it." But the woman, who was within me, replied: "What you say
is quite true, no doubt; all the same he has taken his oath." And the same
story went on again and again. At last the Goddess frowned in silence, and
the darkness of a horrible fear came down upon me.
My repentant husband would not let the servants do my work; he must do it
all himself. At first it gave me unbounded delight to be dependent on him
thus for every little thing. It was a means of keeping him by my side, and
my desire to have him with me had become intense since my blindness. That
share of his presence, which my eyes had lost, my other senses craved.
When he was absent from my side, I would feel as if I were hanging in
mid-air, and had lost my hold of all things tangible.
Formerly, when my husband came back late from the hospital, I used to open
my window and gaze at the road. That road was the link which connected his
world with mine. Now when I had lost that link through my blindness, all
my body would go out to seek him. The bridge that united us had given way,
and there was now this unsurpassable chasm. When he left my side the gulf
seemed to yawn wide open. I could only wait for the time when he should
cross back again from his own shore to mine.
But such intense longing and such utter dependence can never be good. A
wife is a burden enough to a man, in all conscience, and to add to it the
burden of this blindness was to make his life unbearable. I vowed that I
would suffer alone, and never wrap my husband round in the folds of my
Within an incredibly short space of time I managed to train myself to do
all my household duties by the help of touch and sound and smell. In fact
I soon found that I could get on with greater skill than before. For sight
often distracts rather than helps us. And so it came to pass that, when
these roving eyes of mine could do their work no longer, all the other
senses took up their several duties with quietude and completeness.
When I had gained experience by constant practice, I would not let my
husband do any more household duties for me. He complained bitterly at
first that I was depriving him of his penance.
This did not convince me. Whatever he might say, I could feel that he had
a real sense of relief when these household duties were over. To serve
daily a wife who is blind can never make up the life of a man.
My husband at last had finished his medical course. He went away from
Calcutta to a small town to practise as a doctor. There in the country I
felt with joy, through all my blindness, that I was restored to the arms
of my mother. I had left my village birthplace for Calcutta when I was
eight years old. Since then ten years had passed away, and in the great
city the memory of my village home had grown dim. As long as I had
eyesight, Calcutta with its busy life screened from view the memory of my
early days. But when I lost my eyesight I knew for the first time that
Calcutta allured only the eyes: it could not fill the mind. And now, in my
blindness, the scenes of my childhood shone out once more, like stars that
appear one by one in the evening sky at the end of the day.
It was the beginning of November when we left Calcutta for Harsingpur. The
place was new to me, but the scents and sounds of the countryside pressed
round and embraced me. The morning breeze coming fresh from the newly
ploughed land, the sweet and tender smell of the flowering mustard, the
shepherd-boy's flute sounding in the distance, even the creaking noise of
the bullock-cart, as it groaned over the broken village road, filled my
world with delight. The memory of my past life, with all its ineffable
fragrance and sound, became a living present to me, and my blind eyes
could not tell me I was wrong. I went back, and lived over again my
childhood. Only one thing was absent: my mother was not with me.
I could see my home with the large peepul trees growing along the edge of
the village pool. I could picture in my mind's eye my old grandmother
seated on the ground with her thin wisps of hair untied, warming her back
in the sun as she made the little round lentil balls to be dried and used
for cooking. But somehow I could not recall the songs she used to croon to
herself in her weak and quavering voice. In the evening, whenever I heard
the lowing of cattle, I could almost watch the figure of my mother going
round the sheds with lighted lamp in her hand. The smell of the wet fodder
and the pungent smoke of the straw fire would enter into my very heart.
And in the distance I seemed to hear the clanging of the temple bell
wafted up by the breeze from the river bank.
Calcutta, with all its turmoil and gossip, curdles the heart. There, all
the beautiful duties of life lose their freshness and innocence. I
remember one day, when a friend of mine came in, and said to me: "Kumo,
why don't you feel angry? If I had been treated like you by my husband, I
would never look upon his face again."
She tried to make me indignant, because he had been so long calling in a
"My blindness," said I, "was itself a sufficient evil. Why should I make
it worse by allowing hatred to grow up against my husband?"
My friend shook her head in great contempt, when she heard such
old-fashioned talk from the lips of a mere chit of a girl. She went away
in disdain. But whatever might be my answer at the time, such words as
these left their poison; and the venom was never wholly got out of the
soul, when once they had been uttered.
So you see Calcutta, with its never-ending gossip, does harden the heart.
But when I came back to the country all my earlier hopes and faiths, all
that I held true in life during childhood, became fresh and bright once
more. God came to me, and filled my heart and my world. I bowed to Him,
"It is well that Thou has taken away my eyes. Thou art with me."
Ah! But I said more than was right. It was a presumption to say: "Thou art
with me." All we can say is this: "I must be true to Thee." Even when
nothing is left for us, still we have to go on living.
We passed a few happy months together. My husband gained some reputation
in his profession as a doctor. And money came with it.
But there is a mischief in money. I cannot point to any one event; but,
because the blind have keener perceptions than other people, I could
discern the change which came over my husband along with the increase of
He had a keen sense of justice when he was younger, and had often told me
of his great desire to help the poor when once he obtained a practice of
his own. He had a noble contempt far those in his profession who would not
feel the pulse of a poor patient before collecting his fee. But now I
noticed a difference. He had become strangely hard. Once when a poor woman
came, and begged him, out of charity, to save the life of her only child,
he bluntly refused. And when I implored him myself to help her, he did his
While we were less rich my husband disliked sharp practice in money
matters. He was scrupulously honourable in such things. But since he had
got a large account at the bank he was often closeted for hours with some
scamp of a landlord's agent, for purposes which clearly boded no good.
Where has he drifted? What has become of this husband of mine,—the
husband I knew before I was blind; the husband who kissed me that day
between my brows, and enshrined me on the throne of a Goddess? Those whom
a sudden gust of passion brings down to the dust can rise up again with a
new strong impulse of goodness. But those who, day by day, become dried up
in the very fibre of their moral being; those who by some outer parasitic
growth choke the inner life by slow degrees,—such wench one day a
deadness which knows no healing.
The separation caused by blindness is the merest physical trifle. But, ah!
it suffocates me to find that he is no longer with me, where he stood with
me in that hour when we both knew that I was blind. That is a separation
I, with my love fresh and my faith unbroken, have kept to the shelter of
my heart's inner shrine. But my husband has left the cool shade of those
things that are ageless and unfading. He is fast disappearing into the
barren, waterless waste in his mad thirst for gold.
Sometimes the suspicion comes to me that things not so bad as they seem:
that perhaps I exaggerate because I am blind. It may be that, if my
eyesight were unimpaired, I should have accepted world as I found it.
This, at any rate, was the light in which my husband looked at all my
moods and fancies.
One day an old Musalman came to the house. He asked my husband to visit
his little grand-daughter. I could hear the old man say: "Baba, I am a
poor man; but come with me, and Allah will do you good." My husband
answered coldly: "What Allah will do won't help matters; I want to know
what you can do for me."
When I heard it, I wondered in my mind why God had not made me deaf as
well as blind. The old man heaved a deep sigh, and departed. I sent my
maid to fetch him to my room. I met him at the door of the inner
apartment, and put some money into his hand.
"Please take this from me," said I, "for your little grand-daughter, and
get a trustworthy doctor to look after her. And-pray for my husband."
But the whole of that day I could take no food at all. In the afternoon,
when my husband got up from sleep, he asked me: "Why do you look so pale?"
I was about to say, as I used to do in the past: "Oh! It's nothing "; but
those days of deception were over, and I spoke to him plainly.
"I have been hesitating," I said, "for days together to tell you
something. It has been hard to think out what exactly it was I wanted to
say. Even now I may not be able to explain what I had in my mind. But I am
sure you know what has happened. Our lives have drifted apart."
My husband laughed in a forced manner, and said: "Change is the law of
I said to him: "I know that. But there are some things that are eternal."
Then he became serious.
"There are many women," said he, "who have a real cause for sorrow. There
are some whose husbands do not earn money. There are others whose husbands
do not love them. But you are making yourself wretched about nothing at
Then it became clear to me that my very blindness had conferred on me the
power of seeing a world which is beyond all change. Yes! It is true. I am
not like other women. And my husband will never understand me.
Our two lives went on with their dull routine for some time. Then there
was a break in the monotony. An aunt of my husband came to pay us a visit.
The first thing she blurted out after our first greeting was this: "Well,
Krum, it's a great pity you have become blind; but why do you impose your
own affliction on your husband? You must get him to another wife."
There was an awkward pause. If my husband had only said something in jest,
or laughed in her face, all would have been over. But he stammered and
hesitated, and said at last in a nervous, stupid way: "Do you really think
so? Really, Aunt, you shouldn't talk like that."
His aunt appealed to me. "Was I wrong, Kumo?"
I laughed a hollow laugh.
"Had not you better," said I, "consult some one more competent to decide?
The pickpocket never asks permission from the man whose pocket he is going
"You are quite right," she replied blandly. "Abinash, my dear, let us have
our little conference in private. What do you say to that?"
After a few days my husband asked her, in my presence, if she knew of any
girl of a decent family who could come and help me in my household work.
He knew quite well that I needed no help. I kept silence.
"Oh! there are heaps of them," replied his aunt. "My cousin has a daughter
who is just of the marriageable age, and as nice a girl as you could wish.
Her people would be only too glad to secure you as a husband."
Again there came from him that forced, hesitating laugh, and he said: "But
I never mentioned marriage."
"How could you expect," asked his aunt, "a girl of decent family to come
and live in your house without marriage?"
He had to admit that this was reasonable, and remained nervously silent.
I stood alone within the closed doors of my blindness after he had gone,
and called upon my God and prayed: "O God, save my husband."
When I was coming out of the household shrine from my morning worship a
few days later, his aunt took hold of both my hands warmly.
"Kumo, here is the girl," said she, "we were speaking about the other day.
Her name is Hemangini. She will be delighted to meet you. Hemo, come here
and be introduced to your sister."
My husband entered the room at the same moment. He feigned surprise when
he saw the strange girl, and was about to retire. But his aunt said:
"Abinash, my dear, what are you running away for? There is no need to do
that. Here is my cousin's daughter, Hemangini, come to see you. Hemo, make
your bow to him."
As if taken quite by surprise, he began to ply his aunt with questions
about the when and why and how of the new arrival.
I saw the hollowness of the whole thing, and took Hemangini by the hand
and led her to my own room. I gently stroked her face and arms and hair,
and found that she was about fifteen years old, and very beautiful.
As I felt her face, she suddenly burst out laughing and said: "Why! what
are you doing? Are you hypnotising me?"
That sweet ringing laughter of hers swept away in a moment all the dark
clouds that stood between us. I threw my right arm about her neck.
"Dear one," said I, "I am trying to see you." And again I stroked her soft
face with my left hand.
"Trying to see me?" she said, with a new burst of laughter. "Am I like a
vegetable marrow, grown in your garden, that you want to feel me all round
to see how soft I am?"
I suddenly bethought me that she did not know I had lost my sight.
"Sister, I am blind," said I.
She was silent. I could feel her big young eyes, full of curiosity,
peering into my face. I knew they were full of pity. Then she grew
thoughtful and puzzled, and said, after a short pause:
"Oh! I see now. That was the reason your husband invited his aunt to come
and stay here."
"No!" I replied, "you are quite mistaken. He did not ask her to come. She
came of her own accord."
Hemangini went off into a peal of laughter. "That's just like my aunt,"
said she. "Oh I wasn't it nice of her to come without any invitation? But
now she's come, you won't get her to move for some time, I can assure
Then she paused, and looked puzzled.
"But why did father send me?" she asked. "Can you tell me that?"
The aunt had come into the room while we were talking. Hemangini said to
her: "When are you thinking of going back, Aunt?"
The aunt looked very much upset.
"What a question to ask!" said she, "I've never seen such a restless body
as you. We've only just come, and you ask when we're going back!"
"It is all very well for you," Hemangini said, "for this house belongs to
your near relations. But what about me? I tell you plainly I can't stop
here." And then she held my hand and said: "What do you think, dear?"
I drew her to my heart, but said nothing. The aunt was in a great
difficulty. She felt the situation was getting beyond her control; so she
proposed that she and her niece should go out together to bathe.
"No! we two will go together," said Hemangini, clinging to me. The aunt
gave in, fearing opposition if she tried to drag her away.
Going down to the river Hemangini asked me: "Why don't you have children?"
I was startled by her question, and answered: "How can I tell? My God has
not given me any. That is the reason."
"No! That's not the reason," said Hemangini quickly. "You must have
committed some sin. Look at my aunt. She is childless. It must be because
her heart has some wickedness. But what wickedness is in your heart?"
The words hurt me. I have no solution to offer for the problem of evil. I
sighed deeply, and said in the silence of my soul: "My God! Thou knowest
"Gracious goodness," cried Hemangini, "what are you sighing for? No one
ever takes me seriously."
And her laughter pealed across the river.
I found out after this that there were constant interruptions in my
husband's professional duties. He refused all calls from a distance, and
would hurry away from his patients, even when they were close at hand.
