The Bird on its Journey
by Beatrice Harraden
It was about four in the afternoon when a young girl came into the salon
of the little hotel at C—— in Switzerland, and drew her chair
up to the fire.
"You are soaked through," said an elderly lady, who was herself trying to
get roasted. "You ought to lose no time in changing your clothes."
"I have not anything to change," said the young girl, laughing. "Oh, I
shall soon be dry!"
"Have you lost all your luggage?" asked the lady, sympathetically.
"No," said the young girl; "I had none to lose." And she smiled a little
mischievously, as though she knew by instinct that her companion's
sympathy would at once degenerate into suspicion!
"I don't mean to say that I have not a knapsack," she added,
considerately. "I have walked a long distance—in fact, from Z——."
"And where did you leave your companions?" asked the lady, with a touch of
forgiveness in her voice.
"I am without companions, just as I am without luggage," laughed the girl.
And then she opened the piano, and struck a few notes. There was something
caressing in the way in which she touched the keys; whoever she was, she
knew how to make sweet music; sad music, too, full of that undefinable
longing, like the holding out of one's arms to one's friends in the
The lady bending over the fire looked up at the little girl, and forgot
that she had brought neither friends nor luggage with her. She hesitated
for one moment, and then she took the childish face between her hands and
"Thank you, dear, for your music," she said, gently.
"The piano is terribly out of tune," said the little girl, suddenly; and
she ran out of the room, and came back carrying her knapsack.
"What are you going to do?" asked her companion.
"I am going to tune the piano," the little girl said; and she took a
tuning-hammer out of her knapsack, and began her work in real earnest. She
evidently knew what she was about, and pegged away at the notes as though
her whole life depended upon the result.
The lady by the fire was lost in amazement. Who could she be? Without
luggage and without friends, and with a tuning-hammer!
Meanwhile one of the gentlemen had strolled into the salon; but hearing
the sound of tuning, and being in secret possession of nerves, he fled,
saying, "The tuner, by Jove!"
A few minutes afterward Miss Blake, whose nerves were no secret
possession, hastened into the salon, and, in her usual imperious fashion,
demanded instant silence.
"I have just done," said the little girl. "The piano was so terribly out
of tune, I could not resist the temptation."
Miss Blake, who never listened to what any one said, took it for granted
that the little girl was the tuner for whom M. le Proprietaire had
promised to send; and having bestowed on her a condescending nod, passed
out into the garden, where she told some of the visitors that the piano
had been tuned at last, and that the tuner was a young woman of rather
"Really, it is quite abominable how women thrust themselves into every
profession," she remarked, in her masculine voice. "It is so unfeminine,
There was nothing of the feminine about Miss Blake; her horse-cloth dress,
her waistcoat and high collar, and her billycock hat were of the masculine
genus; even her nerves could not be called feminine, since we learn from
two or three doctors (taken off their guard) that nerves are neither
feminine nor masculine, but common.
"I should like to see this tuner," said one of the tennis-players, leaning
against a tree.
"Here she comes," said Miss Blake, as the little girl was seen sauntering
into the garden.
The men put up their eye-glasses, and saw a little lady with a childish
face and soft brown hair, of strictly feminine appearance and bearing. The
goat came toward her and began nibbling at her frock. She seemed to
understand the manner of goats, and played with him to his heart's
content. One of the tennis players, Oswald Everard by name, strolled down
to the bank where she was having her frolic.
"Good-afternoon," he said, raising his cap. "I hope the goat is not
worrying you. Poor little fellow! this is his last day of play. He is to
be killed to-morrow for table d'hote."
"What a shame!" she said. "Fancy to be killed, and then grumbled at!"
"That is precisely what we do here," he said, laughing. "We grumble at
everything we eat. And I own to being one of the grumpiest; though the
lady in the horse-cloth dress yonder follows close upon my heels."
"She was the lady who was annoyed at me because I tuned the piano," the
little girl said. "Still, it had to be done. It was plainly my duty. I
seemed to have come for that purpose."
"It has been confoundedly annoying having it out of tune," he said. "I've
had to give up singing altogether. But what a strange profession you have
chosen! Very unusual, isn't it?"