Formerly it was only during the mid-day meals and at night-time that he
could come into the inner apartment. But now, with unnecessary anxiety for
his aunt's comfort, he began to visit her at all hours of the day. I knew
at once that he had come to her room, when I heard her shouting for
Hemangini to bring in a glass of water. At first the girl would do what
she was told; but later on she refused altogether.
Then the aunt would call, in an endearing voice: "Hemo! Hemo! Hemangini."
But the girl would cling to me with an impulse of pity. A sense of dread
and sadness would keep her silent. Sometimes she would shrink towards me
like a hunted thing, who scarcely knew what was coming.
About this time my brother came down from Calcutta to visit me. I knew how
keen his powers of observation were, and what a hard judge he was. I
feared my husband would be put on his defence, and have to stand his trial
before him. So I endeavoured to hide the true situation behind a mask of
noisy cheerfulness. But I am afraid I overdid the part: it was unnatural
My husband began to fidget openly, and asked how long my brother was going
to stay. At last his impatience became little short of insulting, and my
brother had no help for it but to leave. Before going he placed his hand
on my head, and kept it there for some time. I noticed that his hand
shook, and a tear fell from his eyes, as he silently gave me his blessing.
I well remember that it was an evening in April, and a market-day. People
who had come into the town were going back home from market. There was the
feeling of an impending storm in the air; the smell of the wet earth and
the moisture in the wind were all-pervading. I never keep a lighted lamp
in my bedroom, when I am alone, lest my clothes should catch fire, or some
accident happen. I sat on the floor in my dark room, and called upon the
God of my blind world.
"O my Lord," I cried, "Thy face is hidden. I cannot see. I am blind. I
hold tight this broken rudder of a heart till my hands bleed. The waves
have become too strong for me. How long wilt thou try me, my God, how
I kept my head prone upon the bedstead and began to sob. As I did so, I
felt the bedstead move a little. The next moment Hemangini was by my side.
She clung to my neck, and wiped my tears away silently. I do not know why
she had been waiting that evening in the inner room, or why she had been
lying alone there in the dusk. She asked me no question. She said no word.
She simply placed her cool hand on my forehead, and kissed me, and
The next morning Hemangini said to her aunt in my presence: "If you want
to stay on, you can. But I don't. I'm going away home with our family
The aunt said there was no need for her to go alone, for she was going
away also. Then smilingly and mincingly she brought out, from a plush
case, a ring set with pearls.
"Look, Hemo," said she, "what a beautiful ring my Abinash brought for
Hemangini snatched the ring from her hand.
"Look, Aunt," she answered quickly, "just see how splendidly I aim." And
she flung the ring into the tank outside the window.
The aunt, overwhelmed with alarm, vexation, and surprise, bristled like a
hedgehog. She turned to me, and held me by the hand.
"Kumo," she repeated again and again, "don't say a word about this
childish freak to Abinash. He would be fearfully vexed."
I assured her that she need not fear. Not a word would reach him about it
from my lips.
The next day before starting for home Hemangini embraced me, and said:
"Dearest, keep me in mind; do not forget me."
I stroked her face over and over with my fingers, and said: "Sister, the
blind have long memories."
I drew her head towards me, and kissed her hair and her forehead. My world
suddenly became grey. All the beauty and laughter and tender youth, which
had nestled so close to me, vanished when Hemangini departed. I went
groping about with arms outstretched, seeking to find out what was left in
my deserted world.
My husband came in later. He affected a great relief now that they were
gone, but it was exaggerated and empty. He pretended that his aunt's visit
had kept him away from work.
Hitherto there had been only the one barrier of blindness between me and
my husband. Now another barrier was added,—this deliberate silence
about Hemangini. He feigned utter indifference, but I knew he was having
letters about her.
It was early in May. My maid entered my room one morning, and asked me:
"What is all this preparation going on at the landing on the river? Where
is Master going?"
I knew there was something impending, but I said to the maid: "I can't
The maid did not dare to ask me any more questions. She sighed, and went
Late that night my husband came to me.
"I have to visit a patient in the country," said he. "I shall have to
start very early to-morrow morning, and I may have to be away for two or
I got up from my bed. I stood before him, and cried aloud: "Why are you
telling me lies?"
My husband stammered out: "What—what lies have I told you?"
I said: "You are going to get married."
He remained silent. For some moments there was no sound in the room. Then
I broke the silence:
"Answer me," I cried. "Say, yes."
He answered, "Yes," like a feeble echo.
I shouted out with a loud voice: "No! I shall never allow you. I shall
save you from this great disaster, this dreadful sin. If I fail in this,
then why am I your wife, and why did I ever worship my God?"
The room remained still as a stone. I dropped on the floor, and clung to
my husband's knees.
"What have I done?" I asked. "Where have I been lacking? Tell me truly.
Why do you want another wife?"
My husband said slowly: "I will tell you the truth. I am afraid of you.
Your blindness has enclosed you in its fortress, and I have now no
entrance. To me you are no longer a woman. You are awful as my God. I
cannot live my every day life with you. I want a woman—just an
ordinary woman—whom I can be free to chide and coax and pet and
Oh, tear open my heart and see! What am I else but that,—just an
ordinary woman? I am the same girl that I was when I was newly wed, a girl
with all her need to believe, to confide, to worship.
I do not recollect exactly the words that I uttered. I only remember that
I said: "If I be a true wife, then, may God be my witness, you shall never
do this wicked deed, you shall never break your oath. Before you commit
such sacrilege, either I shall become a widow, or Hemangini shall die."
Then I fell down on the floor in a swoon. When I came to myself, it was
still dark. The birds were silent. My husband had gone.
All that day I sat at my worship in the sanctuary at the household shrine.
In the evening a fierce storm, with thunder and lightning and rain, swept
down upon the house and shook it. As I crouched before the shrine, I did
not ask my God to save my husband from the storm, though he must have been
at that time in peril on the river. I prayed that whatever might happen to
me, my husband might be saved from this great sin.
Night passed. The whole of the next day I kept my seat at worship. When it
was evening there was the noise of shaking and beating at the door. When
the door was broken open, they found me lying unconscious on the ground,
and carried me to my room.
When I came to myself at last, I heard some one whispering in my ear:
I found that I was lying in my room with my head on Hemangini's lap. When
my head moved, I heard her dress rustle. It was the sound of bridal silk.
O my God, my God! My prayer has gone unheeded! My husband has fallen!
Hemangini bent her head low, and said in a sweet whisper: "Sister,
dearest, I have come to ask your blessing on our marriage."
At first my whole body stiffened like the trunk of a tree that has been
struck by lightning. Then I sat up, and said, painfully, forcing myself to
speak the words: "Why should I not bless you? You have done no wrong."
Hemangini laughed her merry laugh.
"Wrong!" said she. "When you married it was right; and when I marry, you
call it wrong!"
I tried to smile in answer to her laughter. I said in my mind: "My prayer
is not the final thing in this world. His will is all. Let the blows
descend upon my head; but may they leave my faith and hope in God
Hemangini bowed to me, and touched my feet. "May you be happy," said I,
blessing her, "and enjoy unbroken prosperity."
Hemangini was still unsatisfied.
"Dearest sister," she said, "a blessing for me is not enough. You must
make our happiness complete. You must, with those saintly hands of yours,
accept into your home my husband also. Let me bring him to you."
I said: "Yes, bring him to me."
A few moments later I heard a familiar footstep, and the question, "Kumo,
how are you?"
I started up, and bowed to the ground, and cried: "Dada!"
Hemangini burst out laughing.
"You still call him elder brother?" she asked. "What nonsense! Call him
younger brother now, and pull his ears and cease him, for he has married
me, your younger sister."
Then I understood. My husband had been saved from that great sin. He had
I knew my Dada had determined never to marry. And, since my mother had
died, there was no sacred wish of hers to implore him to wedlock. But I,
his sister, by my sore need bad brought it to pass. He had married for my
Tears of joy gushed from my eyes, and poured down my cheeks. I tried, but
I could not stop them. Dada slowly passed his fingers through my hair.
Hemangini clung to me, and went on laughing.
I was lying awake in my bed for the best part of the night, waiting with
straining anxiety for my husband's return. I could not imagine how he
would bear the shock of shame and disappointment.
When it was long past the hour of midnight, slowly my door opened. I sat
up on my bed, and listened. They were the footsteps of my husband. My
heart began to beat wildly. He came up to my bed, held my band in his.
"Your Dada," said he, "has saved me from destruction. I was being dragged
down and down by a moments madness. An infatuation had seized me, from
which I seemed unable to escape. God alone knows what a load I was
carrying on that day when I entered the boat. The storm came down on
river, and covered the sky. In the midst of all fears I had a secret wish
in my heart to be drowned, and so disentangle my life from the knot which
I had tied it. I reached Mathurganj. There I heard the news which set me
free. Your brother had married Hemangini. I cannot tell you with what joy
and shame I heard it. I hastened on board the boat again. In that moment
of self-revelation I knew that I could have no happiness except with you.
You are a Goddess."
I laughed and cried at the same time, and said: "No, no, no! I am not
going to be a Goddess any longer I am simply your own little wife. I am an
"Dearest," he replied, "I have also something I want to say to you. Never
again put me to shame by calling me your God."
On the next day the little town became joyous with sound of conch shells.
But nobody made any reference to that night of madness, when all was so
THE BABUS OF NAYANJORE
Once upon a time the Babus of Nayanjore were famous landholders. They were
noted for their princely extravagance. They would tear off the rough
border of their Dacca muslin, because it rubbed against their skin. They
could spend many thousands of rupees over the wedding of a kitten. On a
certain grand occasion it is alleged that in order to turn night into day
they lighted numberless lamps and showered silver threads from the sky to
imitate sunlight. Those were the days before the flood. The flood came.
The line of succession among these old-world Babus, with their lordly
habits, could not continue for long. Like a lamp with too many wicks
burning, the oil flared away quickly, and the light went out.
Kailas Babu, our neighbour, is the last relic of this extinct
magnificence. Before he grew up, his family had very nearly reached its
lowest ebb. When his father died, there was one dazzling outburst of
funeral extravagance, and then insolvency. The property was sold to
liquidate the debt. What little ready money was left over was altogether
insufficient to keep up the past ancestral splendours.
Kailas Babu left Nayanjore, and came to Calcutta. His son did not remain
long in this world of faded glory. He died, leaving behind him an only
In Calcutta we are Kailas Baba's neighbours. Curiously enough our own
family history is just the opposite to his. My father got his money by his
own exertions, and prided himself on never spending a penny more than was
needed. His clothes were those of a working man, and his hands also. He
never had any inclination to earn the title of Baba by extravagant
display, and I myself his only son, owe him gratitude for that. He gave me
the very best education, and I was able to make my way in the world. I am
not ashamed of the fact that I am a self-made man. Crisp bank-notes in my
safe are dearer to me than a long pedigree in an empty family chest.
I believe this was why I disliked seeing Kailas Baba drawing his heavy
cheques on the public credit from the bankrupt bank of his ancient Babu
reputation I used to fancy that he looked down on me, because my father
had earned money with his own hands.
I ought to have noticed that no one showed any vexation towards Kailas
Babu except myself. Indeed it would have been difficult to find an old man
who did less harm than he. He was always ready with his kindly little acts
of courtesy in times of sorrow and joy. He would join in all the
ceremonies and religious observances of his neighbours. His familiar smile
would greet young and old alike. His politeness in asking details about
domestic affairs was untiring. The friends who met him in the street were
perforce ready to be button-holed, while a long string of questions of
this kind followed one another from his lips:
"My dear friend, I am delighted to see you. Are quite well? How is Shashi?
and Dada—is he all right? Do you know, I've only just heard that
Madhu's son has got fever. How is he? Have you heard? And Hari Charan Babu—I've
not seen him for a long time—I hope he is not ill. What's the matter
with Rakkhal? And, er—er, how are the ladies of your family?"
Kailas Balm was spotlessly neat in his dress on all occasions, though his
supply of clothes was sorely limited. Every day he used to air his shirts
and vests and coats and trousers carefully, and put them out in the sun,
along with his bed-quilt, his pillowcase, and the small carpet on which he
always sat. After airing them he would shake them, and brush them, and put
them on the rock. His little bits of furniture made his small room decent,
and hinted that there was more in reserve if needed. Very often, for want
of a servant, he would shut up his house for a while. Then he would iron
out his shirts and linen with his own hands, and do other little menial
tasks. After this he would open his door and receive his friends again.
Though Kailas Balm, as I have said, had lost all his landed property, he
had still same family heirlooms left. There was a silver cruet for
sprinkling scented water, a filigree box for otto-of-roses, a small gold
salver, a costly ancient shawl, and the old-fashioned ceremonial dress and
ancestral turban. These he had rescued with the greatest difficulty from
the money-lenders' clutches. On every suitable occasion he would bring
them out in state, and thus try to save the world-famed dignity of the
Babus of Nayanjore. At heart the most modest of men, in his daily speech
he regarded it as a sacred duty, owed to his rank, to give free play to
his family pride. His friends would encourage this trait in his character
with kindly good-humour, and it gave them great amusement.
The neighbourhood soon learnt to call him their Thakur Dada (Grandfather).
They would flock to his house, and sit with him for hours together. To
prevent his incurring any expense, one or other of his friends would bring
him tobacco, and say: "Thakur Dada, this morning some tobacco was sent to
me from Gaya. Do take it, and see how you like it."
Thakur Dada would take it, and say it was excellent. He would then go on
to tell of a certain exquisite tobacco which they once smoked in the old
days at Nayanjore at the cost of a guinea an ounce.
"I wonder," he used to say, "I wonder if any one would like to try it now.
I have some left, and can get it at once."
Every one knew, that, if they asked for it, then somehow or other the key
of the cupboard would be missing; or else Ganesh, his old family servant,
had put it away somewhere.
"You never can be sure," he would add, "where things go to when servants
are about. Now, this Ganesh of mine,—I can't tell you what a fool he
is, but I haven't the heart to dismiss him."
Ganesh, for the credit of the family, was quite ready to bear all the
blame without a word.
One of the company usually said at this point: "Never mind, Thakur Dada.
Please don't trouble to look for it. This tobacco we're smoking will do
quite well. The other would be too strong."
Then Thakur Dada would be relieved, and settle down again, and the talk
would go on.
When his guests got up to go away, Thakur Dada would accompany them to the
door, and say to them on the door-step: "Oh, by the way, when are you all
coming to dine with me?"
One or other of us would answer: "Not just yet, Thakur Dada, not just yet.
We'll fix a day later."
"Quite right," he would answer. "Quite right. We had much better wait till
the rains come. It's too hot now. And a grand rich dinner such as I should
want to give you would upset us in weather like this."
But when the rains did come, every one careful not to remind him of his
promise. If the subject was brought up, some friend would suggest gently
that it was very inconvenient to get about when the rains were so severe,
that it would be much better to wait till they were over. And so the game
His poor lodging was much too small for his position, and we used to
condole with him about it. His friends would assure him they quite
understood his difficulties: it was next to impossible to get a decent
house in Calcutta. Indeed, they had all been looking out for years for a
house to suit him, but, I need hardly add, no friend had been foolish
enough to find one. Thakur Dada used to say, after a long sigh of
resignation: "Well, well, I suppose I shall have to put up with this house
after all." Then he would add with a genial smile: "But, you know, I could
never bear to be away from my friends. I must be near you. That really
compensates for everything."
Somehow I felt all this very deeply indeed. I suppose the real reason was,
that when a man is young stupidity appears to him the worst of crimes.
Kailas Babu was not really stupid. In ordinary business matters every one
was ready to consult him.
But with regard to Nayanjore his utterances were certainly void of common
sense. Because, out of amused affection for him, no one contradicted his
impossible statements, he refused to keep them in bounds. When people
recounted in his hearing the glorious history of Nayanjore with absurd
exaggerations he would accept all they said with the utmost gravity, and
never doubted, even in his dreams, that any one could disbelieve it.
When I sit down and try to analyse the thoughts and feelings that I had
towards Kailas Babu I see that there was a still deeper reason for my
dislike. I will now explain.
Though I am the son of a rich man, and might have wasted time at college,
my industry was such that I took my M.A. degree in Calcutta University
when quite young. My moral character was flawless. In addition, my outward
appearance was so handsome, that if I were to call myself beautiful, it
might be thought a mark of self-estimation, but could not be considered an
There could be no question that among the young men of Bengal I was
regarded by parents generally as a very eligible match. I was myself
quite clear on the point, and had determined to obtain my full value in
the marriage market. When I pictured my choice, I had before my mind's
eye a wealthy father's only daughter, extremely beautiful and highly
educated. Proposals came pouring in to me from far and near; large sums
in cash were offered. I weighed these offers with rigid impartiality, in
the delicate scales of my own estimation. But there was no one fit to be
my partner. I became convinced, with the poet Bhabavuti, that
In this worlds endless time and boundless space
One may be born at last to match my sovereign grace.
But in this puny modern age, and this contracted space of modern Bengal,
it was doubtful if the peerless creature existed as yet.
Meanwhile my praises were sung in many tunes, and in different metres, by
Whether I was pleased with their daughters or not, this worship which they
offered was never unpleasing. I used to regard it as my proper due,
because I was so good. We are told that when the gods withhold their boons
from mortals they still expect their worshippers to pay them fervent
honour, and are angry if it is withheld. I had that divine expectance
strongly developed in myself.
I have already mentioned that Thakur Dada had an only grand-daughter. I
had seen her many times, but had never mistaken her for beautiful. No
thought had ever entered my mind that she would be a possible partner for
myself. All the same, it seemed quite certain to me that some day ox other
Kailas Babu would offer her, with all due worship, as an oblation at my
shrine. Indeed-this was the secret of my dislike-I was thoroughly annoyed
that he had not done it already.
I heard he had told his friends that the Babus of Nayanjore never craved a
boon. Even if the girl remained unmarried, he would not break the family
tradition. It was this arrogance of his that made me angry. My indignation
smouldered for some time. But I remained perfectly silent, and bore it
with the utmost patience, because I was so good.
As lightning accompanies thunder, so in my character a flash of humour was
mingled with the mutterings of my wrath. It was, of course, impossible for
me to punish the old man merely to give vent to my rage; and for a long
time I did nothing at all. But suddenly one day such an amusing plan came
into my head, that I could not resist the temptation of carrying it into
I have already said that many of Kailas Babu's friends used to flatter the
old man's vanity to the full. One, who was a retired Government servant,
had told him that whenever he saw the Chota Lord Sahib he always asked for
the latest news about the Babus of Nayanjore, and the Chota Lard had been
heard to say that in all Bengal the only really respectable families were
those of the Maharaja of Burdwan and the Babus of Nayanjore. When this
monstrous falsehood was told to Kailas Balm he was extremely gratified,
and often repeated the story. And wherever after that he met this
Government servant in company he would ask, along with other questions:
"Oh! er—by the way, how is the Chota Lord Sahib? Quite well, did you
say? Ah, yes, I am so delighted to hear it I And the dear Mem Sahib, is
she quite well too? Ah, yes! and the little children-are they quite well
also? Ah, yes I that's very goad news! Be sure and give them my
compliments when you see them."
Kailas Balm would constantly express his intention of going some day and
paying a visit to the Sahib.
But it may be taken for granted that many Chota Lords and Burro Lords also
would come and go, and much water would pass down the Hoogly, before the
family coach of Nayanjore would be furnished up to pay a visit to
One day I took Kailas Babu aside, and told him in a whisper: "Thakur Dada,
I was at the Levee yesterday, and the Chota Lord happened to mention the
Babes of Nayanjore. I told him that Kailas Balm had come to town. Do you
know, he was terribly hurt because you hadn't called. He told me he was
going to put etiquette on one side, and pay you a private visit himself
this very afternoon."
Anybody else could have seen through this plot of mine in a moment. And,
if it had been directed against another person, Kailas Balm would have
understood the joke. But after all he had heard from his friend the
Government servant, and after all his own exaggerations, a visit from the
Lieutenant-Governor seemed the most natural thing in the world. He became
highly nervous and excited at my news. Each detail of the coming visit
exercised him greatly—most of all his own ignorance of English. How
on earth was that difficulty to be met? I told him there was no difficulty
at all: it was aristocratic not to know English: and, besides, the
Lieutenant-Governor always brought an interpreter with him, and he had
expressly mentioned that this visit was to be private.
About mid-day, when most of our neighbours are at work, and the rest are
asleep, a carriage and pair stopped before the lodging of Kailas Babu. Two
flunkeys in livery came up the stairs, and announced in a loud voice, "The
Chota Lord Sahib hoe arrived." Kailas Babu was ready, waiting for him, in
his old-fashioned ceremonial robes and ancestral turban, and Ganesh was by
his side, dressed in his master's best suit of clothes for the occasion.
When the Chota Lord Sahib was announced, Kailas Balm ran panting and
puffing and trembling to the door, and led in a friend of mine, in
disguise, with repeated salaams, bowing low at each step, and walking
backward as best he could. He had his old family shawl spread over a hard
wooden chair, and he asked the Lord Sahib to be seated. He then made a
high flown speech in Urdu, the ancient Court language of the Sahibs, and
presented on the golden salver a string of gold mohurs, the last relics of
his broken fortune. The old family servant Ganesh, with an expression of
awe bordering on terror, stood behind with the scent-sprinkler, drenching
the Lord Sahib, touching him gingerly from time to time with the
otto-of-roses from the filigree box.
Kailas Babu repeatedly expressed his regret at not being able to receive
His Honour Bahadur with all the ancestral magnificence of his own family
estate at Nayanjore. There he could have welcomed him properly with due
ceremonial. But in Calcutta he was a mere stranger and sojourner-in fact a
fish out of water.
My friend, with his tall silk hat on, very gravely nodded. I need hardly
say that according to English custom the hat ought to have been removed
inside the room. But my friend did not dare to take it off for fear of
detection; and Kailas Balm and his old servant Ganesh were sublimely
unconscious of the breach of etiquette.
After a ten minutes' interview, which consisted chiefly of nodding the
head, my friend rose to his feet to depart. The two flunkeys in livery, as
had been planned beforehand, carried off in state the string of gold
mohurs, the gold salver, the old ancestral shawl, the silver
scent-sprinkler, and the otto-of-roses filigree box; they placed them
ceremoniously in the carriage. Kailas Babu regarded this as the usual
habit of Chota Lard Sahibs.
I was watching all the while from the next room. My sides were aching with
suppressed laughter. When I could hold myself in no longer, I rushed into
a further room, suddenly to discover, in a corner, a young girl sobbing as
if her heart would break. When she saw my uproarious laughter she stood
upright in passion, flashing the lightning of her big dark eyes in mine,
and said with a tear-choked voice:
"Tell me! What harm has my grandfather done to you? Why have you come to
deceive him? Why have you come here? Why—"
She could say no more. She covered her face with her hands, and broke into
My laughter vanished in a moment. It had never occurred to me that there
was anything but a supremely funny joke in this act of mine, and here I
discovered that I had given the cruelest pain to this tenderest little
heart. All the ugliness of my cruelty rose up to condemn me. I slunk out
of the room in silence, like a kicked dog.
Hitherto I had only looked upon Kusum, the grand-daughter of Kailas Babu,
as a somewhat worthless commodity in the marriage market, waiting in vain
to attract a husband. But now I found, with a shock of surprise, that in
the corner of that room a human heart was beating.
The whole night through I had very little sleep. My mind was in a tumult.
On the next day, very early in the morning, I took all those stolen goods
back to Kailas Babe's lodgings, wishing to hand them over in secret to the
servant Ganesh. I waited outside the door, and, not finding any one, went
upstairs to Kailas Babu's room. I heard from the passage Kusum asking her
grandfather in the most winning voice: "Dada, dearest, do tell me all that
the Chota Lord Sahib said to you yesterday. Don't leave out a single word.
I am dying to hear it all over again."
And Dada needed no encouragement. His face beamed over with pride as he
related all manner of praises, which the Lard Sahib had been good enough
to utter concerning the ancient families of Nayanjore. The girl was seated
before him, looking up into his face, and listening with rapt attention.
She was determined, out of love for the old man, to play her part to the
My heart was deeply touched, and tears came to my eyes. I stood there in
silence in the passage, while Thakur Dada finished all his embellishments
of the Chota Lord Sahib's wonderful visit. When he left the room at last,
I took the stolen goods and laid them at the feet of the girl and came
away without a word.
Later in the day I called again to see Kailas Balm himself. According to
our ugly modern custom, I had been in the habit of making no greeting at
all to this old man when I came into the room. But on this day I made a
low bow, and touched his feet. I am convinced the old man thought that the
coming of the Chota Lord Sahib to his house was the cause of my new
politeness. He was highly gratified by it, and an air of benign severity
shone from his eyes. His friends had flocked in, and he had already begun
to tell again at full length the story of the Lieutenant-Governor's visit
with still further adornments of a most fantastic kind. The interview was
already becoming an epic, both in quality and in length.
When the other visitors had taken their leave, I made my proposal to the
old man in a humble manner. I told him that, "though I could never for a
moment hope to be worthy of marriage connection with such an illustrious
family, yet... etc. etc."
When I made clear my proposal of marriage, the old man embraced me, and
broke out in a tumult of joy: "I am a poor man, and could never have
expected such great good fortune."
That was the first and last time in his life that Kailas Babu confessed to
being poor. It was also the first and last time in his life that he
forgot, if only for a single moment, the ancestral dignity that belongs to
the Babus of Nayanjore.
LIVING OR DEAD?
The widow in the house of Saradasankar, the Ranihat zemindar, had no
kinsmen of her father's family. One after another all had died. Nor had
she in her husband's family any one she could call her own, neither
husband nor son. The child of her brother-in-law Saradasankar was her
darling. Far a long time after his birth, his mother had been very ill,
and the widow, his aunt Kadambini, had fostered him. If a woman fosters
another's child, her love for him is all the stronger because she has no
claim upon him-no claim of kinship, that is, but simply the claim of love.
Love cannot prove its claim by any document which society accepts, and
does not wish to prove it; it merely worships with double passion its
life's uncertain treasure. Thus all the widow's thwarted love went out to
wards this little child. One night in Sraban Kadambini died suddenly. For
some reason her heart stopped beating. Everywhere else the world held on
its course; only in this gentle little breast, suffering with love, the
watch of time stood still for ever.