"Why, surely not," she answered, amused. "It seems to me that every other
woman has taken to it. The wonder to me is that any one ever scores a
success. Nowadays, however, no one could amass a huge fortune out of it."
"No one, indeed!" replied Oswald Everard, laughing. "What on earth made
you take to it?"
"It took to me," she said simply. "It wrapped me round with enthusiasm. I
could think of nothing else. I vowed that I would rise to the top of my
profession. I worked day and night. But it means incessant toil for years
if one wants to make any headway."
"Good gracious! I thought it was merely a matter of a few months," he
said, smiling at the little girl.
"A few months!" she repeated, scornfully. "You are speaking the language
of an amateur. No; one has to work faithfully year after year; to grasp
the possibilities, and pass on to greater possibilities. You imagine what
it must feel like to touch the notes, and know that you are keeping the
listeners spellbound; that you are taking them into a fairy-land of sound,
where petty personality is lost in vague longing and regret."
"I confess I had not thought of it in that way," he said, humbly. "I have
only regarded it as a necessary every-day evil; and to be quite honest
with you, I fail to see now how it can inspire enthusiasm. I wish I could
see," he added, looking up at the engaging little figure before him.
"Never mind," she said, laughing at his distress; "I forgive you. And,
after all, you are not the only person who looks upon it as a necessary
evil. My poor old guardian abominated it. He made many sacrifices to come
and listen to me. He knew I liked to see his kind old face, and that the
presence of a real friend inspired me with confidence."
"I should not have thought it was nervous work," he said.
"Try it and see," she answered. "But surely you spoke of singing. Are you
not nervous when you sing?"
"Sometimes," he replied, rather stiffly. "But that is slightly different."
(He was very proud of his singing, and made a great fuss about it.) "Your
profession, as I remarked before, is an unavoidable nuisance. When I think
what I have suffered from the gentlemen of your profession, I only wonder
that I have any brains left. But I am uncourteous."
"No, no," she said; "let me hear about your sufferings."
"Whenever I have specially wanted to be quiet," he said—and then he
glanced at her childish little face, and he hesitated. "It seems so rude
of me," he added. He was the soul of courtesy, although he was an amateur
"Please tell me," the little girl said, in her winning way.
"Well," he said, gathering himself together, "it is the one subject on
which I can be eloquent. Ever since I can remember, I have been worried
and tortured by those rascals. I have tried in every way to escape from
them, but there is no hope for me. Yes; I believe that all the tuners in
the universe are in league against me, and have marked me out for their
"All the what?" asked the little girl, with a jerk in her voice.
"All the tuners, of course," he replied, rather snappishly. "I know that
we cannot do without them; but good heavens! they have no tact, no
consideration, no mercy. Whenever I've wanted to write or read quietly,
that fatal knock has come at the door, and I've known by instinct that all
chance of peace was over. Whenever I've been giving a luncheon party, the
tuner has arrived, with his abominable black bag, and his abominable card
which has to be signed at once. On one occasion I was just proposing to a
girl in her father's library when the tuner struck up in the drawing-room.
I left off suddenly, and fled from the house. But there is no escape from
these fiends; I believe they are swarming about in the air like so many
bacteria. And how, in the name of goodness, you should deliberately choose
to be one of them, and should be so enthusiastic over your work, puzzles
me beyond all words. Don't say that you carry a black bag, and present
cards which have to be filled up at the most inconvenient time; don't—"
He stopped suddenly, for the little girl was convulsed with laughter. She
laughed until the tears rolled down her cheeks, and then she dried her
eyes and laughed again.
"Excuse me," she said; "I can't help myself; it's so funny."
"It may be funny to you," he said, laughing in spite of himself; "but it
is not funny to me."
"Of course it isn't," she replied, making a desperate effort to be
serious. "Well, tell me something more about these tuners."
"Not another word," he said, gallantly. "I am ashamed of myself as it is.
Come to the end of the garden, and let me show you the view down into the
She had conquered her fit of merriment, but her face wore a settled look
of mischief, and she was evidently the possessor of some secret joke. She
seemed in capital health and spirits, and had so much to say that was
bright and interesting that Oswald Everard found himself becoming
reconciled to the whole race of tuners. He was amazed to learn that she
had walked all the way from Z——, and quite alone, too.