Lest they should be harassed by the poike, four of the zemindar's Brahmin
servants took away the body, without ceremony, to be burned. The
burning-ground of Ranihat was very far from the village. There was a hut
beside a tank, a huge banian near it, and nothing more. Formerly a river,
now completely dried up, ran through the ground, and part of the
watercourse had been dug out to make a tank for the performance of funeral
rites. The people considered the tank as part of the river and reverenced
it as such.
Taking the body into the hut, the four men sat down to wait for the wood.
The time seemed so long that two of the four grew restless, and went to
see why it did not come. Nitai and Gurucharan being gone, Bidhu and
Banamali remained to watch over the body.
It was a dark night of Sraban. Heavy clouds hung In a starless sky. The
two men sat silent in the dark room. Their matches and lamp were useless.
The matches were damp, and would not light, for all their efforts, and the
lantern went out.
After a long silence, one said: "Brother, it would be good if we had a
bowl of tobacco. In our hurry we brought none."
The other answered: "I can run and bring all we want."
Understanding why Banarnali wanted to go (From fear of ghosts, the
burning-ground being considered haunted.), Bidhu said: "I daresay!
Meanwhile, I suppose I am to sit here alone!"
Conversation ceased again. Five minutes seemed like an hour. In their
minds they cursed the two, who had gone to fetch the wood, and they began
to suspect that they sat gossiping in some pleasant nook. There was no
sound anywhere, except the incessant noise of frogs and crickets from the
tank. Then suddenly they fancied that the bed shook slightly, as if the
dead body had turned on its side. Bidhu and Banamali trembled, and began
muttering: "Ram, Ram." A deep sigh was heard in the room. In a moment the
watchers leapt out of the hut, and raced for the village.
After running about three miles, they met their colleagues coming back
with a lantern. As a matter of fact, they had gone to smoke, and knew
nothing about the wood. But they declared that a tree had been cut down,
and that, when it was split up, it would be brought along at once. Then
Bidhu and Banamali told them what had happened in the hut. Nitai and
Gurucharan scoffed at the story, and abused Bidhu and Banamali angrily for
leaving their duty.
Without delay all four returned to the hut. As they entered, they saw at
once that the body was gone; nothing but an empty bed remained. They
stared at one another. Could a jackal have taken it? But there was no
scrap of clothing anywhere. Going outside, they saw that on the mud that
had collected at the door of the but there were a woman's tiny footprints,
newly made. Saradasankar was no fool, and they could hardly persuade him
to believe in this ghost story. So after much discussion the four decided
that it would be best to say that the body had been burnt.
Towards dawn, when the men with the wood arrived they were told that,
owing to their delay, the work had been done without them; there had been
some wood in the but after all. No one was likely to question this, since
a dead body is not such a valuable property that any one would steal it.
Every one knows that, even when there is no sign, life is often secretly
present, and may begin again in an apparently dead body. Kadambini was not
dead; only the machine of her life had for some reason suddenly stopped.
When consciousness returned, she saw dense darkness on all sides. It
occurred to her that she was not lying in her usual place. She called out
"Sister," but no answer came from the darkness. As she sat up,
terror-stricken, she remembered her death-bed, the sudden pain at her
breast, the beginning of a choking sensation. Her elder sister-in-law was
warming some milk for the child, when Kadambini became faint, and fell on
the bed, saying with a choking voice: "Sister, bring the child here. I am
worried." After that everything was black, as when an inkpot is upset over
an exercise-book. Kadambini's memory and consciousness, all the letters of
the world's book, in a moment became formless. The widow could not
remember whether the child, in the sweet voice of love, called her
"Auntie," as if for the last time, or not; she could not remember whether,
as she left the world she knew for death's endless unknown journey, she
had received a parting gift of affection, love's passage-money for the
silent land. At first, I fancy, she thought the lonely dark place was the
House of Yama, where there is nothing to see, nothing to hear, nothing to
do, only an eternal watch. But when a cold damp wind drove through the
open door, and she heard the croaking of frogs, she remembered vividly and
in a moment all the rains of her short life, and could feel her kinship
with the earth. Then came a flash of lightning, and she saw the tank, the
banian, the great plain, the far-off trees. She remembered how at full
moon she had sometimes come to bathe in this tank, and how dreadful death
had seemed when she saw a corpse on the burning-ground.
Her first thought was to return home. But then she reflected: "I am dead.
How can I return home? That would bring disaster on them. I have left the
kingdom of the living; I am my own ghost!" If this were not so, she
reasoned, how could she have got out of Saradasankar's well-guarded
zenana, and come to this distant burningground at midnight? Also, if her
funeral rites had not been finished, where had the men gone who should
burn her? Recalling her death-moment in Saradasankar's brightly-lit house,
she now found herself alone in a distant, deserted, dark burning. ground.
Surely she was no member of earthly society! Surely she was a creature of
horror, of ill-omen, her own ghost!
At this thought, all the bonds were snapped which bound her to the world.
She felt that she had marvellous strength, endless freedom. She could do
what she liked, go where she pleased. Mad with the inspiration of this new
idea, she rushed from the but like a gust of wind, and stood upon the
burning ground. All trace of shame or fear had left her.
But as she walked on and on, her feet grew tired, her body weak. The plain
stretched on endlessly; here and there were paddy-fields; sometimes she
found herself standing knee-deep in water.
At the first glimmer of dawn she heard one or two birds cry from the
bamboo-clumps by the distant houses. Then terror seized her. She could not
tell in what new relation she stood to the earth and to living folk. So
long as she had been on the plain, on the burning-ground, covered by the
dark night of Sraban, so long she had been fearless, a denizen of her own
kingdom. By daylight the homes of men filled her with fear. Men and ghosts
dread each other, for their tribes inhabit different banks of the river of
Her clothes were clotted in the mud; strange thoughts and walking by night
had given her the aspect of a madwoman; truly, her apparition was such
that folk might have been afraid of her, and children might have stoned
her or run away. Luckily, the first to catch sight of her was a traveller.
He came up, and said: "Mother, you look a respectable woman. Wherever are
you going, alone and in this guise?"
Kadambini, unable to collect her thoughts, stared at him in silence. She
could not think that she was still in touch with the world, that she
looked like a respectable woman, that a traveller was asking her
Again the min said: "Come, mother, I will see you home. Tell me where you
Kadambini thought. To return to her father-in-law's house would be absurd,
and she had no father's house. Then she remembered the friend of her
childhood. She had not seen Jogmaya since the days of her youth, but from
time to time they had exchanged letters. Occasionally there had been
quarrels between them, as was only right, since Kadambini wished to make
it dear that her love for Jogmaya was unbounded, while her friend
complained that Kadambini did not return a love equal to her own. They
were both sure that, if they once met, they would be inseparable.
Kadambini said to the traveller: "I will go to Sripati's house at
As he was going to Calcutta, Nisindapur, though not near, was on his way.
So he took Kadambini to Sripati s house, and the friends met again. At
first they did not recognise one another, but gradually each recognised
the features of the other's childhood.
"What luck!" said Jogmaya. "I never dreamt that I should see you again.
But how hate you come here, sister? Your father-in-law's folk surely
didn't let you go!"
Kadambini remained silent, and at last said: "Sister, do not ask about my
father-in-law. Give me a corner, and treat me as a servant: I will do your
"What?" cried Jogmaya. "Keep you like a servant! Why, you are my closest
friend, you are my—" and so on and so on.
Just then Sripati came in. Kadambini stared at him for some time, and then
went out very slowly. She kept her head uncovered, and showed not the
slightest modesty or respect. Jogmaya, fearing that Sripati would be
prejudiced against her friend, began an elaborate explanation. But
Sripati, who readily agreed to anything Jogmaya said, cut short her story,
and left his wife uneasy in her mind.
Kadambini had come, but she was not at one with her friend: death was
between them. She could feel no intimacy for others so long as her
existence perplexed her and consciousness remained. Kadambini would look
at Jogmaya, and brood. She would think: "She has her husband and her work,
she lives in a world far away from mine. She shares affection and duty
with the people of the world; I am an empty shadow. She is among the
living; I am in eternity."
Jogmaya also was uneasy, but could not explain why. Women do not love
mystery, because, though uncertainty may be transmuted into poetry, into
heroism, into scholarship, it cannot be turned to account in household
work. So, when a woman cannot understand a thing, she either destroys and
forgets it, or she shapes it anew for her own use; if she fails to deal
with it in one of these ways, she loses her temper with it. The greater
Kadambini's abstraction became, the more impatient was Jogmaya with her,
wondering what trouble weighed upon her mind.
Then a new danger arose. Kadambini was afraid of herself; yet she could
not flee from herself. Those who fear ghosts fear those who are behind
them; wherever they cannot see there is fear. But Kadambini's chief terror
lay in herself, for she dreaded nothing external. At the dead of night,
when alone in her room, she screamed; in the evening, when she saw her
shadow in the lamp-light, her whole body shook. Watching her fearfulness,
the rest of the house fell into a sort of terror. The servants and Jogmaya
herself began to see ghosts.
One midnight, Kadambini came out from her bedroom weeping, and wailed at
Jogmaya's door: "Sister, sister, let me lie at your feet! Do not put me by
Jogmaya's anger was no less than her fear. She would have liked to drive
Kadambini from the house that very second. The good-natured Sripati, after
much effort, succeeded in quieting their guest, and put her in the next
Next day Sripati was unexpectedly summoned to his wife's apartments. She
began to upbraid him: "You, do you call yourself a man? A woman runs away
from her father-in-law, and enters your house; a month passes, and you
haven't hinted that she should go away, nor have I heard the slightest
protest from you. I should cake it as a favour if you would explain
yourself. You men are all alike."
Men, as a race, have a natural partiality for womankind in general, foe
which women themselves hold them accountable. Although Sripati was
prepared to touch Jogmaya's body, and swear that his kind feeling towards
the helpless but beautiful Kadambini was no whit greater than it should
be, he could not prove it by his behaviour. He thought that her
father-in-law's people must have treated this forlorn widow abominably, if
she could bear it no longer, and was driven to take refuge with him. As
she had neither father nor mother, how could he desert her? So saying, he
let the matter drop, far he had no mind to distress Kadambini by asking
her unpleasant questions.
His wife, then, tried other means of her sluggish lord, until at last he
saw that for the sake of peace he must send word to Kadambini's
father-in-law. The result of a letter, he thought, might not be
satisfactory; so he resolved to go to Ranihat, and act on what he learnt.
So Sripati went, and Jogmaya on her part said to Kadambini "Friend, it
hardly seems proper for you to stop here any longer. What will people
Kadambini stared solemnly at Jogmaya, and said: "What have I to do with
Jogmaya was astounded. Then she said sharply: "If you have nothing to do
with people, we have. How can we explain the detention of a woman
belonging to another house?"
Kadambini said: "Where is my father-in-law's house?"
"Confound it!" thought Jogmaya. "What will the wretched woman say next?"
Very slowly Kadambini said: "What have I to do with you? Am I of the
earth? You laugh, weep, love; each grips and holds his own; I merely look.
You are human, I a shadow. I cannot understand why God has kept me in this
world of yours."
So strange were her look and speech that Jogmaya understood something of
her drift, though not all. Unable either to dismiss her, or to ask her any
more questions, she went away, oppressed with thought.
It was nearly ten o'clock at night when Sripati returned from Ranihat. The
earth was drowned in torrents of rain. It seemed that the downpour would
never stop, that the night would never end.
Jogmaya asked: "Well?"
"I've lots to say, presently."
So saying, Sripati changed his clothes, and sat down to supper; then he
lay dawn for a smoke. His mind was perplexed.
His wife stilled her curiosity for a long time; then she came to his couch
and demanded: "What did you hear?"
"That you have certainly made a mistake."
Jogmaya was nettled. Women never make mistakes, or, if they do, a sensible
man never mentions them; it is better to take them on his own shoulders.
Jogmaya snapped: "May I be permitted to hear how?"
Sripati replied: "The woman you have taken into your house is not your
Hearing this, she was greatly annoyed, especially since it was her husband
who said it. "What! I don't know my own friend? I must come to you to
recognise her! You are clever, indeed!"
Sripati explained that there was no need to quarrel about his cleverness.
He could prove what he said. There was no doubt that Jogmaya's Kadambini
Jogmaya replied: "Listen! You've certainly made some huge mistake. You've
been to the wrong house, or are confused as to what you have heard. Who
told you to go yourself? Write a letter, and everything will be cleared
Sripati was hurt by his wife's lack of faith in his executive ability; he
produced all sorts of proof, without result. Midnight found them still
asserting and contradicting. Although they were both agreed now that
Kadambini should be got out of the house, although Sripati believed that
their guest had deceived his wife all the time by a pretended
acquaintance, and Jogmaya that she was a prostitute, yet in the present
discussion neither would acknowledge defeat. By degrees their voices
became so loud that they forgot that Kadambini was sleeping in the next
The one said: "We're in a nice fix! I tell you, I heard it with my own
ears!" And the other answered angrily: "What do I care about that? I can
see with my own eyes, surely."
At length Jogmaya said: "Very well. Tell me when Kadambini died." She
thought that if she could find a discrepancy between the day of death and
the date of some letter from Kadambini, she could prove that Sripati
He told her the date of Kadambini's death, and they both saw that it fell
on the very day before she came to their house. Jogmaya's heart trembled,
even Sripati was not unmoved.