"Oh, I don't think anything of that," she said; "I had a splendid time,
and I caught four rare butterflies. I would not have missed those for
anything. As for the going about by myself, that is a second nature.
Besides, I do not belong to any one. That has its advantages, and I
suppose its disadvantages; but at present I have only discovered the
advantages. The disadvantages will discover themselves!"
"I believe you are what the novels call an advanced young woman," he said.
"Perhaps you give lectures on woman's suffrage, or something of that
"I have very often mounted the platform," she answered. "In fact, I am
never so happy as when addressing an immense audience. A most unfeminine
thing to do, isn't it? What would the lady yonder in the horse-cloth dress
and billycock hat say? Don't you think you ought to go and help her drive
away the goat? She looks so frightened. She interests me deeply. I wonder
whether she has written an essay on the feminine in woman. I should like
to read it; it would do me so much good."
"You are at least a true woman," he said, laughing, "for I see you can be
spiteful. The tuning has not driven that away."
"Ah, I had forgotten about the tuning," she answered, brightly; "but now
you remind me, I have been seized with a great idea."
"Won't you tell it to me?" he asked.
"No," she answered; "I keep my great ideas for myself, and work them out
in secret. And this one is particularly amusing. What fun I shall have!"
"But why keep the fun to yourself?" he said. "We all want to be amused
here; we all want to be stirred up; a little fun would be a charity."
"Very well, since you wish it, you shall be stirred up," she answered;
"but you must give me time to work out my great idea. I do not hurry about
things, not even about my professional duties; for I have a strong feeling
that it is vulgar to be always amassing riches! As I have neither a
husband nor a brother to support, I have chosen less wealth, and more
leisure to enjoy all the loveliness of life! So you see I take my time
about everything. And to-morrow I shall catch butterflies at my leisure,
and lie among the dear old pines, and work at my great idea."
"I shall catch butterflies," said her companion; "and I too shall lie
among the dear old pines."
"Just as you please," she said; and at that moment the table d'hote
The little girl hastened to the bureau, and spoke rapidly in German to the
"Ach, Fraulein!" he said. "You are not really serious?"
"Yes, I am," she said. "I don't want them to know my name. It will only
worry me. Say I am the young lady who tuned the piano."
She had scarcely given these directions and mounted to her room when
Oswald Everard, who was much interested in his mysterious companion, came
to the bureau, and asked for the name of the little lady.
"Es ist das Fraulein welches das Piano gestimmt hat," answered the
man, returning with unusual quickness to his account-book.
No one spoke to the little girl at table d'hote, but for all that
she enjoyed her dinner, and gave her serious attention to all the courses.
Being thus solidly occupied, she had not much leisure to bestow on the
conversation of the other guests. Nor was it specially original; it
treated of the short-comings of the chef, the tastelessness of the soup,
the toughness of the beef, and all the many failings which go to complete
a mountain hotel dinner. But suddenly, so it seemed to the little girl,
this time-honoured talk passed into another phase; she heard the word
"music" mentioned, and she became at once interested to learn what these
people had to say on a subject which was dearer to her than any other.
"For my own part," said a stern-looking old man, "I have no words to
describe what a gracious comfort music has been to me all my life. It is
the noblest language which man may understand and speak. And I sometimes
think that those who know it, or know something of it, are able at rare
moments to find an answer to life's perplexing problems."
The little girl looked up from her plate. Robert Browning's words rose to
her lips, but she did not give them utterance:
God has a few of us whom He whispers in the ear;
The rest may reason, and welcome; 'tis we musicians know.
"I have lived through a long life," said another elderly man, "and have
therefore had my share of trouble; but the grief of being obliged to give
up music was the grief which held me longest, or which perhaps has never
left me. I still crave for the gracious pleasure of touching once more the
strings of the violoncello, and hearing the dear, tender voice singing and
throbbing, and answering even to such poor skill as mine. I still yearn to
take my part in concerted music, and be one of those privileged to play
Beethoven's string-quartettes. But that will have to be in another
incarnation, I think."
He glanced at his shrunken arm, and then, as though ashamed of this
allusion to his own personal infirmity, he added hastily:
"But when the first pang of such a pain is over, there remains the comfort
of being a listener. At first one does not think it is a comfort; but as
time goes on there is no resisting its magic influence. And Lowell said
rightly that 'one of God's great charities is music.'"