Just then the door flew open; a damp wind swept in and blew the lamp out.
The darkness rushed after it, and filled the whole house. Kadambini stood
in the room. It was nearly one o'clock, the rain was pelting outside.
Kadambini spoke: "Friend, I am your Kadambini, but I am no longer living.
I am dead."
Jogmaya screamed with terror; Sripati could speak.
"But, save in being dead, I have done you no wrong. If I have no place
among the living, I have none among the dead. Oh! whither shall I go?"
Crying as if to wake the sleeping Creator in the dense night of rain, she
asked again: "Oh! whither shall I go?"
So saying Kadambini left her friend fainting in the dark house, and went
out into the world, seeking her own place.
It is hard to say how Kadambini reached Ranihat. At first she showed
herself to no one, but spent the whole day in a ruined temple, starving.
When the untimely afternoon of the rains was pitch-black, and people
huddled into their houses for fear of the impending storm, then Kadambini
came forth. Her heart trembled as she reached her father-in-law's house;
and when, drawing a thick veil over her face, she entered, none of the
doorkeepers objected, since they took her for a servant. And the rain was
pouring down, and the wind howled.
The mistress, Saradasankar's wife, was playing cards with her widowed
sister. A servant was in the kitchen, the sick child was sleeping in the
bedroom. Kadambini, escaping every one's notice, entered this room. I do
not know why she had come to her father-in-law's house; she herself did
not know; she felt only that she wanted to see her child again. She had no
thought where to go next, or what to do.
In the lighted room she saw the child sleeping, his fists clenched, his
body wasted with fever. At sight of him, her heart became parched and
thirsty. If only she could press that tortured body to her breast!
Immediately the thought followed: "I do not exist. Who would see it? His
mother loves company, loves gossip and cards. All the time that she left
me in charge, she was herself free from anxiety, nor was she troubled
about him in the least. Who will look after him now as I did?"
The child turned on his side, and cried, half-asleep: "Auntie, give me
water." Her darling had not yet forgotten his auntie! In a fever of
excitement, she poured out some water, and, taking him to her breast, she
gave it him.
As long as he was asleep, the child felt no strangeness in taking water
from the accustomed hand. But when Kadambini satisfied her long-starved
longing, and kissed him and began rocking him asleep again, he awoke and
embraced her. "Did you die, Auntie?" he asked.
"And you have come back? Do not die again."
Before she could answer disaster overtook her. One of the maidservants
coming in with a cup of sago dropped it, and fell down. At the crash the
mistress left her cards, and entered the room. She stood like a pillar of
wood, unable to flee or speak. Seeing all this, the child, too, became
terrified, and burst out weeping: "Go away, Auntie," he said, "go away!"
Now at last Kadambini understood that she had not died. The old room, the
old things, the same child, the same love, all returned to their living
state, without change or difference between her and them. In her friend's
house she had felt that her childhood's companion was dead. In her child's
room she knew that the boy's "Auntie" was not dead at all. In anguished
tones she said: "Sister, why do you dread me? See, I am as you knew me."
Her sister-in-law could endure no longer, and fell into a faint.
Saradasankar himself entered the zenana. With folded hands, he said
piteously: "Is this right? Satis is my only son. Why do you show yourself
to him? Are we not your own kin? Since you went, he has wasted away daily;
his fever has been incessant; day and night he cries: 'Auntie, Auntie.'
You have left the world; break these bonds of maya (Illusory affection
binding a soul to the world). We will perform all funeral honours."
Kadambini could bear no more. She said: "Oh, I am not dead, I am not dead.
Oh, how can I persuade you that I am not dead? I am living, living!" She
lifted a brass pot from the ground and dashed it against her forehead. The
blood ran from her brow. "Look!" she cried, "I am living!" Saradasankar
stood like an image; the child screamed with fear, the two fainting women
Then Kadambini, shouting "I am not dead, I am not dead," went down the
steps to the zenana well, and plunged in. From the upper storey
Saradasankar heard the splash.
All night the rain poured; it poured next day at dawn, was pouring still
at noon. By dying, Kadambini had given proof that she was not dead.
"WE CROWN THEE KING"
When Nabendu Sekhar was wedded to Arunlekha, the God of marriage smiled
from behind the sacrificial fire. Alas! what is sport for the gods is not
always a joke to us poor mortals.
Purnendu Sekhar, the father of Nabendu, was a man well known amongst the
English officials of the Government. In the voyage of life he had arrived
at the desert shores of Rai Bahadurship by diligently plying his oats of
salaams. He held in reserve enough for further advancement, but at the age
of fifty-five, his tender gaze still fixed on the misty peals of
Raja-hood, he suddenly found himself transported to a region where earthly
honours and decorations are naught, and his salaam-wearied neck found
everlasting repose on the funeral pyre.
According to modern science, force is not destroyed, but is merely
converted to another form, and applied to another point. So Purnendu's
salaam-force, constant handmaid of the fickle Goddess of Fortune,
descended from the shoulder of the father to that of his worthy son; and
the youthful head of Nabendu Sekhar began to move up and down, at the
doors of high-placed Englishmen, like a pumpkin swayed by the wind.
The traditions of the family into which he had married were entirely
different. Its eldest son, Pramathanath, had won for himself the love of
his kinsfolk and the regard of all who knew him. His kinsmen and his
neighbours looked up to him as their ideal in all things.
Pramathanath was a Bachelor of Arts, and in addition was gifted with
common sense. But he held no high official position; he had no handsome
salary; nor did he exert any influence with his pen. There was no one in
power to lend him a helping hand, because he desired to keep away from
Englishmen, as much as they desired to keep away from him. So it happened
that he shone only within the sphere of his family and his friends, and
excited no admiration beyond it.
Yet this Pramathanath had once sojourned in England for some three years.
The kindly treatment he received during his stay there overpowered him so
much that he forgot the sorrow and the humiliation of his own country, and
came back dressed in European clothes. This rather grieved his brothers
and his sisters at first, but after a few days they began to think that
European clothes suited nobody better, and gradually they came to share
his pride and dignity.
On his return from England, Pramathanath resolved that he would show the
world how to associate with Anglo-Indians on terms of equality. Those of
our countrymen who think that no such association is possible, unless we
bend our knees to them, showed their utter lack of self-respect, and were
also unjust to the English-so thought Pramathanath.
He brought with him letters of introduction from many distinguished
Englishmen at home, and these gave him some recognition in Anglo-Indian
society. He and his wife occasionally enjoyed English hospitality at tea,
dinner, sports and other entertainments. Such good luck intoxicated him,
and began to produce a tingling sensation in every vein of his body.
About this time, at the opening of a new railway line, many of the town,
proud recipients of official favour, were invited by the
Lieutenant-Governor to take the first trip. Pramathanath was among them.
On the return journey, a European Sergeant of the Police expelled some
Indian gentlemen from a railway-carriage with great insolence.
Pramathanath, dressed in his European clothes, was there. He, too, was
getting out, when the Sergeant said: "You needn't move, sir. Keep your
At first Pramathanath felt flattered at the special respect thus shown to
him. When, however, the train went on, the dull rays of the setting sun,
at the west of the fields, now ploughed up and stripped of green, seemed
in his eyes to spread a glow of shame over the whole country. Sitting near
the window of his lonely compartment, he seemed to catch a glimpse of the
down-cast eyes of his Motherland, hidden behind the trees. As Pramathanath
sat there, lost in reverie, burning tears flowed down his cheeks, and his
heart burst with indignation.
He now remembered the story of a donkey who was drawing the chariot of an
idol along the street. The wayfarers bowed down to the idol, and touched
the dusty ground with their foreheads. The foolish donkey imagined that
all this reverence was being shown to him. "The only difference," said
Pramathanath to himself, "between the donkey and myself is this: I
understand to-day that the respect I receive is not given to me but to the
burden on my back."
Arriving home, Pramathanath called together all the children of the
household, and lighting a big bonfire, threw all his European clothes into
it one by one. The children danced round and round it, and the higher the
flames shot up, the greater was their merriment. After that, Pramathanath
gave up his sip of tea and bits of toast in Anglo-Indian houses, and once
again sat inaccessible within the castle of his house, while his insulted
friends went about from the door of one Englishman to that of another,
bending their turbaned heads as before.
By an irony of fate, poor Nabendu Sekhar married the second daughter of
this house. His sisters-in-law were well educated and handsome. Nabendu
considered he had made a lucky bargain. But he lost no time in trying to
impress on the family that it was a rare bargain on their side also. As if
by mistake, he would often hand to his sisters-in-law sundry letters that
his late father had received from Europeans. And when the cherry lips of
those young ladies smiled sarcastically, and the point of a shining dagger
peeped out of its sheath of red velvet, the unfortunate man saw his folly,
and regretted it.
Labanyalekha, the eldest sister, surpassed the rest in beauty and
cleverness. Finding an auspicious day, she put on the mantel-shelf of
Nabendu's bedroom two pairs of English boots, daubed with vermilion, and
arranged flowers, sandal-paste, incense and a couple of burning candles
before them in true ceremonial fashion. When Nabendu came in, the two
sisters-in-law stood on either side of him, and said with mock solemnity:
"Bow down to your gods, and may you prosper through their blessings."
The third sister Kiranlekha spent many days in embroidering with red silk
one hundred common English names such as Jones, Smith, Brown, Thomson,
etc., on a chadar. When it was ready, she presented this namavoli (A
namavoli is a sheet of cloth printed all over with the names of Hindu gods
and goddesses and worn by pious Hindus when engaged in devotional
exercises.) to Nabendu Sekhar with great ceremony.
The fourth, Sasankalekha, of tender age and therefore of no account, said:
"I will make you a string of beads, brother, with which to tell the names
of your gods-the sahibs." Her sisters reproved her, saying: "Run away, you
Feelings of shame and irritation assailed by turns the mind of Nabendu
Sekhar. Still he could not forego the company of his sisters-in-law,
especially as the eldest one was beautiful. Her honey was no less than her
gall, and Nabendu's mind tasted at once the sweetness of the one and the
bitterness of the other. The butterfly, with its bruised wings, buzzes
round the flower in blind fury, unable to depart.
The society of his sisters-in-Law so much infatuated him that at last
Nabendu began to disavow his craving for European favours. When he went to
salaam the Burra Sahib, he used to pretend that he was going to listen to
a speech by Mr. Surendranath Banerjea. When he went to the railway station
to pay respects to the Chota Sahib, returning from Darjeeling, he would
tell his sisters-in-law that he expected his youngest uncle.
It was a sore trial to the unhappy man placed between the cross-fires of
his Sahibs and his sisters-in-law. The sisters-in-law, however, secretly
vowed that they would not rest till the Sahibs had been put to rout.
About this time it was rumoured that Nabendu's name would be included in
the forthcoming list of Birthday honours, and that he would mount the
first step of the ladder to Paradise by becoming a Rai Bahadur. The poor
fellow had not the courage to break the joyful news to his sisters-in-law.
One evening, however, when the autumn moon was flooding the earth with its
mischievous beams, Nabendu's heart was so full that he could not contain
himself any longer, and he told his wife. The next day, Mrs. Nabendu
betook herself to her eldest sister's house in a palanquin, and in a voice
choked with tears bewailed her lot.
"He isn't going to grow a tail," said Labanya, "by becoming a Rai Bahadur,
is he? Why should you feel so very humiliated?"
"Oh, no, sister dear," replied Arunlekha, "I am prepared to be anything—but
not a Rai-Baha-durni." The fact was that in her circle of acquaintances
there was one Bhutnath Babu, who was a Rai Bahadur, and that explained her
intense aversion to that title.
Labanya said to her sister in soothing tones: "Don't be upset about it,
dear; I will see what I can do to prevent it."
Babu Nilratan, the husband of Labanya, was a pleader at Buxar. When the
autumn was over, Nabendu received an invitation from Labanya to pay them a
visit, and he started for Buxar greatly pleased.
The early winter of the western province endowed Labanyalekha with new
health and beauty, and brought a glowing colour to her pale cheeks, She
looked like the flower-laden kasa reeds on a clear autumn day, growing by
the lonely bank of a rivulet. To Nabendu's enchanted eyes she appeared
like a malati plant in full blossom, showering dew-drops brilliant with
the morning light.
Nabendu had never felt better in his life. The exhilaration of his own
health and the genial company of his pretty sister-in-law made him think
himself light enough to tread on air. The Ganges in front of the garden
seemed to him to be flowing ceaselessly to regions unknown, as though it
gave shape to his own wild fantasies.
As he returned in the early morning from his walk on the bank of the
river, the mellow rays of the winter sun gave his whole frame that
pleasing sensation of warmth which lovers feel in each other's arms.
Coming home, he would now and then find his sister-in-Law amusing herself
by cooking some dishes. He would offer his help, and display his want of
skill and ignorance at every step. But Nabendu did not appear to be at all
anxious to improve himself by practice and attention. On the contrary he
thoroughly enjoyed the rebukes he received from his sister-in-law. He was
at great pains to prove every day that he was inefficient and helpless as
a new-born babe in mixing spices, handling the saucepan, and regulating
the heat so as to prevent things getting burnt-and he was duly rewarded
with pitiful smiles and scoldings.