"I did not know you were musical, Mr. Keith," said an English lady. "You
have never before spoken of music."
"Perhaps not, madam," he answered. "One does not often speak of what one
cares for most of all. But when I am in London I rarely miss hearing our
At this point others joined in, and the various merits of eminent pianists
were warmly discussed.
"What a wonderful name that little English lady has made for herself!"
said the major, who was considered an authority on all subjects. "I would
go anywhere to hear Miss Thyra Flowerdew. We all ought to be very proud of
her. She has taken even the German musical world by storm, and they say
her recitals at Paris have been brilliantly successful. I myself have
heard her at New York, Leipsic, London, Berlin, and even Chicago."
The little girl stirred uneasily in her chair.
"I don't think Miss Flowerdew has ever been to Chicago," she said.
There was a dead silence. The admirer of Miss Thyra Flowerdew looked much
annoyed, and twiddled his watch-chain. He had meant to say "Philadelphia,"
but he did not think it necessary to own to his mistake.
"What impertinence!" said one of the ladies to Miss Blake. "What can she
know about it? Is she not the young person who tuned the piano?"
"Perhaps she tunes Miss Thyra Flowerdew's piano!" suggested Miss Blake, in
a loud whisper.
"You are right, madam," said the little girl, quietly. "I have often tuned
Miss Flowerdew's piano."
There was another embarrassing silence; and then a lovely old lady, whom
every one reverenced, came to the rescue.
"I think her playing is simply superb," she said. "Nothing that I ever
hear satisfies me so entirely. She has all the tenderness of an angel's
"Listening to her," said the major, who had now recovered from his
annoyance at being interrupted, "one becomes unconscious of her presence,
for she is the music itself. And that is rare. It is but seldom
nowadays that we are allowed to forget the personality of the player. And
yet her personality is an unusual one; having once seen her, it would not
be easy to forget her. I should recognise her anywhere."
As he spoke, he glanced at the little tuner, and could not help admiring
her dignified composure under circumstances which might have been
distressing to any one; and when she rose with the others he followed her,
and said stiffly:
"I regret that I was the indirect cause of putting you in an awkward
"It is really of no consequence," she said, brightly. "If you think I was
impertinent, I ask your forgiveness. I did not mean to be officious. The
words were spoken before I was aware of them."
She passed into the salon, where she found a quiet corner for herself, and
read some of the newspapers. No one took the slightest notice of her; not
a word was spoken to her; but when she relieved the company of her
presence her impertinence was commented on.
"I am sorry that she heard what I said," remarked Miss Blake; "but she did
not seem to mind. These young women who go out into the world lose the
edge of their sensitiveness and femininity. I have always observed that."
"How much they are spared then!" answered some one.
Meanwhile the little girl slept soundly. She had merry dreams, and finally
woke up laughing. She hurried over her breakfast, and then stood ready to
go for a butterfly hunt. She looked thoroughly happy, and evidently had
found, and was holding tightly, the key to life's enjoyment.
Oswald Everard was waiting on the balcony, and he reminded her that he
intended to go with her.
"Come along then," she answered; "we must not lose a moment."
They caught butterflies; they picked flowers; they ran; they lingered by
the wayside; they sang; they climbed, and he marvelled at her easy speed.
Nothing seemed to tire her, and everything seemed to delight her—the
flowers, the birds, the clouds, the grasses, and the fragrance of the pine
"Is it not good to live?" she cried. "Is it not splendid to take in the
scented air? Draw in as many long breaths as you can. Isn't it good? Don't
you feel now as though you were ready to move mountains? I do. What a dear
old nurse Nature is! How she pets us, and gives us the best of her
Her happiness invaded Oswald Everard's soul, and he felt like a school-boy
once more, rejoicing in a fine day and his liberty, with nothing to spoil
the freshness of the air, and nothing to threaten the freedom of the
"Is it not good to live?" he cried. "Yes, indeed it is, if we know how to
They had come upon some haymakers, and the little girl hastened up to help
them, laughing and talking to the women, and helping them to pile up the
hay on the shoulders of a broad-backed man, who then conveyed his burden
to a pear-shaped stack. Oswald Everard watched his companion for a moment,
and then, quite forgetting his dignity as an amateur tenor singer, he too
lent his aid, and did not leave off until his companion sank exhausted on
"Oh," she laughed, "what delightful work for a very short time! Come
along; let us go into that brown chatlet yonder and ask for some milk. I
am simply parched with thirst. Thank you, but I prefer to carry my own
"What an independent little lady you are!" he said.