In the middle of the day he ate a great deal of the good food set before
him, incited by his keen appetite and the coaxing of his sister-in-law.
Later on, he would sit down to a game of cards—at which he betrayed
the same lack of ability. He would cheat, pry into his adversary's hand,
quarrel—but never did he win a single rubber, and worse still, he
would not acknowledge defeat. This brought him abuse every day, and still
he remained incorrigible.
There was, however, one matter in which his reform was complete. For the
time at least, he had forgotten that to win the smiles of Sahibs was the
final goal of life. He was beginning to understand how happy and worthy we
might feel by winning the affection and esteem of those near and dear to
Besides, Nabendu was now moving in a new atmosphere. Labanya's husband,
Babu Nilratan, a leader of the bar, was reproached by many because he
refused to pay his respects to European officials. To all such reproaches
Nilratan would reply: "No, thank you,—if they are not polite enough
to return my call, then the politeness I offer them is a loss that can
never be made up for. The sands of the desert may be very white and shiny,
but I would much rather sow my seeds in black soil, where I can expect a
And Nabendu began to adopt similar ideas, all regardless of the future.
His chance of Rai Bahadurship throve on the soil carefully prepared by his
late father and also by himself in days gone by, nor was any fresh
watering required. Had he not at great expense laid out a splendid
race-course in a town, which was a fashionable resort of Europeans?
When the time of Congress drew near, Nilratan received a request from
head-quarters to collect subscriptions. Nabendu, free from anxiety, was
merrily engaged in a game of cards with his sister-in-law, when Nilratan
Babu came upon him with a subscription-book in his hand, and said: "Your
From old habit Nabendu looked horrified. Labanya, assuming an air of great
concern and anxiety, said: "Never do that. It would ruin your racecourse
Nabendu blurted out: "Do you suppose I pass sleepless nights through fear
"We won't publish your name in the papers," said Nilratan reassuringly.
Labanya, looking grave and anxious, said: "Still, it wouldn't be safe.
Things spread so, from mouth to mouth—"
Nabendu replied with vehemence: "My name wouldn't suffer by appearing in
the newspapers." So saying, he snatched the subscription list from
Nilratan's hand, and signed away a thousand rupees. Secretly he hoped that
the papers would not publish the news.
Labanya struck her forehead with her palm and gasped out: "What—have
"Nothing wrong," said Nabendu boastfully.
"But—but—," drawled Labanya, "the Guard sahib of Sealdah
Station, the shop-assistant at Whiteaway's, the syce-sahib of Hart Bros.—these
gentlemen might be angry with you, and decline to come to your Poojah
dinner to drink your champagne, you know. Just think, they mightn't pat
you on the back, when you meet them again!"
"It wouldn't break my heart," Nabendu snapped out.
A few days passed. One morning Nabendu was sipping his tea, and glancing
at a newspaper. Suddenly a letter signed "X" caught his eye. The writer
thanked him profusely for his donation, and declared that the increase of
strength the Congress had acquired by having such a man within its fold,
Alas, father Purnendu Sekhar! Was it to increase the strength of the
Congress, that you brought this wretch into the world?
Put the cloud of misfortune had its silver lining. That he was not a mere
cypher was clear from the fact that the Anglo-Indian community on the one
side and the Congress on the other were each waiting patiently, eager to
hook him, and land him on their own side. So Nabendu, beaming with
pleasure took the paper to his sister-in-law, and showed her the letter.
Looking as though she knew nothing about it, Labanya exclaimed in
surprise: "Oh, what a pity! Everything has come out! Who bore you such
ill-will? Oh, how cruel of him, how wicked of him!"
Nabendu laughed out, saying: "Now—now—don't call him names,
Labanya. I forgive him with all my heart, and bless him too."
A couple of days after this, an anti-Congress Anglo-Indian paper reached
Nabendu through the post. There was a letter in it, signed "One who
knows," and contradicting the above report. "Those who have the pleasure
of Babu Nabendu Sekhar's personal acquaintance," the writer went on,
"cannot for a moment believe this absurd libel to be true. For him to turn
a Congresswalla is as impossible as it is for the leopard to change his
spots. He is a man of genuine worth, and neither a disappointed candidate
for Government employ nor a briefless barrister. He is not one of those
who, after a brief sojourn in England, return aping our dress and manners,
audaciously try to thrust themselves on Anglo-Indian society, and finally
go back in dejection. So there is absolutely no reason why Balm Nabendu
Sekhar," etc., etc.
Ah, father Purnendu Sekhar! What a reputation you had made with the
Europeans before you died!
This letter also was paraded before his sister-in-law, for did it not
assert that he was no mean, contemptible scallywag, but a man of real
Labanya exclaimed again in feigned surprise: "Which of your friends wrote
it now? Oh, come—is it the Ticket Collector, or the hide merchant,
or is it the drum-major of the Fort?"
"You ought to send in a contradiction, I think," said Nilratan.
"Is it necessary?" said Nabendu loftily. "Must I contradict every little
thing they choose to say against me?"
Labanya filled the room with a deluge of laughter. Nabendu felt a little
disconcerted at this, and said: "Why? What's the matter?" She went on
laughing, unable to check herself, and her youthful slender form waved to
and fro. This torrent of merriment had the effect of overthrowing Nabendu
completely, and he said in pitiable accents: "Do you imagine that I am
afraid to contradict it?"
"Oh, dear, no," said Labanya; "I was thinking that you haven't yet ceased
trying to save that race-course of yours, so full of promise. While there
is life, there is hope, you know."
"That's what I am afraid of, you think, do you? Very well, you shall see,"
said Nabendu desperately, and forthwith sat down to write his
contradiction. When he had finished, Labanya and Nilratan read it through,
and said: "It isn't strong enough. We must give it them pretty hot,
mustn't we?" And they kindly undertook to revise the composition. Thus it
ran: "When one connected to us by ties of blood turns our enemy he becomes
far more dangerous than any outsider. To the Government of India, the
haughty Anglo-Indians are worse enemies than the Russians or the frontier
Pathans themselves—they are the impenetrable barrier, forever
hindering the growth of any bond of friendship between the Government and
people of the country. It is the Congress which has opened up the royal
road to a better understanding between the rulers and the ruled, and the
Anglo-Indian papers have planted themselves like thorns across the whole
breadth of that road," etc., etc.
Nabendu had an inward fear as to the mischief this letter might do, but at
the same time he felt elated at the excellence of its composition, which
he fondly imagined to be his own. It was duly published, and for some days
comments, replies, and rejoinders went on in various newspapers, and the
air was full of trumpet-notes, proclaiming the fact that Nabendu had
joined the Congress, and the amount of his subscription.
Nabendu, now grown desperate, talked as though he was a patriot of the
fiercest type. Labanya laughed inwardly, and said to herself: "Well—-well—you
have to pass through the ordeal of fire yet."
One morning when Nabendu, before his bath, had finished rubbing oil over
his chest, and was trying various devices to reach the inaccessible
portions of his back, the bearer brought in a card inscribed with the name
of the District Magistrate himself! Good heavens!—What would he do?
He could not possibly go, and receive the Magistrate Sahib, thus
oil-besmeared. He shook and twitched like a koi-fish, ready dressed for
the frying pan. He finished his bath in a great hurry, tugged on his
clothes somehow, and ran breathlessly to the outer apartments. The bearer
said that the Sahib had just left after waiting for a long time. How much
of the blame for concocting this drama of invented incidents may be set
down to Labanya, and how much to the bearer is a nice problem for ethical
mathematics to solve.
Nabendu's heart was convulsed with pain within his breast, like the tail
of a lizard just cut off. He moped like an owl all day long.
Labanya banished all traces of inward merriment from her face, and kept on
enquiring in anxious tones: "What has happened to you? You are not ill, I
Nabendu made great efforts to smile, and find a humorous reply. "How can
there be," he managed to say, "any illness within your jurisdiction, since
you yourself are the Goddess of Health?"
But the smile soon flickered out. His thoughts were: "I subscribed to the
Congress fund to begin with, published a nasty letter in a newspaper, and
on the top of that, when the Magistrate Sahib himself did me the honour to
call on me, I kept him waiting. I wonder what he is thinking of me."
Alas, father Purnendu Sekhar, by an irony of Fate I am made to appear what
I am not.
The next morning, Nabendu decked himself in his best clothes, wore his
watch and chain, and put a big turban on his head.
"Where are you off to?" enquired his sister-in-law.
"Urgent business," Nabendu replied. Labanya kept quiet.
Arriving at the Magistrate's gate, he took out his card-case.
"You cannot see him now," said the orderly peon icily.
Nabendu took out a couple of rupees from his pocket. The peon at once
salaamed him and said: "There are five of us, sir." Immediately Nabendu
pulled out a ten-rupee note, and handed it to him.
He was sent for by the Magistrate, who was writing in his dressing-gown
and bedroom slippers. Nabendu salaamed him. The Magistrate pointed to a
chair with his finger, and without raising his eyes from the paper before
him said: "What can I do for you, Babu?"
Fingering his watch-chain nervously, Nabendu said is shaky tones:
"Yesterday you were good enough to call at my place, sir—"
The Sahib knitted his brows, and, lifting just one eye from his paper,
said: "I called at your place! Babu, what nonsense are you talking?"
"Beg your pardon, sir," faltered out Nabendu. "There has been a mistake—some
confusion," and wet with perspiration, he tumbled out of the room somehow.
And that night, as he lay tossing on his bed, a distant dream-like voice
came into his ear with a recurring persistency: "Babu, you are a howling
On his way home, Nabendu came to the conclusion that the Magistrate denied
having called, simply because he was highly offended.
So he explained to Labanya that he had been out purchasing rose-water. No
sooner had he uttered the words than half-a-dozen chuprassis wearing the
Collectorate badge made their appearance, and after salaaming Nabendu,
stood there grinning.
"Have they come to arrest you because you subscribed to the Congress
fund?" whispered Labanya with a smile.
The six peons displayed a dozen rows of teeth and said: "Bakshish—Babu-Sahib."
From a side room Nilratan came out, and said in an irritated manner:
"Bakshish? What for?"
The peons, grinning as before, answered: "The Babu-Sahib went to see the
Magistrate—so we have come for bakshish."
"I didn't know," laughed out Labanya, "that the Magistrate was selling
rose-water nowadays. Coolness wasn't the special feature of his trade
Nabendu in trying to reconcile the story of his purchase with his visit to
the Magistrate, uttered some incoherent words, which nobody could make
Nilratan spoke to the peons: "There has been no occasion for bakshish; you
shan't have it."
Nabendu said, feeling very small: "Oh, they are poor men—what's the
harm of giving them something?" And he took out a currency note. Nilratan
snatched it way from Nabendu's hand, remarking: "There are poorer men in
the world—I will give it to them for you."
Nabendu felt greatly distressed that he was not able to appease these
ghostly retainers of the angry Siva. When the peons were leaving, with
thunder in their eyes, he looked at them languishingly, as much as to say:
"You know everything, gentlemen, it is not my fault."
The Congress was to be held at Calcutta this year. Nilratan went down
thither with his wife to attend the sittings. Nabendu accompanied them.
As soon as they arrived at Calcutta, the Congress party surrounded
Nabendu, and their delight and enthusiasm knew no bounds. They cheered
him, honoured him, and extolled him up to the skies. Everybody said that,
unless leading men like Nabendu devoted themselves to the Cause, there was
no hope for the country. Nabendu was disposed to agree with them, and
emerged out of the chaos of mistake and confusion as a leader of the
country. When he entered the Congress Pavilion on the first day, everybody
stood up, and shouted "Hip, hip, hurrah," in a loud outlandish voice,
hearing which our Motherland reddened with shame to the root of her ears.
In due time the Queen's birthday came, and Nabendu's name was not found in
the list of Rai Bahadurs.
He received an invitation from Labanya for that evening. When he arrived
there, Labanya with great pomp and ceremony presented him with a robe of
honour, and with her own hand put a mark of red sandal paste on the middle
of his forehead. Each of the other sisters threw round his neck a garland
of flowers woven by herself. Decked in a pink Sari and dazzling jewels,
his wife Arunlekha was waiting in a side room, her face lit up with smiles
and blushes. Her sisters rushed to her, and, placing another garland in
her hand, insisted that she also should come, and do her part in the
ceremony, but she would not listen to it; and that principal garland,
cherishing a desire for Nabendu's neck, waited patiently for the still
secrecy of midnight.
The sisters said to Nabendu: "To-day we crown thee King. Such honour will
not be done to any body else in Hindoostan."
Whether Nabendu derived any consolation from this, he alone can tell; but
we greatly doubt it. We believe, in fact, that he will become a Rai
Bahadur before he has done, and the Englishman and the Pioneer will write
heart-rending articles lamenting his demise at the proper time. So, in the
meanwhile, Three Cheers for Babu Purnendu Sekhar! Hip, hip, hurrah—Hip,
hip, hurrah—Hip, hip, hurrah.
It was a night of full moon early in the month of Phalgun. The youthful
spring was everywhere sending forth its breeze laden with the fragrance of
mango-blossoms. The melodious notes of an untiring papiya (One of the
sweetest songsters in Bengal. Anglo-Indian writers have nicknamed it the
"brain-fever bird," which is a sheer libel.), concealed within the thick
foliage of an old lichi tree by the side of a tank, penetrated a sleepless
bedroom of the Mukerji family. There Hemanta now restlessly twisted a lock
of his wife's hair round his finger, now beat her churl against her
wristlet until it tinkled, now pulled at the chaplet of flowers about her
head, and left it hanging over hex face. His mood was that of as evening
breeze which played about a favourite flowering shrub, gently shaking her
now this side, now that, in the hope of rousing her to animation.
But Kusum sat motionless, looking out of the open window, with eyes
immersed in the moonlit depth of never-ending space beyond. Her husband's
caresses were lost on her.
At last Hemanta clasped both the hands of his wife, and, shaking them
gently, said: "Kusum, where are you? A patient search through a big
telescope would reveal you only as a small speck-you seem to have receded
so far away. O, do come closer to me, dear. See how beautiful the night
Kusum turned her eyes from the void of space towards her husband, and said
slowly: "I know a mantra (A set of magic words.), which could in one
moment shatter this spring night and the moon into pieces."
"If you do," laughed Hemanta, "pray don't utter it. If any mantra of yours
could bring three or four Saturdays during the week, and prolong the
nights till 5 P.M. the next day, say it by all means."
Saying this, he tried to draw his wife a little closer to him. Kusum,
freeing herself from the embrace, said: "Do you know, to-night I feel a
longing to tell you what I promised to reveal only on my death-bed.
To-night I feel that I could endure whatever punishment you might inflict
Hemanta was on the point of making a jest about punishments by reciting a
verse from Jayadeva, when the sound of an angry pair of slippers was heard
approaching rapidly. They were the familiar footsteps of his father,
Haribar Mukerji, and Hemanta, not knowing what it meant, was in a flutter
Standing outside the door Harihar roared out: "Hemanta, turn your wife out
of the house immediately."
Hemanta looked at his wife, and detected no trace of surprise in her
features. She merely buried her face within the palms of her hands, and,
with all the strength and intensity of her soul, wished that she could
then and there melt into nothingness. It was the same papiya whose song
floated into the room with the south breeze, and no one heard it. Endless
are the beauties of the earth-but alas, how easily everything is twisted
out of shape.
Returning from without, Hemanta asked his wife: "Is it true?"
"It is," replied Kusum.
"Why didn't you tell me long ago?"
"I did try many a time, and I always failed. I am a wretched woman."
"Then tell me everything now."
Kusum gravely told her story in a firm unshaken voice. She waded
barefooted through fire, as it were, with slow unflinching steps, and
nobody knew how much she was scorched. Having heard her to the end,
Hemanta rose and walked out.
Kusum thought that her husband had gone, never to return to her again. It
did not strike her as strange. She took it as naturally as any other
incident of everyday life-so dry and apathetic had her mind become during
the last few moments. Only the world and love seemed to her as a void and
make-believe from beginning to end. Even the memory of the protestations
of love, which her husband had made to her in days past, brought to her
lips a dry, hard, joyless smile, like a sharp cruel knife which had cut
through her heart. She was thinking, perhaps, that the love which seemed
to fill so much of one's life, which brought in its train such fondness
and depth of feeling, which made even the briefest separation so
exquisitely painful and a moment's union so intensely sweet, which seemed
boundless in its extent and eternal in its duration, the cessation of
which could not be imagined even in births to come—that this was
that love! So feeble was its support! No sooner does the priesthood touch
it than your "eternal" love crumbles into a handful of dust! Only a short
while ago Hemanta had whispered to her: "What a beautiful night!" The same
night was not yet at an end, the same yapiya was still warbling, the same
south breeze still blew into the roam, making the bed-curtain shiver; the
same moonlight lay on the bed next the open window, sleeping like a
beautiful heroine exhausted with gaiety. All this was unreal! Love was
more falsely dissembling than she herself!
The next morning Hemanta, fagged after a sleepless night, and looking like
one distracted, called at the house of Peari Sankar Ghosal. "What news, my
son?" Peari Sankar greeted him.
Hemanta, flaring up like a big fire, said in a trembling voice: "You have
defiled our caste. You have brought destruction upon us. And you will have
to pay for it." He could say no more; he felt choked.
"And you have preserved my caste, presented my ostracism from the
community, and patted me on the back affectionately!" said Peari Sankar
with a slight sarcastic smile.
Hemanta wished that his Brahmin-fury could reduce Peari Sankar to ashes in
a moment, but his rage burnt only himself. Peari Sankar sat before him
unscathed, and in the best of health.
"Did I ever do you any harm?" demanded Hemanta in a broken voice.
"Let me ask you one question," said Peari Sankar. "My daughter—my
only child-what harm had she done your father? You were very young then,
and probably never heard. Listen, then. Now, don't you excite yourself.
There is much humour in what I am going to relate.
"You were quite small when my son-in-law Nabakanta ran away to England
after stealing my daughter's jewels. You might truly remember the
commotion in the village when he returned as a barrister five years later.
Or, perhaps, you were unaware of it, as you were at school in Calcutta at
the time. Your father, arrogating to himself the headship of the
community, declared that if I sent my daughter to her husband's home, I
must renounce her for good, and never again allow her to cross my
threshold. I fell at your father's feet, and implored him, saying:
'Brother, save me this once. I will make the boy swallow cow-dung, and go
through the prayaschittam ceremony. Do take him back into caste.' But your
father remained obdurate. For my part, I could not disown my only child,
and, bidding good-bye to my village and my kinsmen, I betook myself to
Calcutta. There, too, my troubles followed me. When I had made every
arrangement for my nephew's marriage, your father stirred up the girl's
people, and they broke the match off. Then I took a solemn vow that, if
there was a drop of Brahmin blood flowing in my veins, I would avenge
myself. You understand the business to some extent now, don't you? But
wait a little longer. You will enjoy it, when I tell you the whole story;
it is interesting.
"When you were attending college, one Bipradas Chatterji used to live next
door to your lodgings. The poor fellow is dead now. In his house lived a
child-widow called Kusum, the destitute orphan of a Kayestha gentleman.
The girl was very pretty, and the old Brahmin desired to shield her from
the hungry gaze of college students. But for a young girl to throw dust in
the eyes of her old guardian was not at all a difficult task. She often
went to the top of the roof, to hang her washing out to dry, and, I
believe, you found your own roof best suited for your studies. Whether you
two spoke to each other, when on your respective roofs, I cannot tell, but
the girl's behaviour excited suspicion in the old man's mind. She made
frequent mistakes in her household duties, and, like Parbati (The wife of
Shiva the Destroyer), engaged in her devotions, began gradually to
renounce food and sleep. Some evenings she would burst into tears in the
presence of the old gentleman, without any apparent reason.
"At last he discovered that you two saw each other from the roofs pretty
frequently, and that you even went the length of absenting yourself from
college to sit on the roof at mid-day with a book in your hand, so fond
had you grown suddenly of solitary study. Bipradas came to me for advice,
and told me everything. 'Uncle,' said I to him, 'for a long while you have
cherished a desire to go on a pilgrimage to Benares. You had better do it
now, and leave the girl in my charge. I will take care of her.'
"So he went. I lodged the girl in the house of Sripati Chatterji, passing
him off as her father. What happened next is known to you. I feel a great
relief to-day, having told you everything from the beginning. It sounds
like a romance, doesn't it? I think of turning it into a book, and getting
it printed. But I am not a writing-man myself. They say my nephew has some
aptitude that way—I will get him to write it for me. But the best
thing would be, if you would collaborate with him, because the conclusion
of the story is not known to me so well."
Without paying much attention to the concluding remarks of Peari Sankar,
Hemanta asked: "Did not Kusum object to this marriage?"
"Well," said Peari Sankar, "it is very difficult to guess. You know, my
boy, how women's minds are constituted. When they say 'no,' they mean
'yes.' During the first few days after her removal to the new home, she
went almost crazy at not seeing you. You, too, seemed to have discovered
her new address somehow, as you used to lose your way after starting for
college, and loiter about in front of Sripati's house. Your eyes did not
appear to be exactly in search of the Presidency College, as they were
directed towards the barred windows of a private house, through which
nothing but insects and the hearts of moon-struck young men could obtain
access. I felt very sorry for you both. I could see that your studies were
being seriously interrupted, and that the plight of the girl was pitiable
"One day I called Kusum to me, and said: 'Listen to me, my daughter. I am
an old man, and you need feel no delicacy in my presence. I know whom you
desire at heart. The young man's condition is hopeless too. I wish I could
bring about your union.' At this Kusum suddenly melted into tears, and ran
away. On several evenings after that, I visited Sripati's house, and,
calling Kusum to me, discussed with her matters relating to you, and so I
succeeded in gradually overcoming her shyness. At last, when I said that I
would try to bring about a marriage, she asked me: 'How can it be?' 'Never
mind,' I said, 'I would pass you off as a Brahmin maiden.' After a good
deal of argument, she begged me to find out whether you would approve of
it. 'What nonsense,' replied I, 'the boy is well-nigh mad as it were,
what's the use of disclosing all these complications to him? Let the
ceremony be over smoothly and then—all's well that ends well.
Especially, as there is not the slightest risk of its ever leaking out,
why go out of the way to make a fellow miserable for life?'
"I do not know whether the plan had Kusum's assent or not. At times she
wept, and at other times she remained silent. If I said, 'Let us drop it
then,' she would become very restless. When things were in this state, I
sent Sripati to you with the proposal of marriage; you consented without a
moment's hesitation. Everything was settled.
"Shortly before the day fixed, Kusum became so obstinate that I had the
greatest difficulty in bringing her round again. 'Do let it drop, uncle,'
she said to me constantly. 'What do you mean, you silly child,' I rebuked
her,' how can we back out now, when everything has been settled?'
"'Spread a rumour that I am dead,' she implored. 'Send me away somewhere.'
"'What would happen to the young man then?' said I.' He is now in the
seventh heaven of delight, expecting that his long cherished desire would
be fulfilled to-morrow; and to-day you want me to send him the news of
your death. The result would be that to-morrow I should have to bear the
news of his death to you, and the same evening your death would be
reported to me. Do you imagine, child, that I am capable of committing a
girl-murder and a Brahmin-murder at my age?'
"Eventually the happy marriage was celebrated at the auspicious moment,
and I felt relieved of a burdensome duty which I owed to myself. What
happened afterwards you know best."
"Couldn't you stop after having done us an irreparable injury?" burst out
Hemanta after a short silence. "Why have you told the secret now?"
With the utmost composure, Peari Sankar replied: "When I saw that all
arrangements had been made for the wedding of your sister, I said to
myself: 'Well, I have fouled the caste of one Brahmin, but that was only
from a sense of duty. Here, another Brahmin's caste is imperilled, and
this time it is my plain duty to prevent it.' So I wrote to them saying
that I was in a position to prove that you had taken the daughter of a
sudra to wife."
Controlling himself with a gigantic effort, Hemanta said: "What will
become of this girl whom I shall abandon now? Would you give her food and
"I have done what was mine to do," replied Peari Sankar calmly. "It is no
part of my duty to look after the discarded wives of other people. Anybody
there? Get a glass of cocoanut milk for Hemanta Babu with ice in it. And
some pan too."
Hemanta rose, and took his departure without waiting for this luxurious
It was the fifth night of the waning of the moon—and the night was
dark. No birds were singing. The lichi tree by the tank looked like a
smudge of ink on a background a shade less deep. The south wind was
blindly roaming about in the darkness like a sleep-walker. The stars in
the sky with vigilant unblinking eyes were trying to penetrate the
darkness, in their effort to fathom some profound mystery.
No light shone in the bedroom. Hemanta was sitting on the side of the bed
next the open window, gazing at the darkness in front of him. Kusum lay on
the floor, clasping her husband's feet with both her arms, and her face
resting on them. Time stood like an ocean hushed into stillness. On the
background of eternal night, Fate seemed to have painted this one single
picture for all time—annihilation on every side, the judge in the
centre of it, and the guilty one at his feet.
The sound of slippers was heard again. Approaching the door, Harihar
Mukerji said: "You have had enough time,—I can't allow you more.
Turn the girl out of the house."
Kusum, as she heard this, embraced her husband's feet with all the ardour
of a lifetime, covered them with kisses, and touching her forehead to them
reverentially, withdrew herself.
Hemanta rose, and walking to the door, said: "Father, I won't forsake my
"What!" roared out Harihar, "would you lose your caste, sir?"
"I don't care for caste," was Hemanta's calm reply.
"Then you too I renounce."
(THE FRUITSELLER FROM CABUL)
My five years' old daughter Mini cannot live without chattering. I really
believe that in all her life she has not wasted a minute in silence. Her
mother is often vexed at this, and would stop her prattle, but I would
not. To see Mini quiet is unnatural, and I cannot bear it long. And so my
own talk with her is always lively.
One morning, for instance, when I was in the midst of the seventeenth
chapter of my new novel, my little Mini stole into the room, and putting
her hand into mine, said: "Father! Ramdayal the door-keeper calls a crow a
krow! He doesn't know anything, does he?"