"It is quite necessary in our profession, I can assure you," she said,
with a tone of mischief in her voice. "That reminds me that my profession
is evidently not looked upon with any favour by the visitors at the hotel.
I am heartbroken to think that I have not won the esteem of that lady in
the billycock hat. What will she say to you for coming out with me? And
what will she say of me for allowing you to come? I wonder whether she
will say, 'How unfeminine!' I wish I could hear her!"
"I don't suppose you care," he said. "You seem to be a wild little bird."
"I don't care what a person of that description says," replied his
"What on earth made you contradict the major at dinner last night?" he
asked. "I was not at the table, but some one told me of the incident; and
I felt very sorry about it. What could you know of Miss Thyra Flowerdew?"
"Well, considering that she is in my profession, of course I know
something about her," said the little girl.
"Confound it all!" he said, rather rudely. "Surely there is some
difference between the bellows-blower and the organist."
"Absolutely none," she answered; "merely a variation of the original
As she spoke she knocked at the door of the chalet, and asked the old dame
to give them some milk. They sat in the Stube, and the little girl
looked about, and admired the spinning-wheel and the quaint chairs and the
queer old jugs and the pictures on the walls.
"Ah, but you shall see the other room," the old peasant woman said; and
she led them into a small apartment which was evidently intended for a
study. It bore evidences of unusual taste and care, and one could see that
some loving hand had been trying to make it a real sanctum of refinement.
There was even a small piano. A carved book-rack was fastened to the wall.
The old dame did not speak at first; she gave her guests time to recover
from the astonishment which she felt they must be experiencing; then she
pointed proudly to the piano.
"I bought that for my daughters," she said, with a strange mixture of
sadness and triumph. "I wanted to keep them at home with me, and I saved
and saved, and got enough money to buy the piano. They had always wanted
to have one, and I thought they would then stay with me. They liked music
and books, and I knew they would be glad to have a room of their own where
they might read and play and study; and so I gave them this corner."
"Well, mother," asked the little girl, "and where are they this
"Ah," she answered sadly, "they did not care to stay; but it was natural
enough, and I was foolish to grieve. Besides, they come to see me."
"And then they play to you?" asked the little girl, gently.
"They say the piano is out of tune," the old dame said. "I don't know.
Perhaps you can tell."
The little girl sat down to the piano, and struck a few chords.
"Yes," she said; "it is badly out of tune. Give me the tuning-hammer. I am
sorry," she added, smiling at Oswald Everard, "but I cannot neglect my
duty. Don't wait for me."
"I will wait for you," he said, sullenly; and he went into the balcony and
smoked his pipe, and tried to possess his soul in patience.
When she had faithfully done her work she played a few simple melodies,
such as she knew the old woman would love and understand; and she turned
away when she saw that the listener's eyes were moist.
"Play once again," the old woman whispered. "I am dreaming of beautiful
So the little tuner touched the keys again with all the tenderness of an
"Tell your daughters," she said, as she rose to say good-bye, "that the
piano is now in good tune. Then they will play to you the next time they
"I shall always remember you, mademoiselle," the old woman said; and,
almost unconsciously, she took the childish face and kissed it.
Oswald Everard was waiting in the hay-field for his companion; and when
she apologised to him for this little professional intermezzo, as she
called it, he recovered from his sulkiness and readjusted his nerves,
which the noise of the tuning had somewhat disturbed.
"It was very good of you to tune the old dame's piano," he said, looking
at her with renewed interest.
"Some one had to do it, of course," she answered, brightly, "and I am glad
the chance fell to me. What a comfort it is to think that the next time
those daughters come to see her they will play to her and make her very
happy! Poor old dear!"
"You puzzle me greatly," he said. "I cannot for the life of me think what
made you choose your calling. You must have many gifts; any one who talks
with you must see that at once. And you play quite nicely, too."