Before I could explain to her the differences of language in this world,
she was embarked on the full tide of another subject. "What do you think,
Father? Bhola says there is an elephant in the clouds, blowing water out
of his trunk, and that is why it rains!"
And then, darting off anew, while I sat still making ready some reply to
this last saying, "Father! what relation is Mother to you?"
"My dear little sister in the law!" I murmured involuntarily to myself,
but with a grave face contrived to answer: "Go and play with Bhola, Mini!
I am busy!"
The window of my room overlooks the road. The child had seated herself at
my feet near my table, and was playing softly, drumming on her knees. I
was hard at work on my seventeenth chapter, where Protrap Singh, the hero,
had just caught Kanchanlata, the heroine, in his arms, and was about to
escape with her by the third story window of the castle, when all of a
sudden Mini left her play, and ran to the window, crying, "A Cabuliwallah!
a Cabuliwallah!" Sure enough in the street below was a Cabuliwallah,
passing slowly along. He wore the loose soiled clothing of his people,
with a tall turban; there was a bag on his back, and he carried boxes of
grapes in his hand.
I cannot tell what were my daughter's feelings at the sight of this man,
but she began to call him loudly. "Ah!" I thought, "he will come in, and
my seventeenth chapter will never be finished!" At which exact moment the
Cabuliwallah turned, and looked up at the child. When she saw this,
overcome by terror, she fled to her mother's protection, and disappeared.
She had a blind belief that inside the bag, which the big man carried,
there were perhaps two or three other children like herself. The pedlar
meanwhile entered my doorway, and greeted me with a smiling face.
So precarious was the position of my hero and my heroine, that my first
impulse was to stop and buy something, since the man had been called. I
made some small purchases, and a conversation began about Abdurrahman, the
Russians, she English, and the Frontier Policy.
As he was about to leave, he asked: "And where is the little girl, sir?"
And I, thinking that Mini must get rid of her false fear, had her brought
She stood by my chair, and looked at the Cabuliwallah and his bag. He
offered her nuts and raisins, but she would not be tempted, and only clung
the closer to me, with all her doubts increased.
This was their first meeting.
One morning, however, not many days later, as I was leaving the house, I
was startled to find Mini, seated on a bench near the door, laughing and
talking, with the great Cabuliwallah at her feet. In all her life, it
appeared; my small daughter had never found so patient a listener, save
her father. And already the corner of her little sari was stuffed with
almonds and raisins, the gift of her visitor, "Why did you give her
those?" I said, and taking out an eight-anna bit, I handed it to him. The
man accepted the money without demur, and slipped it into his pocket.
Alas, on my return an hour later, I found the unfortunate coin had made
twice its own worth of trouble! For the Cabuliwallah had given it to Mini,
and her mother catching sight of the bright round object, had pounced on
the child with: "Where did you get that eight-anna bit?"
"The Cabuliwallah gave it me," said Mini cheerfully.
"The Cabuliwallah gave it you!" cried her mother much shocked. "Oh, Mini!
how could you take it from him?"
I, entering at the moment, saved her from impending disaster, and
proceeded to make my own inquiries.
It was not the first or second time, I found, that the two had met. The
Cabuliwallah had overcome the child's first terror by a judicious bribery
of nuts and almonds, and the two were now great friends.
They had many quaint jokes, which afforded them much amusement. Seated in
front of him, looking down on his gigantic frame in all her tiny dignity,
Mini would ripple her face with laughter, and begin: "O Cabuliwallah,
Cabuliwallah, what have you got in your bag?"
And he would reply, in the nasal accents of the mountaineer: "An
elephant!" Not much cause for merriment, perhaps; but how they both
enjoyed the witticism! And for me, this child's talk with a grown-up man
had always in it something strangely fascinating.
Then the Cabuliwallah, not to be behindhand, would take his turn: "Well,
little one, and when are you going to the father-in-law's house?"
Now most small Bengali maidens have heard long ago about the
father-in-law's house; but we, being a little new-fangled, had kept these
things from our child, and Mini at this question must have been a trifle
bewildered. But she would not show it, and with ready tact replied: "Are
you going there?"
Amongst men of the Cabuliwallah's class, however, it is well known that
the words father-in-law's house have a double meaning. It is a euphemism
for jail, the place where we are well cared for, at no expense to
ourselves. In this sense would the sturdy pedlar take my daughter's
question. "Ah," he would say, shaking his fist at an invisible policeman,
"I will thrash my father-in-law!" Hearing this, and picturing the poor
discomfited relative, Mini would go off into peals of laughter, in which
her formidable friend would join.
These were autumn mornings, the very time of year when kings of old went
forth to conquest; and I, never stirring from my little corner in
Calcutta, would let my mind wander over the whole world. At the very name
of another country, my heart would go out to it, and at the sight of a
foreigner in the streets, I would fall to weaving a network of dreams,—the
mountains, the glens, and the forests of his distant home, with his
cottage in its setting, and the free and independent life of far-away
wilds. Perhaps the scenes of travel conjure themselves up before me, and
pass and repass in my imagination all the more vividly, because I lead
such a vegetable existence, that a call to travel would fall upon me like
a thunderbolt. In the presence of this Cabuliwallah, I was immediately
transported to the foot of arid mountain peaks, with narrow little defiles
twisting in and out amongst their towering heights. I could see the string
of camels bearing the merchandise, and the company of turbaned merchants,
carrying some of their queer old firearms, and some of their spears,
journeying downward towards the plains. I could see—but at some such
point Mini's mother would intervene, imploring me to "beware of that man."
Mini's mother is unfortunately a very timid lady. Whenever she hears a
noise in the street, or sees people coming towards the house, she always
jumps to the conclusion that they are either thieves, or drunkards, or
snakes, or tigers, or malaria or cockroaches, or caterpillars, or an
English sailor. Even after all these years of experience, she is not able
to overcome her terror. So she was full of doubts about the Cabuliwallah,
and used to beg me to keep a watchful eye on him.
I tried to laugh her fear gently away, but then she would turn round on me
seriously, and ask me solemn questions.
Were children never kidnapped?
Was it, then, not true that there was slavery in Cabul?
Was it so very absurd that this big man should be able to carry off a tiny
I urged that, though not impossible, it was highly improbable. But this
was not enough, and her dread persisted. As it was indefinite, however, it
did not seem right to forbid the man the house, and the intimacy went on
Once a year in the middle of January Rahmun, the Cabuliwallah, was in the
habit of returning to his country, and as the time approached he would be
very busy, going from house to house collecting his debts. This year,
however, he could always find time to come and see Mini. It would have
seemed to an outsider that there was some conspiracy between the two, for
when he could not come in the morning, he would appear in the evening.
Even to me it was a little startling now and then, in the corner of a dark
room, suddenly to surprise this tall, loose-garmented, much bebagged man;
but when Mini would run in smiling, with her, "O! Cabuliwallah!
Cabuliwallah!" and the two friends, so far apart in age, would subside
into their old laughter and their old jokes, I felt reassured.
One morning, a few days before he had made up his mind to go, I was
correcting my proof sheets in my study. It was chilly weather. Through the
window the rays of the sun touched my feet, and the slight warmth was very
welcome. It was almost eight o'clock, and the early pedestrians were
returning home, with their heads covered. All at once, I heard an uproar
in the street, and, looking out, saw Rahmun being led away bound between
two policemen, and behind them a crowd of curious boys. There were
blood-stains on the clothes of the Cabuliwallah, and one of the policemen
carried a knife. Hurrying out, I stopped them, and enquired what it all
meant. Partly from one, partly from another, I gathered that a certain
neighbour had owed the pedlar something for a Rampuri shawl, but had
falsely denied having bought it, and that in the course of the quarrel,
Rahmun had struck him. Now in the heat of his excitement, the prisoner
began calling his enemy all sorts of names, when suddenly in a verandah of
my house appeared my little Mini, with her usual exclamation: "O
Cabuliwallah! Cabuliwallah!" Rahmun's face lighted up as he turned to her.
He had no bag under his arm today, so she could not discuss the elephant
with him. She at once therefore proceeded to the next question: "Are you
going to the father-in-law's house?" Rahmun laughed and said: "Just where
I am going, little one!" Then seeing that the reply did not amuse the
child, he held up his fettered hands. "Ali," he said, "I would have
thrashed that old father-in-law, but my hands are bound!"
On a charge of murderous assault, Rahmun was sentenced to some years'
Time passed away, and he was not remembered. The accustomed work in the
accustomed place was ours, and the thought of the once-free mountaineer
spending his years in prison seldom or never occurred to us. Even my
light-hearted Mini, I am ashamed to say, forgot her old friend. New
companions filled her life. As she grew older, she spent more of her time
with girls. So much time indeed did she spend with them that she came no
more, as she used to do, to her father's room. I was scarcely on speaking
terms with her.
Years had passed away. It was once more autumn and we had made
arrangements for our Mini's marriage. It was to take place during the Puja
Holidays. With Durga returning to Kailas, the light of our home also was
to depart to her husband's house, and leave her father's in the shadow.
The morning was bright. After the rains, there was a sense of ablution in
the air, and the sun-rays looked like pure gold. So bright were they that
they gave a beautiful radiance even to the sordid brick walls of our
Calcutta lanes. Since early dawn to-day the wedding-pipes had been
sounding, and at each beat my own heart throbbed. The wail of the tune,
Bhairavi, seemed to intensify my pain at the approaching separation. My
Mini was to be married to-night.
From early morning noise and bustle had pervaded the house. In the
courtyard the canopy had to be slung on its bamboo poles; the chandeliers
with their tinkling sound must be hung in each room and verandah. There
was no end of hurry and excitement. I was sitting in my study, looking
through the accounts, when some one entered, saluting respectfully, and
stood before me. It was Rahmun the Cabuliwallah. At first I did not
recognise him. He had no bag, nor the long hair, nor the same vigour that
he used to have. But he smiled, and I knew him again.
"When did you come, Rahmun?" I asked him.
"Last evening," he said, "I was released from jail."
The words struck harsh upon my ears. I had never before talked with one
who had wounded his fellow, and my heart shrank within itself, when I
realised this, for I felt that the day would have been better-omened had
he not turned up.
"There are ceremonies going on," I said, "and I am busy. Could you perhaps
come another day?"
At once he turned to go; but as he reached the door he hesitated, and
said: "May I not see the little one, sir, for a moment?" It was his belief
that Mini was still the same. He had pictured her running to him as she
used, calling "O Cabuliwallah! Cabuliwallah!" He had imagined too that
they would laugh and talk together, just as of old. In fact, in memory of
former days he had brought, carefully wrapped up in paper, a few almonds
and raisins and grapes, obtained somehow from a countryman, for his own
little fund was dispersed.
I said again: "There is a ceremony in the house, and you will not be able
to see any one to-day."
The man's face fell. He looked wistfully at me for a moment, said "Good
morning," and went out. I felt a little sorry, and would have called him
back, but I found he was returning of his own accord. He came close up to
me holding out his offerings and said: "I brought these few things, sir,
for the little one. Will you give them to her?"
I took them and was going to pay him, but he caught my hand and said: "You
are very kind, sir! Keep me in your recollection. Do not offer me money!—You
have a little girl, I too have one like her in my own home. I think of
her, and bring fruits to your child, not to make a profit for myself."
Saying this, he put his hand inside his big loose robe, and brought out a
small and dirty piece of paper. With great care he unfolded this, and
smoothed it out with both hands on my table. It bore the impression of a
little band. Not a photograph. Not a drawing. The impression of an
ink-smeared hand laid flat on the paper. This touch of his own little
daughter had been always on his heart, as he had come year after year to
Calcutta, to sell his wares in the streets.
Tears came to my eyes. I forgot that he was a poor Cabuli fruit-seller,
while I was—but no, what was I more than he? He also was a father.
That impression of the hand of his little Parbati in her distant mountain
home reminded me of my own little Mini.
I sent for Mini immediately from the inner apartment. Many difficulties
were raised, but I would not listen. Clad in the red silk of her
wedding-day, with the sandal paste on her forehead, and adorned as a young
bride, Mini came, and stood bashfully before me.
The Cabuliwallah looked a little staggered at the apparition. He could not
revive their old friendship. At last he smiled and said: "Little one, are
you going to your father-in-law's house?"
But Mini now understood the meaning of the word "father-in-law," and she
could not reply to him as of old. She flushed up at the question, and
stood before him with her bride-like face turned down.
I remembered the day when the Cabuliwallah and my Mini had first met, and
I felt sad. When she had gone, Rahmun heaved a deep sigh, and sat down on
the floor. The idea had suddenly come to him that his daughter too must
have grown in this long time, and that he would have to make friends with
her anew. Assuredly he would not find her, as he used to know her. And
besides, what might not have happened to her in these eight years?
The marriage-pipes sounded, and the mild autumn sun streamed round us. But
Rahmun sat in the little Calcutta lane, and saw before him the barren
mountains of Afghanistan.
I took out a bank-note, and gave it to him, saying: "Go back to your own
daughter, Rahmun, in your own country, and may the happiness of your
meeting bring good fortune to my child!"
Having made this present, I had to curtail some of the festivities. I
could not have the electric lights I had intended, nor the military band,
and the ladies of the house were despondent at it. But to me the wedding
feast was all the brighter for the thought that in a distant land a
long-lost father met again with his only child.