"I am sorry that my profession sticks in your throat," she answered. "Do
be thankful that I am nothing worse than a tuner. For I might be something
worse—a snob, for instance."
And, so speaking, she dashed after a butterfly, and left him to recover
from her words. He was conscious of having deserved a reproof; and when at
last he overtook her he said as much, and asked for her kind indulgence.
"I forgive you," she said, laughing. "You and I are not looking at things
from the same point of view; but we have had a splendid morning together,
and I have enjoyed every minute of it. And to-morrow I go on my way."
"And to-morrow you go," he repeated. "Can it not be the day after
"I am a bird of passage," she said, shaking her head. "You must not seek
to detain me. I have taken my rest, and off I go to other climes."
They had arrived at the hotel, and Oswald Everard saw no more of his
companion until the evening, when she came down rather late for table
d'hote. She hurried over her dinner and went into the salon. She
closed the door, and sat down to the piano, and lingered there without
touching the keys; once or twice she raised her hands, and then she let
them rest on the notes, and, half unconsciously, they began to move and
make sweet music; and then they drifted into Schumann's "Abendlied," and
then the little girl played some of his "Kinderscenen," and some of his
"Fantasie Stucke," and some of his songs.
Her touch and feeling were exquisite, and her phrasing betrayed the true
musician. The strains of music reached the dining-room, and, one by one,
the guests came creeping in, moved by the music and anxious to see the
The little girl did not look up; she was in a Schumann mood that evening,
and only the players of Schumann know what enthralling possession he takes
of their very spirit. All the passion and pathos and wildness and longing
had found an inspired interpreter; and those who listened to her were held
by the magic which was her own secret, and which had won for her such
honour as comes only to the few. She understood Schumann's music, and was
at her best with him.
Had she, perhaps, chosen to play his music this evening because she wished
to be at her best? Or was she merely being impelled by an overwhelming
force within her? Perhaps it was something of both.
Was she wishing to humiliate these people who had received her so coldly?
This little girl was only human; perhaps there was something of that
feeling too. Who can tell? But she played as she had never played in
London, or Paris, or Berlin, or New York, or Philadelphia.
At last she arrived at the "Carnaval," and those who heard her declared
afterward that they had never listened to a more magnificent rendering.
The tenderness was so restrained; the vigour was so refined. When the last
notes of that spirited "Marche des Davidsbundler contre les Philistins"
had died away, she glanced at Oswald Everard, who was standing near her
"And now my favourite piece of all," she said; and she at once began the
"Second Novelette," the finest of the eight, but seldom played in public.
What can one say of the wild rush of the leading theme, and the pathetic
longing of the intermezzo?
. . . The murmuring dying notes,
That fall as soft as snow on the sea;
The passionate strain that, deeply going,
Refines the bosom it trembles through.
What can one say of those vague aspirations and finest thoughts which
possess the very dullest among us when such music as that which the little
girl had chosen catches us and keeps us, if only for a passing moment, but
that moment of the rarest worth and loveliness in our unlovely lives?
What can one say of the highest music except that, like death, it is the
great leveller: it gathers us all to its tender keeping—and we rest.
The little girl ceased playing. There was not a sound to be heard; the
magic was still holding her listeners. When at last they had freed
themselves with a sigh, they pressed forward to greet her.
"There is only one person who can play like that," cried the major, with
sudden inspiration—"she is Miss Thyra Flowerdew."
The little girl smiled.
"That is my name," she said, simply; and she slipped out of the room.
The next morning, at an early hour, the bird of passage took her flight
onward, but she was not destined to go off unobserved. Oswald Everard saw
the little figure swinging along the road, and she overtook her.
"You little wild bird!" he said. "And so this was your great idea—to
have your fun out of us all, and then play to us and make us feel I don't
know how, and then to go."
"You said the company wanted stirring up," she answered, "and I rather
fancy I have stirred them up."
"And what do you suppose you have done for me?" he asked.
"I hope I have proved to you that the bellows-blower and the organist are
sometimes identical," she answered.
But he shook his head.
"Little wild bird," he said, "you have given me a great idea, and I will
tell you what it is: to tame you. So good-bye for the present."
"Good-bye," she said. "But wild birds are not so easily tamed."
Then she waved her hand over her head, and went on her way singing.